Stolen Soul
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Chapter 8
A/N: Thanks Isa383 for the awesome review! It was updated early because the old Chapter 4 was way overdue, I didn't relise it hadn't been posted. We are working on Chapter 9 now, it shouldn't be too much longer until its ready.
A/N 2: The story has been reshuffled so there are more chapters now, and are cut in better places.
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Maddison got up and showered. She dressed and made her way down to the dining hall where she found her mother sat alone.
“Maddison what are you doing up? You look terrible”, Marianne said and Maddison flopped into a dining chair and rested her aching head in her hands.
“Thanks mum”, she replied and Marianne smiled at her daughter.
“Go back to bed and I’ll bring you up some tea”, she said but Maddison shook her head.
“I have some research to do…I’ll go back to bed later”, she replied and Marianne sighed.
At least Maddison seemed to have gotten Marcus Baker out of her system.
“So who are you researching this time?”, she asked as Maddison stood to leave the room.
“No-one interesting mum…its just something that’s nagging me that’s all…I wont bore you with the details”, she replied and Marianne frowned as she left her alone again.
Maddison moved to the library, her head banging painfully as she sat in front of a computer and switched it on.
She needed to find out some information about the woman who had been in Stolen Soul with Marcus but she realised tiredly that she didn’t even know her name.
Groaning she stood and went back to her room. She needed to see Marcus as it looked like they needed to sit down and talk about what was happening.
She got together all of her research so far and stuffed it into a back pack and hid it under her bed.
She would have to try and sneak out again tonight and she just hoped that her luck held and her mother and Michael didn’t discover what she was doing.
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Later that evening, once it was dark, Maddison waited for her mother to check in on her and then she told Marianne that she was turning in for the night…hoping that her mum would leave her be and tell Michael to do the same.
She waited ten minutes, her ears straining to hear if anyone was outside of her door and when she figured it was safe she grabbed the hidden back-pack and moved to the window.
She pulled the curtains open and a scream stuck in her throat as she saw Marcus hovering outside.
For a moment they stared at one another through the glass until eventually Marcus mouthed to her,
“Are you going to let me in or do I have to hover here all night?”.
Maddison blinked and then opened the window.
“What are you doing here?”, she hissed at him, glancing behind her at her bedroom door, certain that she was going to be heard.
“We need to talk”, Marcus replied and Maddison sighed and looked back at him.
“I don’t know if I should let you in here”, she muttered and Marcus shrugged.
Just then they both heard voices down below and she grabbed his arm and pulled him through the window then closed it softly and shut the curtains again.
She turned to face him and could only just make him out in the dim light from her digital alarm clock but she knew he would be able to see her perfectly well with his excellent night vision.
She raised a hand to her still throbbing head and he said softly,
“Your head still hurts?”.
“Yes”, she replied, then jumped as he was suddenly right in front of her, his hands at her temples.
“Relax”, he told her as he channelled into her mind and managed to stop the remaining pain from Claudette’s attack on Maddison.
“I mustn’t have managed to get it all last night”, he told her as she sighed at the feeling of having a pain free head.
“Thank you”, she said and Marcus regarded her.
“I should be the one thanking you by all accounts…for saving me last night”, he said and Maddison shrugged.
“Well, we’re even now…you stopped that horrible screeching from driving me insane”.
They moved over to Maddison’s bed and perched on the edge.
“I was just on my way to see you to discuss what I’d managed to find out so far…I was bringing my research”, she said indicating to her back pack and Marcus nodded.
“I keep having dreams…”, he said, stopping when Maddison looked at him sharply.
“You’re having them too”, she stated and he nodded.
“But they mustn’t be the same otherwise you would have known that the woman in the club last night had the knife under the table”.
“No, I didnt see that. I dream about us….in bed”, Marcus told her and Maddison felt her skin flush in the darkness, embarrassed because she knew he would see.
She bent her head as she replied,
“I see that too”.
Marcus reached out and touched his hand to her face gently, angling it back up so that she looked into his eyes.
“I’m sorry for the way I spoke to you when we first met. It’s a long time since I’ve let anyone get close to me Maddison for obvious reasons…but you persisted and I still pushed you away. The thought of what you could return to me scared me and I convinced myself that I didn’t want it…that I didn’t want to know you…but I was wrong”.
Maddison pressed her hand to his face and she could almost feel how lonely he had been throughout the centuries and her heart cried for him.
“Marcus….”, she whispered his name just before his mouth closed over hers.
Maddison moaned as Marcus’ hands moved from her face, down her neck and over her shoulders and she leaned into him, her hands against his chest.
Marcus tried to push her backwards and down onto the mattress but Maddison shook her head and tore her mouth from his.
“Wait!”, she said and Marcus looked at her and she saw the desire in his eyes…desire that no longer frightened her.
“We should go to your house…we cant afford to be caught together here…Michael would kill me….”, she trailed off as Marcus scowled at her.
“He would have to get past me first”, he said and his words sent a thrill though Maddison.
They moved off the bed and Maddison drew back the curtains again and opening the window she peered out and looked down to see if anyone was around.
“All clear”, she said and Marcus went first…hovering outside the window again whilst she handed him the back pack and then climbed out. She shut the window, once again leaving a gap big enough for her fingers and then went to move to the drainpipe.
“What are you doing?”, Marcus asked watching her with interest and she paused and looked at him.
She smiled as she realised that she didn’t have to use that way down since he was there and she reached out and put her arms around his neck as he lowered them to the ground.
She led the way to the loose fence panel and then they left the mansion grounds.
“This seems strange”, Maddison said as they walked.
“What does?”, Marcus asked, his senses on alert for any other vampire presence.
Claudette’s to be precise.
“The fact that we’re walking along like this…normally you take one look at me and then go in the opposite direction”.
“Well…I told you that I was sorry about that and I think the dreams are trying to tell us something and we need to get to the bottom of it…for both our sakes”, Marcus replied.
They reached his house and Marcus was just unlocking his front door when the old couple from next door came out of their house.
“Oh hello Marcus dear”, the old woman said, her eyes immediately going to Maddison who smiled at the woman.
“Hello Jean….Bob”, Marcus replied nodding to the old man stood behind his wife.
“Nice to see you have a lady friend at last…”, Jean said and Maddison blushed as Bob put a hand on his wife’s shoulder.
“Take no notice of my wife”, he said, hurrying Jean along and Marcus shook his head and pushed open his door.
“They seem nice”, Maddison said as she followed him inside and he bolted the door behind them.
“I could think of worse neighbours to have”, he replied, dropping her back pack onto the floor in the hallway and they looked at one another as a heavy tension settled between them.
They moved toward one another at the same time, Marcus lifting Maddison against him as he moved her toward the stairs.
Maddison wrapped her arms around his neck and closed her eyes as she felt his mouth against the soft skin just below her ear and when she opened them again they were in his bedroom.
She knew vampires could move fast but she hadn’t even felt them move up the stairs.
Marcus lowered his head and touched her warm, soft lips with his and when she sighed he let himself get lost in their kiss, enjoying the warm, sweet taste of her upon his tongue. He loved the way she so innocently gave herself to him…how she had always seemed to trust that he wouldn’t hurt her…even when she hadn’t really known for certain whether he would or not.
He pulled her even closer offering her his protection and his strength for that was all he could offer her at the moment.
Maddison’s fingers reached for the buttons on his shirt. She was eager to see and feel his muscular body and Marcus had to fight against the desire to tear her clothes from her and take her quickly and fiercely as he sensed that she was not yet ready for that kind of love making…but maybe given time…
Tentatively Maddison moved her mouth to his throat and he moaned at the soft butterfly feel of her lips upon his skin.
When she was done with his buttons Marcus shrugged out of his shirt and Maddison smiled in appreciation as she ran her hands over his skin.
“Not bad for a vampire your age”, she said, trying to keep her face straight and Marcus grinned at her.
His fingers slid up underneath the jumper she wore and she gasped as his thumbs brushed her nipples through the lace of her bra.
She lifted her arms and he pushed the jumper up and over her head and he couldn’t stop the growl the came from his throat at the sight of her breasts.
He threw her jumper to the floor and reached for the button and zipper on her jeans whilst Maddison reached for his. Marcus got hers open first and he pushed his hands inside and cupped her bottom making Maddison moan and she buried her face in the crook of his neck as desire raced through her.
She fleetingly wondered if he would know that she was a virgin. She suddenly became very apprehensive just as Marcus seemed to lose control of his emotions and she heard rather than saw his fangs begin to distend from his gums.
He stepped away from her long enough to remove the rest of his clothes and then he lifted her and put her down in the middle of his huge bed. He tried to take his time with her but he wanted her so badly that he couldn’t hold back any longer.
He removed her bra and then lowered his mouth to one rosy bud, his fangs grazing the tip and Maddison cried out, her fingers spearing into his dark hair as his hands tugged her jeans down her thighs.
Marcus clamped down hard on his raging desire, trying to go slow but the touch of her skin and the scent of her was driving him mad.
He divested her of the jeans, his eyes glittering as he hooked his fingers into her lace panties and pulled them down over her hips and legs and Maddison lay there and watched him, rapt as his eyes devoured her naked form.
“Beautiful”, he rasped and she blushed, her nervousness easing somewhat and she held her arms open and he lowered himself down to her, moving in between her soft thighs as he did so.
He reached between their bodies and slid a finger against her moist opening and Maddison sighed and moved restlessly against him, her eyes shutting as he stroked her until she could stand no more.
She opened her eyes and moaned,
“Please Marcus…”.
He did not need another invitation and he quickly buried himself into her heat.
Maddison cried out and dug her fingernails into his shoulders as he took her virginity in one hard thrust and her body stilled as she grew accustomed to having him inside of her.
Marcus felt the resistance of her body but couldn’t hold himself back even though he was shocked to find her a virgin and he withdrew and pushed back inside of her, hoping that she wasn’t in too much pain. He lowered his mouth to her throat and sunk his fangs into her vein wanting to distract her and it seemed to work and her body began to relax as he drew some blood.
As he finally felt her begin to move beneath him again a surge of possessiveness roared through him and he knew that she would be his from this night on. She would never belong to another and neither would he.
He began to move inside of her, eliciting gasps and mewls of delight from her and he found himself wanting to make this first time as pleasurable an experience as possible for her.
He’d never thought of making love as a selfless act before but this woman seemed capable of making him think and want things that hadn’t seemed to matter to him before he’d met her.
Maddison hoped that Marcus wasn’t disappointed that she was a virgin. She’d felt his surprise as he’d entered her but he’d covered his shock quickly and had bitten her, the exquisite tugging feeling she got from it taking her mind off the slight discomfort between her thighs.
Slight discomfort that soon gave way to intense pleasure as Marcus thrust his hard body against her, stealing her breath and making her want to pant for more. She wondered if he would mind if she begged him to thrust harder?
As if he’d read her mind Marcus suddenly pushed his hands underneath her buttocks and lifted her against him, thrusting hard and fast and deep and Maddison could only scream out her joy as her very first orgasm rocked her to the core and she wrapped her arms and legs around Marcus as she felt him begin to shudder as his climax gripped him.
They lay together breathing hard and Maddison heard the tell-tale cracking sound as Marcus’ fangs retracted once more.
Still panting he opened his eyes and looked down at her and she frowned as she saw the look of regret there.
Her heart began to pound as he said,
“I’m sorry Maddison”.
“For….for what?”, she asked almost not wanting to hear him reject her.
“For taking you like the monster I am. Cold, unfeeling…….”, he trailed off shaking his head with disgust and Maddison blinked up at him as she digested the fact that he wasn’t saying he was disappointed in her.
She was so happy about that that she managed to catch him by surprise and she pushed him onto his back and leaned over him.
“Marcus…you are not a monster and I…I enjoyed it very much…to be honest I thought you would be disappointed in me”.
Marcus reached up and cupped her face.
“How could I be disappointed in you?”, he asked softly and Maddison blushed.
“Because I have no experience what-so-ever and the women you must have been with in the past…..”, she trailed off, frowning as though the thought upset her and Marcus quickly reversed their positions again so that she was beneath him once more.
“Maddison…it was fantastic to be with someone like you…someone so innocent and giving….”, he said, smiling as he saw her colour up at his compliments.
He lowered his head to her and kissed her tenderly before lying beside her and pulling her into his arms.
He knew that they needed to discuss his soul and Claudette but that could wait…for now.
For a while longer he wanted to enjoy feeling something that he never thought he would feel again…love.
A/N 2: The story has been reshuffled so there are more chapters now, and are cut in better places.
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Maddison got up and showered. She dressed and made her way down to the dining hall where she found her mother sat alone.
“Maddison what are you doing up? You look terrible”, Marianne said and Maddison flopped into a dining chair and rested her aching head in her hands.
“Thanks mum”, she replied and Marianne smiled at her daughter.
“Go back to bed and I’ll bring you up some tea”, she said but Maddison shook her head.
“I have some research to do…I’ll go back to bed later”, she replied and Marianne sighed.
At least Maddison seemed to have gotten Marcus Baker out of her system.
“So who are you researching this time?”, she asked as Maddison stood to leave the room.
“No-one interesting mum…its just something that’s nagging me that’s all…I wont bore you with the details”, she replied and Marianne frowned as she left her alone again.
Maddison moved to the library, her head banging painfully as she sat in front of a computer and switched it on.
She needed to find out some information about the woman who had been in Stolen Soul with Marcus but she realised tiredly that she didn’t even know her name.
Groaning she stood and went back to her room. She needed to see Marcus as it looked like they needed to sit down and talk about what was happening.
She got together all of her research so far and stuffed it into a back pack and hid it under her bed.
She would have to try and sneak out again tonight and she just hoped that her luck held and her mother and Michael didn’t discover what she was doing.
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Later that evening, once it was dark, Maddison waited for her mother to check in on her and then she told Marianne that she was turning in for the night…hoping that her mum would leave her be and tell Michael to do the same.
She waited ten minutes, her ears straining to hear if anyone was outside of her door and when she figured it was safe she grabbed the hidden back-pack and moved to the window.
She pulled the curtains open and a scream stuck in her throat as she saw Marcus hovering outside.
For a moment they stared at one another through the glass until eventually Marcus mouthed to her,
“Are you going to let me in or do I have to hover here all night?”.
Maddison blinked and then opened the window.
“What are you doing here?”, she hissed at him, glancing behind her at her bedroom door, certain that she was going to be heard.
“We need to talk”, Marcus replied and Maddison sighed and looked back at him.
“I don’t know if I should let you in here”, she muttered and Marcus shrugged.
Just then they both heard voices down below and she grabbed his arm and pulled him through the window then closed it softly and shut the curtains again.
She turned to face him and could only just make him out in the dim light from her digital alarm clock but she knew he would be able to see her perfectly well with his excellent night vision.
She raised a hand to her still throbbing head and he said softly,
“Your head still hurts?”.
“Yes”, she replied, then jumped as he was suddenly right in front of her, his hands at her temples.
“Relax”, he told her as he channelled into her mind and managed to stop the remaining pain from Claudette’s attack on Maddison.
“I mustn’t have managed to get it all last night”, he told her as she sighed at the feeling of having a pain free head.
“Thank you”, she said and Marcus regarded her.
“I should be the one thanking you by all accounts…for saving me last night”, he said and Maddison shrugged.
“Well, we’re even now…you stopped that horrible screeching from driving me insane”.
They moved over to Maddison’s bed and perched on the edge.
“I was just on my way to see you to discuss what I’d managed to find out so far…I was bringing my research”, she said indicating to her back pack and Marcus nodded.
“I keep having dreams…”, he said, stopping when Maddison looked at him sharply.
“You’re having them too”, she stated and he nodded.
“But they mustn’t be the same otherwise you would have known that the woman in the club last night had the knife under the table”.
“No, I didnt see that. I dream about us….in bed”, Marcus told her and Maddison felt her skin flush in the darkness, embarrassed because she knew he would see.
She bent her head as she replied,
“I see that too”.
Marcus reached out and touched his hand to her face gently, angling it back up so that she looked into his eyes.
“I’m sorry for the way I spoke to you when we first met. It’s a long time since I’ve let anyone get close to me Maddison for obvious reasons…but you persisted and I still pushed you away. The thought of what you could return to me scared me and I convinced myself that I didn’t want it…that I didn’t want to know you…but I was wrong”.
Maddison pressed her hand to his face and she could almost feel how lonely he had been throughout the centuries and her heart cried for him.
“Marcus….”, she whispered his name just before his mouth closed over hers.
Maddison moaned as Marcus’ hands moved from her face, down her neck and over her shoulders and she leaned into him, her hands against his chest.
Marcus tried to push her backwards and down onto the mattress but Maddison shook her head and tore her mouth from his.
“Wait!”, she said and Marcus looked at her and she saw the desire in his eyes…desire that no longer frightened her.
“We should go to your house…we cant afford to be caught together here…Michael would kill me….”, she trailed off as Marcus scowled at her.
“He would have to get past me first”, he said and his words sent a thrill though Maddison.
They moved off the bed and Maddison drew back the curtains again and opening the window she peered out and looked down to see if anyone was around.
“All clear”, she said and Marcus went first…hovering outside the window again whilst she handed him the back pack and then climbed out. She shut the window, once again leaving a gap big enough for her fingers and then went to move to the drainpipe.
“What are you doing?”, Marcus asked watching her with interest and she paused and looked at him.
She smiled as she realised that she didn’t have to use that way down since he was there and she reached out and put her arms around his neck as he lowered them to the ground.
She led the way to the loose fence panel and then they left the mansion grounds.
“This seems strange”, Maddison said as they walked.
“What does?”, Marcus asked, his senses on alert for any other vampire presence.
Claudette’s to be precise.
“The fact that we’re walking along like this…normally you take one look at me and then go in the opposite direction”.
“Well…I told you that I was sorry about that and I think the dreams are trying to tell us something and we need to get to the bottom of it…for both our sakes”, Marcus replied.
They reached his house and Marcus was just unlocking his front door when the old couple from next door came out of their house.
“Oh hello Marcus dear”, the old woman said, her eyes immediately going to Maddison who smiled at the woman.
“Hello Jean….Bob”, Marcus replied nodding to the old man stood behind his wife.
“Nice to see you have a lady friend at last…”, Jean said and Maddison blushed as Bob put a hand on his wife’s shoulder.
“Take no notice of my wife”, he said, hurrying Jean along and Marcus shook his head and pushed open his door.
“They seem nice”, Maddison said as she followed him inside and he bolted the door behind them.
“I could think of worse neighbours to have”, he replied, dropping her back pack onto the floor in the hallway and they looked at one another as a heavy tension settled between them.
They moved toward one another at the same time, Marcus lifting Maddison against him as he moved her toward the stairs.
Maddison wrapped her arms around his neck and closed her eyes as she felt his mouth against the soft skin just below her ear and when she opened them again they were in his bedroom.
She knew vampires could move fast but she hadn’t even felt them move up the stairs.
Marcus lowered his head and touched her warm, soft lips with his and when she sighed he let himself get lost in their kiss, enjoying the warm, sweet taste of her upon his tongue. He loved the way she so innocently gave herself to him…how she had always seemed to trust that he wouldn’t hurt her…even when she hadn’t really known for certain whether he would or not.
He pulled her even closer offering her his protection and his strength for that was all he could offer her at the moment.
Maddison’s fingers reached for the buttons on his shirt. She was eager to see and feel his muscular body and Marcus had to fight against the desire to tear her clothes from her and take her quickly and fiercely as he sensed that she was not yet ready for that kind of love making…but maybe given time…
Tentatively Maddison moved her mouth to his throat and he moaned at the soft butterfly feel of her lips upon his skin.
When she was done with his buttons Marcus shrugged out of his shirt and Maddison smiled in appreciation as she ran her hands over his skin.
“Not bad for a vampire your age”, she said, trying to keep her face straight and Marcus grinned at her.
His fingers slid up underneath the jumper she wore and she gasped as his thumbs brushed her nipples through the lace of her bra.
She lifted her arms and he pushed the jumper up and over her head and he couldn’t stop the growl the came from his throat at the sight of her breasts.
He threw her jumper to the floor and reached for the button and zipper on her jeans whilst Maddison reached for his. Marcus got hers open first and he pushed his hands inside and cupped her bottom making Maddison moan and she buried her face in the crook of his neck as desire raced through her.
She fleetingly wondered if he would know that she was a virgin. She suddenly became very apprehensive just as Marcus seemed to lose control of his emotions and she heard rather than saw his fangs begin to distend from his gums.
He stepped away from her long enough to remove the rest of his clothes and then he lifted her and put her down in the middle of his huge bed. He tried to take his time with her but he wanted her so badly that he couldn’t hold back any longer.
He removed her bra and then lowered his mouth to one rosy bud, his fangs grazing the tip and Maddison cried out, her fingers spearing into his dark hair as his hands tugged her jeans down her thighs.
Marcus clamped down hard on his raging desire, trying to go slow but the touch of her skin and the scent of her was driving him mad.
He divested her of the jeans, his eyes glittering as he hooked his fingers into her lace panties and pulled them down over her hips and legs and Maddison lay there and watched him, rapt as his eyes devoured her naked form.
“Beautiful”, he rasped and she blushed, her nervousness easing somewhat and she held her arms open and he lowered himself down to her, moving in between her soft thighs as he did so.
He reached between their bodies and slid a finger against her moist opening and Maddison sighed and moved restlessly against him, her eyes shutting as he stroked her until she could stand no more.
She opened her eyes and moaned,
“Please Marcus…”.
He did not need another invitation and he quickly buried himself into her heat.
Maddison cried out and dug her fingernails into his shoulders as he took her virginity in one hard thrust and her body stilled as she grew accustomed to having him inside of her.
Marcus felt the resistance of her body but couldn’t hold himself back even though he was shocked to find her a virgin and he withdrew and pushed back inside of her, hoping that she wasn’t in too much pain. He lowered his mouth to her throat and sunk his fangs into her vein wanting to distract her and it seemed to work and her body began to relax as he drew some blood.
As he finally felt her begin to move beneath him again a surge of possessiveness roared through him and he knew that she would be his from this night on. She would never belong to another and neither would he.
He began to move inside of her, eliciting gasps and mewls of delight from her and he found himself wanting to make this first time as pleasurable an experience as possible for her.
He’d never thought of making love as a selfless act before but this woman seemed capable of making him think and want things that hadn’t seemed to matter to him before he’d met her.
Maddison hoped that Marcus wasn’t disappointed that she was a virgin. She’d felt his surprise as he’d entered her but he’d covered his shock quickly and had bitten her, the exquisite tugging feeling she got from it taking her mind off the slight discomfort between her thighs.
Slight discomfort that soon gave way to intense pleasure as Marcus thrust his hard body against her, stealing her breath and making her want to pant for more. She wondered if he would mind if she begged him to thrust harder?
As if he’d read her mind Marcus suddenly pushed his hands underneath her buttocks and lifted her against him, thrusting hard and fast and deep and Maddison could only scream out her joy as her very first orgasm rocked her to the core and she wrapped her arms and legs around Marcus as she felt him begin to shudder as his climax gripped him.
They lay together breathing hard and Maddison heard the tell-tale cracking sound as Marcus’ fangs retracted once more.
Still panting he opened his eyes and looked down at her and she frowned as she saw the look of regret there.
Her heart began to pound as he said,
“I’m sorry Maddison”.
“For….for what?”, she asked almost not wanting to hear him reject her.
“For taking you like the monster I am. Cold, unfeeling…….”, he trailed off shaking his head with disgust and Maddison blinked up at him as she digested the fact that he wasn’t saying he was disappointed in her.
She was so happy about that that she managed to catch him by surprise and she pushed him onto his back and leaned over him.
“Marcus…you are not a monster and I…I enjoyed it very much…to be honest I thought you would be disappointed in me”.
Marcus reached up and cupped her face.
“How could I be disappointed in you?”, he asked softly and Maddison blushed.
“Because I have no experience what-so-ever and the women you must have been with in the past…..”, she trailed off, frowning as though the thought upset her and Marcus quickly reversed their positions again so that she was beneath him once more.
“Maddison…it was fantastic to be with someone like you…someone so innocent and giving….”, he said, smiling as he saw her colour up at his compliments.
He lowered his head to her and kissed her tenderly before lying beside her and pulling her into his arms.
He knew that they needed to discuss his soul and Claudette but that could wait…for now.
For a while longer he wanted to enjoy feeling something that he never thought he would feel again…love.