Brit Valentine

Chapter 7





"Colton, nobody knows where Brit is! Please tell me you know where he is!" Chad burst into Colton\'s house and ran straight for his room.



"No, I haven\'t talked to him recently." Chad walked out of the kitchen into the living room. Chad leaned on the upstairs railing and held his head.



"Brit, where are you?!" Chad stood up and meandered over to fall onto Colton\'s bed. Colton slowly walked upstairs and pet Chad\'s head as if it would make him feel better. Chad flopped over onto his back and stared at the ceiling.



"Who are these people?" Chad asked looking at each englared picture on the ceiling.



"People I want to bang but I can\'t for some reason."



Chad averted his gaze to look at Colton, who was looking at something on his computer. "Will he come here?"



"I don\'t know, he never gives me a warning."



The front door opened but no one called for Colton. Colton drew something quick in his sketchbook. Chad listened carefully but Brit never spoke as he walked up the stairs. He was drenched from the sudden down pour. When Brit opened Colton\'s bedroom door, the first thing he saw was Chad. He glanced at Colton\'s sign, which read "Surprise!" in big colorful letters, as he suddenly got very nauseous with himself. He ran to the bathroom and threw up everything he ate at Jayce\'s house into the toilet.



Chad immediately came in and wiped his mouth with a napkin and threw it away, hugging him as he burst into tears. Brit didn\'t hug him back or even act like he wanted a hug in the first place. Chad let him go and sat in front of him, watching the tears literally pour down his face. He tried to wipe them away but nothing was working because there was so many. When Brit opened his eyes they were blurry from all the water.



"Baby, what\'s wrong? I\'m here now..."



Brit got to a point where he couldn\'t hold himself up so he just let his torso lean forward. He rested his head on Chad\'s thigh and cried into his hands and shirt sleeves. Chad put a hand on Brit\'s back. He wasn\'t physically flexible enough to be down there with him, so he settled for the small amount of comfort a back rub would give Brit around now. Chad waited for Brit to say something. Colton had retreated to his room. Once he saw Brit crying like that he knew nothing he could do would help.



When Brit\'s tears became more controllable, he sat up propping himself up against the wall. "I don\'t understand... I can\'t even fathom..."



"What don\'t you understand, baby?" Chad was trying to help but he didn\'t know what Brit was getting at.



"I don\'t understand how you could do that to me. After everything we went through... I just don\'t understand."



"Why didn\'t you read the letters?" Chad asked looking directly at him switching the villain role to Brit. "In the last one, I wrote it a day before I arrived in New York and it gave you my cell phone number and you never called me."



"Chad... you would have thrown them away the second they were given to you."



"So fucking what? Why didn\'t you read them?"



"When you tell me why you left, I will tell you."



"I still love you..." Chad spoke softly. He couldn\'t tell if Brit hated him or not.



"I love you always." Brit smiled while he touched Chad\'s leg to balance him as he leaned forward to kiss his forehead. Chad lifted his head up and kissed Brit back. He put his hands on Brit\'s neck so he couldn\'t leave.



"Be mine." For Chad, that was asking.



Brit took his hands off him but Chad didn\'t. "I\'m with Jayce." Chad didn\'t say anything and Brit looked away. His eyes were still watery. Chad leaned forward and kissed Brit\'s neck lightly.



"Then be mine for tonight. Just tonight. He\'ll never know." Chad kissed Brit\'s neck again. Brit was busy trying not to cry. His whole body ached at being so close to Chad but knowing he couldn\'t give his heart to him again. If he did, Chad would break his heart again and that would definitely kill him.



"I love you." Brit didn\'t have success in holding back. He wrapped his arms around Chad\'s neck and cried softly into his shoulder. "I wish you never left."



"Me too." Brit tried to ignore that and kissed Chad.



"Chad..." Chad wasn\'t listening. He kissed Brit\'s neck and worked his way all over his body, taking off Brit\'s clothes slowly. When Chad got to Brit\'s pants he pushed him away, the tears returning yet again.



"I can\'t." Brit spoke while avoiding his gaze; his eyes tightly shut.



"Brit, baby, it\'s okay. I love you just the same." Brit looked up and Chad had a pleasant smile on his face. Brit sat on his lap and held him close.



"I love you." Brit whispered into his ear. He felt as though he didn\'t have enough time for Chad to really know how much he loved him. "Come on, let\'s go to the guest bedroom." Brit knew his heart would hurt when it was over, but he couldn\'t resist Chad no matter how hard he tried.



Brit grabbed his shirt and led him into the guest bedroom down the hall. When Brit closed the door, Chad picked him up and kissed him leaning Brit against the door. Chad carried him to the bed and set him down gently so he could take off his pants and Brit\'s pants. While he took off Brit\'s pants, Brit took off his shirt and pulled him into the bed with him.



The next morning, Chad was still laying asleep in bed when Colton came home from driving Brit to school. "Chad... you should probably get up now."



Chad glanced around and sat up stretching, "Where\'s Brit?"



"I took him to school."



"He\'s changed..."



"I tried to tell you."



"I tainted him didn\'t I?"



"He wanted you to."



"I regret leaving."



"No you don\'t. You regret regret throwing him away and thinking he\'d still be in the trash waiting for you when you came back. But if he wasn\'t with Jayce and you two got back together, you\'d do it again in a heartbeat and you know it. Except for maybe the second time I hope you would at least give him a heads up."



"I guess I deserve that."



"You deserve worse, but Brit loves you and he\'d be mad at me if I gave you what you deserve." Chad knew Colton would put him in the hospital for a minimum of two weeks if Brit wasn\'t such an important portion of his life.



"You think Jayce is good for him?"



"He\'s better than you."



"Ok, what the fuck?"



"Brit has been crying since you called him Josh in your sleep."



Chad fell back onto the bed and sighed. "I didn\'t mean to."



"You shouldn\'t have come back."



"Fine, I\'ll just stay out of your way."



"I knew you were going to leave once you fucked him."



"I wasn\'t going to leave but since you\'re so fucking pissed, geez, I\'m sorry!"



"Why didn\'t you ever say sorry to him? He\'s the one who got fucked over. I\'m just his best friend who had to watch him shrivel up and almost die three times because of you."



"No one told me..."



"Why would anyone tell you? You wouldn\'t have even answered your phone, so there\'s no point. And it\'s not like his mom even remembered you exist anyway."



"Fuck you, Colton. I messed up, alright?"



"No, it\'s not! Because if you weren\'t a fucking meth-head we wouldn\'t be here right now!"



"Don\'t fucking talk to me like you know me!" Chad pushed him and made his exit quickly.



When Brit got home from school, he went to Colton\'s house to see Chad who was long gone. He tried calling but Chad had already run over part of his phone and changed his number. Two weeks later, he was out of New York and back to LA to see Josh, who kept him at arms length. Chad, in turn, dealt with such rejection by fucking whoever would give him an ego-boost. When he saw the GQ spread, he was with Josh, who cried when he saw Brit in such bad health condition. Josh tried to talk to Chad in his state of tears but Chad left Josh there to cry and fled to Spokane, Washington. Back to the people who he didn\'t really like but wouldn\'t push him away, he went.