Balance - Salway Slut Trilogy #3

In some ways, the years were crawling by for Matt, he just wanted to be 18, he wanted Joseph to take him back to Paris and fuck him stupid on the Eiffel Tower. But every day he was also hoping that maybe today was the day Toby would figure things out. It seemed that almost daily more and more of his classmates were coming out as gay, bi, trans or just exploring.

Nick fell into straight but extremely curious, he was up for talking about anything, watching anything. Toby though seemed to remain staunchly straight much to Matt’s disappointment. Matt didn’t want to push Toby, didn’t want to make things awkward and didn’t want Toby asking about his past. Even still Matt remembered Ethan. The older he got, the more he was with other kids, the worse he felt about what he’d done to Ethan. He hoped Ethan was able to get over it, dismiss it as a stupid childhood kiss. Every now and again he thought about trying to contact Ethan to apologize, but if Ethan had gotten over it, he didn’t want to bring up bad memories.

By the time Matt was 14 it seemed like just about everyone he knew had been out on a date, except for him. Not that anyone was really calling it dating, they were just hanging out with another person…just the two of them at the movies or mini golfing. But it wasn’t a date. And it’s not that Matt couldn’t have gone out on a date. He would flirt with anyone who flirted with him, but between waiting for Joseph and hoping for Toby, he just wasn’t interested. The few dates Toby had been on, Matt was always relieved when Toby said nothing of kissing or making out.

The summer after Matt had turned 14, he was just excited and nervous to start high school in the fall. He, Nick and Toby were all going to continue on to the same private high school. They were thinking of what sports they would try out for. But until then, their summer days were mostly spent bouncing between their three places and for a change of pace they decided to go to the country club Nick’s family belonged to. None of them golfed, but Nick and Toby were teaching Matt to play tennis. The only real reason they were going was for the pool. Changing into their swim trunks, Matt and Nick got out of the locker room first, they put their towels down on chairs and slipped into the water, just waiting for Toby.

But Toby had barely stepped out of the locker room when a girl approached him. Matt begrudgingly admitted she was pretty. Ok, maybe even hot. Her long blonde hair was in a French braid and she wore a bikini showing off curves that Matt could never have, even if he wanted them. Matt watched stunned as Toby didn’t even look at them, just disappearing with this girl.

“Are you ok?” Nick asked quietly.

“Why wouldn’t I be?” Matt said offhand.

“It’s ok, Matt. I know you’re into him,” Nick said, still quiet, not looking at Matt.

“Oh fuck,” Matt muttered. “He doesn’t know?”

“Of course he doesn’t know,” Nick scoffed. He could see Matt visibly relax at the assurance. “Look, she’s just some debutante slut, ok? She won’t mean anything to him.”

Matt couldn’t help but smile, “Thanks.”

“Let’s swim some laps and get some attention of our own,” Nick offered temptingly. And Matt was more than happy for a distraction.

It was almost an hour before Toby rejoined them. The girl coming in to just change and leave. Toby had a stupid grin on his face, Matt did his best to be enthusiastic for Toby.

“I practically embarrassed myself, she was like…a really good kisser,” Toby said siting at the edge of the pool, his feet dangling in the water.

Nick shrugged, “Well, girls practice with each other.”

By how Matt and Toby just stared at him, Nick turned an uncomfortable pink, “I read it in my sisters copy of Teen Beat, ok?” Matt and Toby continued to stare and Nick realized this admission was not helping his case.

“Why were you reading Teen Beat?” Toby finally asked.

Deciding he might as well go all in, Nick shrugged, “There was a 10 things you wish your guy would do article, ok?”

“And so you just decided to read the whole magazine?” Matt said puzzled. "And you don't even have a girlfriend."

“I want to be ready for when I do. Look, there was a picture of two girls kissing,” Nick said defensively and splashing water at them said, “Would you have been able to just flip past that page?”

“So you read the article, or just looked at the picture all afternoon?” Toby pushed, amused.

Nick shrugged, “I read it...I thought there might be some slutty stories of girls going les. It was all just affirmation that it was ok to explore with friends and blah blah blah.”

Matt and Toby exchanged a glance, “Sure,” Matt said rolling his eyes, “Next you’ll be telling me if I’m a summer or an autumn.”

Splashing them again, Nick said, “Screw you guys, unless you want to find another pool to cool off in this summer?”

When Toby turned 15 his parents bought him a subscription to a porn site that offered a wide variety. After doing homework they were soon logging on and beating off. Nick and Toby were working through all the fetishes and pairings, figuring out what they liked as well as trying to see if they could figure out Matt’s preference. But Matt seemed to get off on almost everything. They did notice he didn’t seem to enjoy the SM stuff, which they thought was odd because of Joseph working at the Web, but they never questioned it. They never talked to anyone about it, but still they started wondering more seriously about where Matt was from, how he ended up with Joseph.

Matt knew what they were doing, but he didn’t care. In the afternoons, they were talking about how they liked to masturbate, see who could come the furthest, who had the biggest cock. At times, Matt could look at their cocks as much as he wanted without it being weird. Not that Nick had a problem with Matt looking at him anyway.

Watching porn, Matt liked to listen for Toby. The way Toby groaned, the comments he would make. When Matt heard Toby call one of the models a slut, or also say, ‘yeah fucking take it,’ or say amazing to him or Nick how well they could swallow, Matt just always imagined it was Toby saying it to him. Calling him a nasty boy. Sexy boy. Dirty fucking slut.

At the end of freshman year, Nick found a girlfriend, Yvonne. He spent less time with Matt and Toby, giving them more time alone. With the long days of summer once more ahead of them, Nick caught up with Matt, asking softly, “You’re seriously not gonna tell him?”

Matt shook his head, “He’s not into me. Why make things awkward?”

Nick shrugged, “Just come out already, maybe seeing that you’re gay, or even having a boyfriend will clue Toby in.”

Still, Matt shook his head unsure, “That doesn’t sound like a good idea, and what about the other guy? I’m not into him, that’s not fair.”

“Well, then do it for yourself, maybe get over Toby,” Nick said, trying again.

“That’s not gonna happen, it just doesn’t feel right,” Matt sulked.

“What’s not right is you keeping your kissing abilities to yourself.”

“What do you mean by that?” Matt asked sharply, all thoughts of Toby gone as he stared hard at Nick.

“We’re not dumb…well maybe Toby is. But I’m not dumb Matt. I know you’ve been with Joseph a long time. He was owned by a sex club. There’s only one way you could’ve met,” Nick said slowly, “You know me Matt, you know I’ll never say a thing. But I’m here. And Toby will be too.” He tried to grin, “If not I’ll kick his ass myself, ok?”

Matt wasn’t ok, he didn’t know what to say, not that he could have, Nick had to go off to meet Yvonne. He thought with Nick knowing, it would make things awkward, or hard. But Nick was as good as his word, he never said a thing to Toby and they just continued on like they had in the past.

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