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Love, Lose, Live
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Original - Misc › -Slash - Male/Male
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Adult +
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Category:
Original - Misc › -Slash - Male/Male
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
20
Views:
2,842
Reviews:
16
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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If this resembles anyone, dead, alive or otherwise, it is purely coincidental.This is a work of fiction. I, the author, hold exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited
Chapter Six
(Sadness here.)
Blood sprayed my face and Brian began to fall. I grabbed his body and collapsed under his weight. He landed with his head in my lap and I the saw the hole in his chest. I looked at his face in utter shock.
“Alex… I need you to know... that I love you.” Brian stares me in theeyes and I cannot comprehend what is happening. “You know... that... right? I... want you to live. Don’t hurt... yourself.”
“Brian… you can’t leave me. I need you.” I begin to cry as I watch the blood pour and the light leave his eyes.
“I love... you... baby” and with that, Brian collapses and I hear no more.
“Brian? Brian!” I clutch him to my chest and cry.
An ambulance pulls up and somebody attempts to pull Brian away from me but I grab him harder. More hands come and pull us apart. I scream reaching for Brian. Hands hold me back and begin to mess with my arm but I ignore them as I watch Brian get strapped to a gurney and then put into the ambulance. I struggle to get up and go with him but the hands hold me back. The doors shut on Brian and I scream again. The hands hold me back and then they lift me to another ambulance and force me inside. They force me on a gurney and strap me down and I fight even more. They put a mask on me and I struggle all the way to the hospital. They take the gurney down and wheel it into the hospital. I begin to hyperventilate as the white walls and faces pass. One stays in my face and I force myself to look at the face. I recognize the face and I concentrate on it attempting to calm down. She is saying something to me but I don’t hear her. The gurney stops and I am moved over to another table. A needle enters my arm and my eyes fly wide and I struggle again. My body starts to feel sluggish and my eyes begin to close. My mind screams for Brian but my broken heart tells me that he is never coming back.
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I stare at the T.V. but do not comprehend what its saying.
“I’m going to take the needle out and you’ll be discharged. Isn’t that great?” the nurse says cheerfully. I look at her and her smile fades. “I’m sorry honey.” I look past her to the window. I feel the tape pull off and the needle come out. Then she leaves and the lady I recognized comes in with a set of clothes.
“I don’t want to see you in here ever again. I saw you too many times when you were growing up. You hear me Lucas?” she says looking me in the eyes and I nod emptily. “Change into these and your family is waiting for you.” I take the clothes and I put them on not caring what they look like or how they fit. I leave the room and see Brian’s parents waiting for me. They hug me but I can’t find it in me to return it. Mom has been crying, but nobody says anything as we walk out to the car. I get in the back, curl my knees to my chest and watch the roads go by. I see our… my house and the car turns into the driveway. The front car doors slam but I don’t move. The loss begins to feel even more real now. His parents just wait for me and after a few minutes, I get out of the car. I walk up the steps, put my hand on the door knob and stop realizing that when I walk in, everything will be as we left it. The dirty clothes, the dishes, the rumpled sheets and that stupid kung-fu movie will be in the DVD player. They will all be there when I open the door except Brian. Brian will never be there. Ever again. I pull my hand back unable to bring back all the memories that no longer have a future.
“Do you want to leave honey?” Mom asks but I shake my head. I sit down on the porch swing and draw my knees up like somehow they’ll protect me. I hear Brian’s parents talking and ignore it until Mom’s faces comes into my vision. “We’re gonna go ba- sweetheart. Call us if you need us. We love you.” She hugs me and Dad pats me on the back. I hear their steps retreat and then the car leave. I sit on the swing and begin to cry and sob. The sun begins to fade and I force myself to the door, open it and walk inside.
Blood sprayed my face and Brian began to fall. I grabbed his body and collapsed under his weight. He landed with his head in my lap and I the saw the hole in his chest. I looked at his face in utter shock.
“Alex… I need you to know... that I love you.” Brian stares me in theeyes and I cannot comprehend what is happening. “You know... that... right? I... want you to live. Don’t hurt... yourself.”
“Brian… you can’t leave me. I need you.” I begin to cry as I watch the blood pour and the light leave his eyes.
“I love... you... baby” and with that, Brian collapses and I hear no more.
“Brian? Brian!” I clutch him to my chest and cry.
An ambulance pulls up and somebody attempts to pull Brian away from me but I grab him harder. More hands come and pull us apart. I scream reaching for Brian. Hands hold me back and begin to mess with my arm but I ignore them as I watch Brian get strapped to a gurney and then put into the ambulance. I struggle to get up and go with him but the hands hold me back. The doors shut on Brian and I scream again. The hands hold me back and then they lift me to another ambulance and force me inside. They force me on a gurney and strap me down and I fight even more. They put a mask on me and I struggle all the way to the hospital. They take the gurney down and wheel it into the hospital. I begin to hyperventilate as the white walls and faces pass. One stays in my face and I force myself to look at the face. I recognize the face and I concentrate on it attempting to calm down. She is saying something to me but I don’t hear her. The gurney stops and I am moved over to another table. A needle enters my arm and my eyes fly wide and I struggle again. My body starts to feel sluggish and my eyes begin to close. My mind screams for Brian but my broken heart tells me that he is never coming back.
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I stare at the T.V. but do not comprehend what its saying.
“I’m going to take the needle out and you’ll be discharged. Isn’t that great?” the nurse says cheerfully. I look at her and her smile fades. “I’m sorry honey.” I look past her to the window. I feel the tape pull off and the needle come out. Then she leaves and the lady I recognized comes in with a set of clothes.
“I don’t want to see you in here ever again. I saw you too many times when you were growing up. You hear me Lucas?” she says looking me in the eyes and I nod emptily. “Change into these and your family is waiting for you.” I take the clothes and I put them on not caring what they look like or how they fit. I leave the room and see Brian’s parents waiting for me. They hug me but I can’t find it in me to return it. Mom has been crying, but nobody says anything as we walk out to the car. I get in the back, curl my knees to my chest and watch the roads go by. I see our… my house and the car turns into the driveway. The front car doors slam but I don’t move. The loss begins to feel even more real now. His parents just wait for me and after a few minutes, I get out of the car. I walk up the steps, put my hand on the door knob and stop realizing that when I walk in, everything will be as we left it. The dirty clothes, the dishes, the rumpled sheets and that stupid kung-fu movie will be in the DVD player. They will all be there when I open the door except Brian. Brian will never be there. Ever again. I pull my hand back unable to bring back all the memories that no longer have a future.
“Do you want to leave honey?” Mom asks but I shake my head. I sit down on the porch swing and draw my knees up like somehow they’ll protect me. I hear Brian’s parents talking and ignore it until Mom’s faces comes into my vision. “We’re gonna go ba- sweetheart. Call us if you need us. We love you.” She hugs me and Dad pats me on the back. I hear their steps retreat and then the car leave. I sit on the swing and begin to cry and sob. The sun begins to fade and I force myself to the door, open it and walk inside.