Demon Beside Me

Chapter 5
Krad


I was such a push over after all. Here I was thinking about what I wanted to tell her and yet in still I did not do it. How many times have I seen myself telling her off? How many times had I seen myself telling her what I really thought of her?

This was my chance to do it and I did nothing. I just stood there and let her tell me what to do and I myself to blame for it.

Why could I not be like the person I dreamed about? Why could I not care what other people thought of me? Why did I have to let others make me do things I did not want to do?

I grabbed the steering wheel of my stepfather car and closed my eyes.

There was no really meaning for my life. I was stupid, plain, and such a push over. Why should I keep living a life I hated?

Why could I just live the life that I wanted, the one I vanished to in my dreams?

If Jake were here, he would just pull me in his arms and tell me it would be ok or at least in my dreams he would.

In real life who know….I wasn’t even sure if he liked me or not.

I let out a breath. Why was Kate making me do this? I did not like having to do anything with that boy. Kate I hated her so much.

“Don’t worry about her Diamond.”

I turned to my side at hearing his voice and nearly passed out.

My mind could not believe it he was standing right here on the side of my stepfather car. My eyes looked at him trying not to show that I had been scared but I knew I was failing badly by the smile on his face.

“Do you want to scare me to death?” I asked him and saw that the smile on his face did not leave. “What do you want? Why are you here?”

I eyed him seeing that he was not answering made me want to rise up my window and drive away when a question came to my mind.

“How did you know what I was thinking about?”

“What?” He asked and looked elsewhere.

“Don’t worry about her, how did you know I was worrying over Kate?”

He began to smirk and leaned against my stepfather car his eyes staring right into mine. “You where talking out loud. Sorry if I was ease dropping.” The word sorry came out of his mouth as if it did not hold any true meaning behind it, like he had just said it for me.

In fact, I got the feeling he felt the word sorry was poison and never even said it.

“I didn’t know I was talking out load.” I said then again I did not know I talked in my sleep either. “So why are you here? You’re not staking me are you?”

He was staking me it seemed. He was in that parking lot early today and it was somewhat funny that he was there just at the time I was passing the lot. The question made him laugh and I loved his laugh. I was not too sure why but it felt like he was the kind of guy who didn’t laugh much.

“Look maybe we got off on the wrong foot, but I would like it very much for us to get back on the right one.” His voice was soft nice and made me want to smile. “How about it can we be friends?”

He did not want to be friends. It was the way he said that word that made me feel he wanted to be more than just friends were.

“You still didn’t answer any of my questions.” I replied slowly. I was not going to let all of my questions go unanswered.

He shook his head and placed a hand on my stepfather car. “I lived close to here a long time ago, so I like to come visit from time to time.”

“Oh, do you go to a school close by or something?”

“Or something.” He quickly said. “Let’s stop with questions about me. I’m more into you. How about me and you go somewhere to talk?”

The smile he had on his lips right now made me stop from telling him no. It was not like I was dating anyone. I had never dated anyone in fact and the guy I did like thought I was as evil as Kate. So why not talk to him later?

“Okay, my house later, but you should knew my mom and step father may act weird.” I told him with a clear written smile across my face. I hoped they got really mad at him. He was after all a good two or three years older than me and for mom or my stepfather for that matter I knew they would think he was too old for me a girl nearly seventeen.

“That will be alright. I’ll meet you in say forty-five minutes.”

“Yeah, do you remember where I live?” I saw him open his mouth to say something then he just closed it and shook his head yes.

I wondered what he was going to say and I saw him smiling at me only to walk up the street to his bike.

As I got ready to go and get ready for him to come over to my house I heard Kate calling my name.

“Minnie!” I turned and saw that Kate was running from her opened fount door right to the side of my stepfather car door. “You’re still here good….look talk to Mike tomorrow. I want you to get this over with as soon as possible, ok.”

“You know what Kate why don’t you just go and have sex with Mike. I have a date today with a guy who is better looking than any of your boyfriends, even if you put all of them together he would still look the best.”

“Minnie?”

I shook my head and I smiled.

“While then Minnie after tomorrow you will really be one of us girls or should I say women.”

“Yes.” I smiled. She smiled back and back away from the car.

“You can leave now.” The words came out her mouth like heat from a flame. She didn’t even seem to care what she was making me do.

I turned my eyes from her icy ones and began to pull away from Kate.

How was I going to have sex with that guy? Was I going to have sex with that thing? No I wouldn’t I couldn’t.

She was going too far….just too far.

I didn’t know what was going too happened once I told him no again. I just felt like I was going to have to do this but at the same time I didn’t want to have to do it.


I didn’t go right home after I was done at Kate house. No I drove around the city. Nowhere that I truly wanted to go....just anywhere, the car or road would take me.

This was not good. I didn’t know what I was going to do.

My thoughts about Kate and my problems with her take me on a drive for nearly four hours. I did not go home until it was nearly dark and I knew it was my mom that was now ringing my phone on every half hour.

So by the millionth time I decided to go home.

By the time I did pull into the driveway I knew I was late for dinner and it looked like that guy was soon going to be here if he had not all ready come, hopefully he hadn’t. I guessed I was going to have to hurry up and eat. I just could not wait until I saw the look on my stepfather face when he saw me with that guy.

Man I should have asked him his name. I got out of the car and walked out to my house.

“I hope they have already started eating?” I sighed to myself as I opened the front door and walked in noticing that it smelled good.

It looks like mom has been cooking and it also looked like no one had eaten yet.

I sighed seeing my hope was for nothing: I can’t believe I thought I would miss dinner.

“Your mom has been waiting for you to come home?” Henry laughed a little when I walked in the living room looking at him. “I told her not to worry and you know when she worries she cooks a lot of food.”

I shook my head and saw that Amanda was now running over to me laughing.

“We food now play next?” She asked me and I just shook my head at her smiling as she put her hands up for me to pick her.

I did and smiled at her when she put her head on my shoulder. My eyes looked up and I saw that my stepfather looked happily at me. This made me look elsewhere which just so happen was at my mother.

“Sweetie, you’re just in time. Dinner is ready.” My mom told me as if she had not been worrying over me. I eyed her carefully and shook my head.

“What?” She questioned and then looked at my step father who was chuckling. “Henry, why are you laughing?”

“Nothing mom, I’m hungry.” I told her walking pass her to the kitchen. I heard her talking to Henry from the kitchen but I could not hear what she was saying.

“Dada bad.” Amanda said laughing.

Shaking my head at her I put her in her chair.

“What do you and Kate do?” My brother asked when Amanda was firmly seat in her chair.

“None of your business.” I told him watching him set the table. I was happy that I had not come home in time for that.

He rolled his eyes then set down. My mom and step dad came out of the living room and walked in. Henry helped my mom bring out the food and put it on the table.

“Minnie go wash your hands and come back to eat.” She said and setting the rest of the food down.

“Ok.” I whispered to her shaking my head at her then walked away to go wash my hands.

When I came back I saw that they were already sitting down. I went to sit down by them and I closed my eyes. I wasn’t hungry anymore for some reason.

I sat there looking across the table in a daze. I was only half way there at the dinner table. I heard my mom tell Amanda to her peas, my brother tell our step father about school, and that was all. They were talking, they always talked at the dinner table, but

why I didn’t pay attention well maybe because my mind would not go from the place I was at with Kate.

Yeah I knew I was home now but what would happen once I went back to school.

No I knew what would happen. I was going to have to get do what Kate said or I would be Jena.

Maybe I should call her right now say I am sorry for whatever she thought I had done.

Maybe she was mad at me because she knew Mindy and me where so close. That must have been the reason she was making me do this.

"Minnie you're not eating?" My mom said looking at me making me snap out of my thoughts to look at her. “You haven’t eaten already have you?”

She knew how much I loved to eat, but right now, I just could not eat a single thing, even if I had not eaten for a whole day.

"I am not really hungry." I told her making sure my voice would not give my problems away.

"Is something wrong?"

I voice must have not passed.

"I am fine."

"Is it your friends? Did you girls have a fight?” My stepfather then asked.

I tried not to glare at him because I did not like the fact that he was asking me about anything really since he had been right on target.

"No." I said picking up my fork and began to try to eat so they would leave me alone.

"Maybe it's a boy." My brother said laughing. "Then again you don't have a boyfriend, so maybe a boy told you how ugly you where?" He tried to guess teasingly.

"Shut up." I told him rolling my eyes.

“More food.” Amanda said and picked up some of her peas to throw them at me. She laughed at my face that I made at her moving the peas from my lap. She would do anything so she didn’t have to eat her peas.

“Stop that Amanda.” My mom tone was not one to be question.

Amanda only frowned and played with her food.

“Why you have to get sis in trouble Minnie.”

“Shut up Allen.” I rolled my eyes at him.

"Both of you stop it." My mom voice was not at all light. "I don't want you two fighting. Now Minnie if there is nothing wrong then you should be able to finish eating, because you are not eating any of my cake and my homemade ice cream later if you don't."

I loved her cakes really with her ice cream….but even her cake and ice cream could not get me happy.

"Mom I am really not hungry, so can I just go to my room." I asked already setting my fork down. "I do have a lot of homework." I lied.

Schoolwork should make her stop asking me tons of questions and get me closer to my room.

"You have a lot of homework?”

Wow she never has questioned me about having to do homework before. I would just have to try harder.

“Mom my teacher said that we were going to have a test coming up soon.” I begin to lie making up my newest plan. “So I think I should study.”

“Ok." She frowned. "You know how your father and Allen eat. There won’t be any left tomorrow."

He is not my father!

Just because people thought he was did not mean he was.

I hated that one man at the market who said we both had the same eyes, face, and pretty much everything.

I didn’t think we did. My stepfather face was more like this pixy like face, everything was small, and well all but his big wide eyes, yet his pixy features fit his face perfectly. I guess because even though he has a pixy face it is strong enough for one to know that he was a male.

The man had said I had the girl vision of his face and my stepfather had smile, he didn’t even tell the man I wasn’t his daughter!

"It's ok. I'll be ok."

"We'll try to save you some." My stepfather teased smiling warmly at me. “Well I could just send you up some later so you could eat it while you’re studying.”

I wanted so badly to roll my eyes at him, but stopped knowing my mother would have a few choice words for me if I did.

“I’m leaving now.” I told them and begun to walk up the stairs rolling my eyes at my step father knowing no one could see me now.

I walked up the stairs, but before I got to my room, I slipped and hit my butt on the wooden floor.

I hate this stupid house!

I wished Jake would come over and tell me that he wanted to take me out or something.

Then again, I had just told my parents I had a lot of homework. Therefore, they may not let me go if he did come over.

Soon I put my hand on my forehead rolling my eyes.

I sighed and went off to my bed and I looked up at my ceiling lying across my bed not knowing what I was going to do.

Lying in my bed brought Kate back to my mind. I knew she was going to still make me do that stuff with Mike. She had said that she was.

I hated that I was even thinking about getting with Mike just so I would not be teased in school. I could not let myself be used like this. I just could not let it happen.

“You should tell Kate to go fuck herself Diamond.”

That voice. It was him.

I turned and saw him in the window of my balcony door. He was looking at me with a smirk on his face.

How did he just keep appearing when he wanted to! What was he doing up here?

I jumped out of my bed and was about to scream at him but he ran to me very quickly and covered my mouth with his hand.

I tried to fight his grip over me but I could not. He was so strong.

“Are you going to scream when I let you go?” He asked softly. “Because if you are, well then I won’t let you go and I don’t mind that at all.”

I rolled my eyes and shook my head no, letting him know I would not scream.

He let me go and pull away from me, not much but enough that I didn’t feel so nerves being so close to him.

His blue eyes looked very bright right now. He looked almost as if he was waiting for me to say something, but I knew right then if I opened my mouth I would scream at him for again scaring the crap out of me.

“So we both agreed that Kate is a bitch that should die.” He said and back up from me.

I didn’t say a thing. I just watched him making sure he kept his distance. I didn’t like how he was looking at me, but I didn’t say anything about it.

“Why are you here?” My voice was on edge.

“I thought you said that you wanted me to come over.”

I forgot about that. I looked past him and tried to make something up.

“Yes, but I thought you were going to I don’t know walk though my front door.” I told him not knowing how I was able to say that without laughing. “So what is it that you want?”

He smiled at me. He walked closer to me again making me walk back and fall on my bed.

As he got closer I moved down my bed more not wanting to be so close to him. Maybe I should yell for my mom or something….I didn’t know what he was thinking so maybe that was the problem or rather I didn’t know him so I didn’t know how to guess what he was thinking.

“I want a lot of things.” He whispered as he grabbed my leg and pulled me to him. “But right now, I want you.”

“What?” I asked as his face came close to mine.

“I want you, Diamond.”

His face was now inches from my own and I felt kind of nervous with him being so close, but I knew also my face must have looked at him like he had lost his mind, because I knew that was how I was feeling right then.

“Now why do you want me?”

He smiled slowly at me. “Because I like you and I would love it if you and me could become friends.”

Are you serious? I wanted to ask him but didn’t for some odd reason.

This dude was smoking or drinking something that I would never do. I shook my head wanting to laugh at him.

“So you want to be my friend.” I said to myself not being able to understand why I was having this conversation. “So why do you want to be my friend? I am not anyone, if anything you should be trying to ask to be Kate friend, but then again I am sure she would want to be more than just friends with you.”

“Why do you think that?” He asked smiling.

I began to blush. As if he didn’t know how handsome he was.

“I don’t want any friends. I am quite fine with my life.”

“You don’t look fine with your life Diamond. You look like you’re not happy with it one bit.” He said looking at me as if he could see right through me. “If you where my friend I would help you with that.”

“How would you being my friend help me?”

“Well I could change your life.” He said smiling.

I laughed he was joking I knew. “Whatever. You need a life. In fact do you just go around meeting girls telling them you want to be their friend when all you really want is sex?”

“While I wouldn’t mind….” He dragged off but must have caught the look I gave him and just laughed. “I do want to be your friend.

“I don’t know.” I whispered not really sure I could trust this.

“Come on.” He said. “Why don’t you want to be my friend?”

I already ready have some crazy so called friends and I don’t need any more.

“I don’t want to be a so called friend.”

I glared at him. Man he could read me well, too well really.

He laughed loudly and I was surprise my mom hadn’t come up the stairs to see what was wrong with me.

I knew he had to be load or me even.

“Honestly we should at least start off like this.” He said eyeing me up and down. “I’d rather start off as something else, but it’s against….” He paused and didn’t finish.

I knew just from that look on his face that he had been ready to tell me something, than either he didn’t want to say or couldn’t.

My curiosity got the best of me.

“Against what?” I whispered looking into his beautiful eyes.

I heard a knock on the door and I turned my eyes to the door.

Please don’t tell me that it’s my mom.

He growled. “Damn.” He jumped off of me allowing me to be able to move from the bed. I looked at him and saw that he had a frown on his face.

Why did he look so put off?

“Minnie what’s going on?” I heard my mother say.

I looked at the door and then back at the guy.

“You better hide.” I whispered to him knowing my mom would be in this room before I knew it.

He looked at me shaking his head. He gave a light chuckle then went to my closest and hind in there.

“Nothing.” I said just as she opened my door walking in my room.

“I heard you talking; I thought you said you had to study?” She asked frowning.

I hope she didn’t know I had lied, but I was happy that she didn’t seem to notice that I was talking to a guy.

“No mom I was studying out loud.”

“Okay.” She said and I could tell she didn’t believe me. “If you need any help I will be down stairs.”

“Ok.”

She began to walk out my room but not before she looked back at me and shook her head smiling. Once she was gone I turn to my closet door only to see that he was now leaning on the door smirking at me.

I frowned at him.

“What?” His voice was amused and I hated it.

I rolled my eyes at him and went to sit on my bed. I looked up at him and saw that he was watching me carefully. This made me sigh.

“What’s your name by the way?” I asked as he folded his arms.

He smiled and walked to where I was sitting.

“I am Krad.” He smiled.

What a different name?

“Ok.” I said looking away from him. “I don’t need any more worries in my life, maybe you should go before my mom comes to check on me again.”

He grabbed my chin and made me look at him. “No thanks.”

I frowned.

“Don’t worry your mom want see me ok.” He said smiling as one of his hands ran though my hair and this made me shiver.

“Yes well my mom will still be mad.” I said and move his hand from my hair then got up from my bed.

“Then let’s go out.”

“What?”

He got up from the bed and grabbed my hand only so he could pull me to my balcony. His eyes kept holding mine as he pulled me out the door.

He was so handsome. I know I have said that a lot already, but I don’t care. It was so true. His light eyes caught the star lit sky and this made him look even greater.

His caramel hair was now going over his eyes because he was now bending down in my face.

“So love what do you think?” He asked his face inches from mine his lips are even closer.

“I don’t….” His lips cut me off.

They were right on mine moving so beautifully on mine. It was so perfect. More than I had ever imaged. Better than what I thought me and Jake kiss would be like if we were ever too kissed.

But there was one thing that I didn’t understand about his lips, they were cold. I could not understand why they were so cold, but right now it didn’t matter for they felt so great.

He had let my hand go putting his hands around my waist pulling me closer to him. I in turn put my hands in his hair running my hands though his beautiful thick hair.

I didn’t want his lips to leave mine. They felt like a drug a very addicting drug that I knew I should have never tasted.

With this kiss I felt like I was doing something I shouldn’t be doing, like I was giving up my own soul but I didn’t want to stop. No I wanted to give him all of me. I wanted him to have all of me.

Krad pulled away from me leaving me breathless.

I stared into his eyes questionably. Why had he pulled away? Had he not liked kissing me?

Luckily he soon smiled and that told me my answer.

“Come on.” He whispered putting his forehead on mine. “Let’s go and have some fun.”

I bit my bottom lip hesitating. “I guess we could.”

He moved his head from my mine and I was disappointed.

“Let’s go.”

Krad went to the wooden gate and I remembered something.

“Wait a minute….how are we going to get down from here?”

“I was going to jump and I’ll catch you ok.”

Before I was able to say anything he had already jump off of the balcony. My eyes went big as I ran to look over the gate. I saw him standing there looking up at me.

“Oh my beautiful Diamond why not come down here and let me kiss your lips, my love?” He smiled up at me.

I shook my head at him rolling my eyes.

“Are you really going to be able to catch me?” I asked knowing I wasn’t the thinnest person in the world.

“Would I lie to you?” I hesitated and I knew he saw. “My love I will catch you.”

I looked back at my door to my room and sighed might as well have some fun before Kate ruined my life.

As I went jumped over my gate I didn’t know something was going to happen that night that would soon make me have to face all of my wishes.


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