The One

*Here with me…*
It was long past midnight when Aki finally reached home. He’d chased around in the city for two days, straight before he’d finally found them. Aki had bought information from at least fifty thousand cash, the dealers had been greedy for giving up their precious information and Aki hadn’t had time to negotiate and it was his fathers money anyway. When he’d finally found the real dealers they had demanded ten thousand cash. Aki gave them what they wanted without any hesitation. He was ready to give up anything to get back Shoji alive. As for now, he just had to wait. They had said they would send Shoji home some of the following days.

Shoji woke by the sound of voices. He was still out in the back, lying naked on the bed, with only a thin rug to cover him up.
“…but the money he owed us is paid! You have no right to keep him anymore!” it was Kadachi.
“I’m the boss! I decide what I have right to or not! I don’t care if I’ll get the entire world for giving him back! I keep him! His mine!”
End of discussion.
That was it. Shoji was doomed to spend the rest of his pitiful life as the fat man’s beloved sex toy. Which was only used when the boss was in the mood, to Shoji’s great regret, that was quite often, which meant a constantly pain in ass for Shoji. Well, one can get so used to a pain that you eventually can’t feel it anymore, Shoji himself looked very much forward to that day. This pain was almost unbearable. There was no escaping it. There was no way the fat man would ever let go of Shoji. He now knew this meant that Shoji somehow, in a kind of absurd way, was dear to the fat man. The boss actually liked Shoji. This was probably due to the fact that Shoji was very good in bed. Well, he hadn’t lost his virginity as a 13 year old for nothing; his skills had probably saved his life – now he asked himself if his life really was worth saving? Wouldn’t he have been better of dead at this point? If they had just killed him when they came for him, he was pretty sure he’d die happy, with a last night like that… with Aki…
Face it, Shoji told himself, there’s no way you’re ever gonna see Aki again. This statement somehow brought tears to his eyes. Never seeing Aki again. Never felling Aki again. His warm body against Shoji’s own. Shoji was never to experience the feeling of complete comfort and protection anymore. Shoji curled up underneath the thin rug and felt the tears streaming down his cold cheeks. His body shivered of cold or anxiousness, it could easy be both. Shoji had never felt so pathetic in his 17 years of life.
God, he missed Aki so much! He’d never thought he would experience anything like this. Sure enough he missed his father too, he always did, but that was something different. Shoji knew his father wasn’t coming back – he was gone for good. He wouldn’t come to Shoji’s rescue like he used to when Shoji was six and had fallen on his knees. Gosh, life was so much easier when he was a child. His greatest problem was a whole lot more complicated than a single bruise on the knee. His problems and pain wouldn’t disappear with the help of a band-aid and a piece of candy anymore. Life was so much simpler when you were a kid at six, when you world only contained mom, dad, sister and the house you lived in.
His wounds were too many, too chaotic, too deep… There was no way in a million years he could ever heal them. Not alone.
Then, when he thought about it, Shoji realized that slowly some of the wounds had begun to heal during his time with Aki… But those wound had only gotten deeper during his time here, apart from Aki and there were coming more… Shoji realized that when he was with Aki he actually felt kind of happy. Without Aki Shoji felt empty and lonely, like something was missing. Almost as he’d lost the purpose in life – Aki was his purpose in life? That didn’t sound completely out of mind.
…….??
Fuck it, he loved Aki, there was no point in denying it anymore.
But of cause, it was way too late for him finding out…

*Here with me* (Both)
I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
And I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory
Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
And I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me
I don't want to call my friends
For they might wake me from this dream
And I can't leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that's been
Oh I am what I am
I do what I want
But I can't hide
And I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
Until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
Until you're resting here with me...

A/N: This was chap six guys... So sorry for the late, late update... I've been busy with school (once again) and my computer have been totally fucked up... Plus a mayor writers block... you all know how that is... This chapter is very short and I'm sorry about that too, but it's basiclly just some of Shoji's thoughts and a finally acception - He loves Aki! Wow... He finally accepted!! Its not like we knew from the middle on the story... heh... I promise you a lot of action in the next chap... And don't I hope it will bee up sonn, its all in my head... I just need my coputer working and then some time to write it... Until chap SEVEN guys, don't do anything stupid...