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Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
74
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10,289
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88
Recommended:
2
Currently Reading:
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
3:07pm - Rape
Last night was bad. It was really bad. I don't know how long it lasted but Ryan couldn't really do anything. He told Red to stop but he told Ryan to stay out of it. There were more people here. Two other men that I guess Red works with. I didn't catch their names. Red said he still really wanted to do that rape video. Ryan was holding me at the time and I was glad he was. I felt safe with him, but Ryan said that he guessed it would be okay as long as I wouldn't really get hurt. Red just shrugged.
So Ryan stood me up and had me look at him and he told me just to behave. So I nodded. Next thing I know, one of the men gags me and I'm blindfolded. I tried to reach out to Ryan but I couldn't. They were restraining my hands behind my back. I remember being thrown to the floor and then my ankles being cuffed to some metal bar. They didn't have to tell me to struggle like Red did at first. I was really scared. Then hands crawling all over my body...my clothes being ripped off. Then someone pounding inside of me. I knew it wasn't Ryan. Ryan wasn't doing anything. I could tell. I know what he feels like, I know his touch. He wasn't there and that scared me more than anything. I wanted him there with me.
I don't know how long it lasted, but suddenly it stopped. I know I went in and out of consciousness during that time. When it stopped, everything was calm and then there was this voice. One that I hadn't heard. "You're not doing it right." I heard him stand up and go get something and then Ryan told him no but then that's when Red yelled at him. Then I felt it. I have no idea what it was but it was huge and it hurt and I wanted to scream and I just kept praying for Ryan to do something to make it stop hurting, but he didn't. He let it happen. Whatever that jerk was shoving in me...he just let it happen. I passed out.
When I woke up, Ryan and Greg were cleaning me. I remember crying from the pain and then Ryan trying to soothe me. I asked if those men were gone and he said yes. I passed out again. Next time I woke up here. I'm still bleeding every now and then so Greg is always up to check me. Ryan is holding me, but he's napping at the moment. I keep looking up at him. He seems different when he's sleeping. I think I'll join him. Anything to get my mind off of what I'm feeling right now.
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10:02pm - House
We didn't go outside today. Ryan and I slept through it. I woke up and he was still holding me but he smiled. I smiled back. Greg looked at me again to make sure I was okay. I am. I still can't do much.
I'm sitting in the living room with Ryan. We're watching House. This woman like killed her baby. She didn't mean to. Some problem that she had was making her hear voices. A vitamin deficiency I think. It wasn't schizophrenia. It's back on.
The mom has cancer now. She's blaming herself and saying that she deserves to die because of what she did. She won't let Wilson treat her for the cancer.
I have a headache.
House is over. Ryan is saying it's time to get ready for bed. I'm not exactly tired yet, but maybe I should go to sleep. House is coming on again though! Greg just came up. He said he wants me to take something before going to bed. Some type of medicine. He's getting me juice.
I guess this is good night.
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A/N:
R&R! Kylie and I love it! lol
Last night was bad. It was really bad. I don't know how long it lasted but Ryan couldn't really do anything. He told Red to stop but he told Ryan to stay out of it. There were more people here. Two other men that I guess Red works with. I didn't catch their names. Red said he still really wanted to do that rape video. Ryan was holding me at the time and I was glad he was. I felt safe with him, but Ryan said that he guessed it would be okay as long as I wouldn't really get hurt. Red just shrugged.
So Ryan stood me up and had me look at him and he told me just to behave. So I nodded. Next thing I know, one of the men gags me and I'm blindfolded. I tried to reach out to Ryan but I couldn't. They were restraining my hands behind my back. I remember being thrown to the floor and then my ankles being cuffed to some metal bar. They didn't have to tell me to struggle like Red did at first. I was really scared. Then hands crawling all over my body...my clothes being ripped off. Then someone pounding inside of me. I knew it wasn't Ryan. Ryan wasn't doing anything. I could tell. I know what he feels like, I know his touch. He wasn't there and that scared me more than anything. I wanted him there with me.
I don't know how long it lasted, but suddenly it stopped. I know I went in and out of consciousness during that time. When it stopped, everything was calm and then there was this voice. One that I hadn't heard. "You're not doing it right." I heard him stand up and go get something and then Ryan told him no but then that's when Red yelled at him. Then I felt it. I have no idea what it was but it was huge and it hurt and I wanted to scream and I just kept praying for Ryan to do something to make it stop hurting, but he didn't. He let it happen. Whatever that jerk was shoving in me...he just let it happen. I passed out.
When I woke up, Ryan and Greg were cleaning me. I remember crying from the pain and then Ryan trying to soothe me. I asked if those men were gone and he said yes. I passed out again. Next time I woke up here. I'm still bleeding every now and then so Greg is always up to check me. Ryan is holding me, but he's napping at the moment. I keep looking up at him. He seems different when he's sleeping. I think I'll join him. Anything to get my mind off of what I'm feeling right now.
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10:02pm - House
We didn't go outside today. Ryan and I slept through it. I woke up and he was still holding me but he smiled. I smiled back. Greg looked at me again to make sure I was okay. I am. I still can't do much.
I'm sitting in the living room with Ryan. We're watching House. This woman like killed her baby. She didn't mean to. Some problem that she had was making her hear voices. A vitamin deficiency I think. It wasn't schizophrenia. It's back on.
The mom has cancer now. She's blaming herself and saying that she deserves to die because of what she did. She won't let Wilson treat her for the cancer.
I have a headache.
House is over. Ryan is saying it's time to get ready for bed. I'm not exactly tired yet, but maybe I should go to sleep. House is coming on again though! Greg just came up. He said he wants me to take something before going to bed. Some type of medicine. He's getting me juice.
I guess this is good night.
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A/N:
R&R! Kylie and I love it! lol