A Long Road

The rest of the weekend went rather normal. Except for Curtis basically living at my place and Daniel starting to move in. I was not excited for Monday. I was still not sure what to do about Jenny. I knew that I had to break up with her, but I did not want to hurt her. She was such a nice girl and over the year and a half (yeah I know and she was still waiting) she had become my best friend. I did not want to hurt her and I knew that she could read me so I was afraid to tell her in person in case she asked if I had found someone else. I was star quarterback I could not let mine or Curtis’s career go down. I still did not know what I wanted to do in college and I don’t to blow Curtis’s or my chances of going pro.

“What are you thinking about now Andy?” Curtis asked as he pulled himself into me and put his head on my shoulder. I was in the kitchen and I had just finished the dishes and was looking out the window staring into space.
“Jenny.” I said looking at him. He gave me a look of disgust and then softened.
“What about her?” He asked me. I smiled and turned around to hold him too me.
“How to break up with her and her not figure out that I’m seeing someone. I’m not sure how she would react to this one, but neither of us need her screaming to the whole school that we are together.” I said. I knew he really liked Jenny but she was my girlfriend and I believe he is jealous.
“Would you honestly care if she told the whole school. I mean does this whole thing still freak you out a bit?” He asked, I could tell he was scared of the answer. I smiled and shook my head.
“No, the only thing I am worried about is the scouts. I know you would like to go pro and you really can’t do that if your gay. I don’t want your plans fucked up because of us.” He smiled and leaned up for a kiss. I gave in to him. I had noticed that there was not much that I could say no to when it came to him. I don’t know how but in just a short time I really fell hard. Now that I have thought back I have always been jealous of him cause he was better looking than me. I always got pissed when he would ditch me for his latest girlfriend or fuck buddy what ever you want to call her. Now I think that I have always felt like this for him, he just had to open my eyes to it.
“I’m not worried besides I have a back up with my grades. I don’t know what I want to do but we still have another year to figure that out. Have you ever thought of just telling Jenny the truth?” he asked. I looked at him as if he was nuts. He walked over to the fridge just as Jenny walked in the door.
“Truth about what?” Jenny asked looking at me like if you even try to lie your in deep shit.
“Hi Jenny, how are you?” Curtis asked trying to be polite.
“I’m fine, thank you. What do you have to tell me and don’t lie?” She said turning her attention back to me.
“Okay, we need to have a conversation lets go sit down.” I said turning for the door. All of a sudden she squealed. I flipped around to see what had happened and she was hugging Curtis.
“What happened?” I ask suddenly quite confused.
“You are as thick as they come. I knew that Curtis liked you. I approached him when I caught him staring a little too much at his best friend and he confessed everything. When he texted me the other night and told me he told you, well showed you, I didn’t know how you would react. He never text me back so I assumed that either you too got together or you were beating the shit out of him.” she said looking at me like I was dumber than hell.
“How long did you know?” I asked curiosity eating me alive.
“Almost eight months now. Why?” She said trying to act sweet and naïve. All of a sudden I slammed Curtis into the fridge, he looked at me scared out of his mind. I didn’t do it hard but hard enough to scare him.
“How the hell could you tell Jenny before you told me?” I asked trying to keep a straight face, but failing miserably.
“Umm…well see your girlfriend is a tad scary and there is no way to lie out of it. I tried, could you let me go now that kind of hurt.” He asked grabbing at my hands.
“Nope, your mine.” I said wrapping him into me. He laughed and Jenny giggled like a school girl.
“Guys, girl still in the room. Please behave yourselves.” I laughed and Jenny came over and hugged me.
“ I completely understand you don’t have to worry. I won’t tell anyone until you are ready and this is why I have been so stubborn because after Curtis told me I was very mindful. I watched and you were acting the same you just weren’t conscious about it. So I didn’t want to sleep with you and get myself any more involved with you so Curtis would have a shot and I wouldn’t get hurt.” She kissed me on the cheek and just as sudden as she entered she left. I watched her walk out the back door and wondered if she really didn’t care. I felt Curtis’s arms wrapping around me demanding my attention.
“Mmh… that went well.” he said looking up at me. He had a devilish glint in his eyes and I wondered what he was thinking.
“What are you thinking?” I asked pulling him closer and setting light kisses at his neck.
“Umm…you…what time is your dad getting back again?” He asked moans escaping his beautiful lips.
“I don’t know and honestly I don’t care.” I said taking his hand and dragging him up the stairs. I slammed him up against the wall next to my door and we kissed fiercely. I opened the door just as I heard the main door open and my dad yell for us.
“Fuck…” I said setting my forehead against his.
“Yeah I know, Andy?” I looked into his eyes.
“What are we going to do tomorrow? We have to go back to school.” He asked. I looked at him and tilted my head.
“What do you mean?” I was highly confused by the question.
“I mean us, is this how it’s going to be. Hiding from everyone?” he asked I knew something had been bothering him. “I mean your not going to get a new cover are you?”
“No, Curtis why would you even ask that. There is no girl that could cover us unless it was Jenny, and I really don’t want to bring her into this. She means to much. Look I don’t know what you want from me. You have me, I’m not ready to lose my football scholarship otherwise I won’t care who knew but can we just chill. This is all new to me.” I said sighing as I walked back down the steps.
This was a side of him that I never saw. I wasn’t used to it, it was if he turned into a needy girl. I know that was mean but I don’t know how to react when he gets like that. I had a girlfriend but we were always so confident about each other, so I guess I just never had to deal with insecurities.
“Andy, please don’t get mad at me. I’m sorry I didn’t mean to push the situation. I was just…. Never mind. Lets just forget it ever happened.” he said running down the stairs after me.
“You were what. What could you possibly be that would make you act weird. None of this has come up before so why now?” I asked slightly annoyed about the conversation.
“I am scared you ass. I HAVE FUCKING LIKED YOU FOR YEARS AND I’M AFRAID YOUR USING ME…” he freaked out and went back upstairs slamming my bedroom door. I heard noise and knew that he was packing, he and I both knew he wasn’t leaving. I turned around and went back upstairs to try and calm him down.
“Stop Curtis, just stop.” I said grabbing a hold of him. He turned around and I could see tears in his eyes. I had never seen him cry and especially not over me, and there was no way in hell I was going to start now.
“Come here baby,” I pulled him in. “I would never ever use you like that. If I was using you I would never have broke up with Jenny. I need you now, no one else okay. Please don’t cry.” I said giving him quick kisses.
“I know I’m over reacting but I don’t know how to deal with all of this. I mean on Friday I was like okay he’s my best friend and now it’s Sunday and you’re my boy friend. It’s a little weird for me too.” he said leaning into me. He tucked his head into the crook of my neck. I held him there for a couple minutes before I heard my father yell for me again. I pulled away and kissed him once, sweet and passionate. I then laced our hands and pulled him down the stairs. About half way down I heard someone else’s voice. I immediately unlaced our hands and ventured down the stairs to see who was here. As I turned the corner I seen one of the guys, Anthony. He looked up as Curtis and I walked into the room. All three of them gave me this look like your busted, I was scared. ‘Did he hear our fight.’
“Umm…what have you two been up too lately?” Anthony asked. I shrugged my shoulders and went to the fridge to grab a pop. I silently asked Curtis if he wanted one and he nodded.
“Okay, umm guys I know what’s going on here. If I would have known that you two were fighting I wouldn’t have came over. But can I ask you a question?” I looked up at him and excepted defeat.
“Yea sure” I said sighing and opening my can.
“Umm…does Jenny know?” I cocked my head to the side and then nodded.
“Yea she knows hell she knew before I did.” I grabbed a piece of pizza. We sat there in an awkward silence. Curtis was sitting next to me on the stool and giving me looks like ‘I’m so sorry’. I just laid my hand on his knee as if to just chill out.
“Okay two more. When the hell did this happen and can I ask Jenny out?” I just looked at him and fought the urge to stand up and hit him. She wasn’t my girlfriend but still she meant a lot to me and I knew what he was like with girls.
“No you can’t ask her out you dumb ass. I know what you are like with girls. I would not even wish that on half the sluts in school. To answer your other question over the weekend.” I said looking at Curtis. I knew he was not happy that I was so protective of Jenny but we had a lot of history.
“You ass hole I’m not that bad with girls. It’s not like I purposely hurt them or cheat it just kind of happens. Besides I have been good lately I don’t drink as much as I used to.” Anthony said in a defensive voice. He would date a girl then go out on the weekends with all the guys and end up fucking some random chick. Then everyone would tell his girlfriend and needless to say they would fight and break up. He has been through half the school the other half won’t even look at him.
After about ten minutes he got really uncomfortable and left us to figure out how we were going to deal with this. My dad came in and apologized that he didn’t yell up that he was here. I just shrugged it off like it was no big deal. After eating me and Curtis headed back upstairs, and the minute the door was shut Curtis was in my arms repeating how sorry he was.
“I’m so sorry please don’t be mad at me I didn’t mean it. I know you said you didn’t want anybody to know about us. I’m so sorry.” he said digging his head into my neck. He was on the brink of tears and I realized one thing that he was definitely the girl in this relationship. I just smiled to myself at how cute he could be and how much I hated it when he cried.
“Will you quite I’m not mad at you. How could I be I didn’t know he was downstairs either. We just have to trust that he won’t tell anyone and if he does then we will just have to deal with the situation. I’m not going to be upset if people find out I just don’t want the coach to hear or the scouts. I don’t want either of us to lose out on a chance to play college football.” I said kissing his hair. His curly hair was sticking to his tears as he lifted his head up to look at me. I brushed them out of the way and smiled at him. I shook my head as I walked to the bed he turned to me and in one second he was on top of me playfully hitting me. We started wrestling around and I could hear my dad coming up the stairs to see what was going on. He knocked and then opened the door to see us rolling around and flipping each other about the room. He started laughing startling both of us as we looked up.
“What are you two doing?” He asked laughing at our stupid smiles.
“Umm…wrestling around. Andy is being an ass so I tackled him.” Curtis said before he was tackled again.
“I’m being an ass I do believe it was you that was being a dumb ass.” I said laughing.
My dad walked away laughing at us. I pinned Curtis to the floor and starting to laugh at my domination. He took that to his advantage and flipped us over before kissing me. I stopped fighting his grip and kissed back. Before anything happened his cell went off.
“Damn…Its probulary my mom. I haven’t been home all weekend but she just noticed that I’m not around. You know the usual.” he said shaking off the hurt in his voice. See Curtis’s dad left his mom about six months ago and Curtis’s mom never really wanted Curtis. His dad offered to let him move in with him but he had moved across the state and he wanted to finish school here. So he could usual disappear for days and she would never even notice that he was gone but once she did she would scream at him for hours. I hated her and now that I paid closer attention I hated her even more. I had never realized how much the situation bugged him.
I mouthed that I would be back in a minute to Curtis and made my way downstairs. I searched for my dad and found him and Daniel in the kitchen cooking some weird smelling concoction.
“Hey dad can I talk to you?” I ask making my presence known. Daniel made to leave the room and I grabbed him. “You don’t have to leave.” He just smiled at me and took a seat at the island.
“What do you need son?” my dad asked smiling at me.
“Umm… I was wondering if we could help Curtis some way?” I looked at my dad hoping that he would get my drift.
“Do you mean with his living situation?” I nodded yes to my father just as Curtis came down baring down all his stuff.
“Hey man I got to go she is having a fit saying she will call the cops and shit.” He said giving me a peck on the cheek and heading towards the door.
I nodded and followed him to the door. We bid our goodbyes and he jumped into his car and headed home. As I made my way back into the house my dad looked at me. I knew that my face would tell him I didn’t want to let him go. I knew when he came into school tomorrow he would hate the world and would have a cut or two from the bottle that she will hit him with. My dad, Daniel and I sat down at the island and discussed how to get him out of that house.