So much it hurts

He turned to look at me that familiar look in his eye. It means he wants something. "Now you're going to have to make it up to me. Dragging me everywhere like that." He said jesting….Well his tone was his eyes weren’t. You can tell what Josh wants by looking into his eyes. And it usually isn’t hard to guess what. What all men want really. But the fire in his eyes is different from the others. Deeper, fiercer...Darker even. It’s exciting to see. And maybe there was something different about this time...I couldn’t quite put my finger on it so maybe it was nothing at all.

"Oh please. The mall isn’t so bad. And I'll make it up to him sometime." Of course sometime wasn’t good enough. He would want it now.

He shakes his head and cups my face in his hand firmly, forcing us to lock gazes. , "Sometime? You drag me through Hot Topic, Spencer's, JC Penny's, Dillards, Barnes n' Noble, AND Build-a-Bear and you think I'll settle for sometime? Get in that bathroom right now or I'll change your cloths myself." His tone is playful enough but I see the anger welling up inside him. Best to do as he says, or he’ll start yelling or do god-knows-what. I can tell he's serious, not playing any games. His tone is always deceiving....If he’s kidding then he’s pissed, if he sounds happy then he’s sulking. But when he’s pissed that’s the only time you know he’s being true... Its best to avoid conflict and just ggo with what he says.

"All right calm down. Give me the bag." He hands me the bag and presses me to him rumbling like the big cat I know he is. He gives me a kiss before squeezing my hip in encouragement and says sweetly “There’s a good girl.”

Let me make this clear......Corsets may be fun for boys to take off but they’re annoying for us to get on. And the garter belt gave me trouble too. Damn near fell on my ass trying to get it on proper the first time. The thigh highs were easy...Not as easy as the wrist cuffs of course but whatever. He better be happy with this. Cuz Im not. I walk back into the bedroom arms crossed and glaring(pouting) at him. My hair is still up from before we went out, frazzled slightly from the wardrobe change.

When I came out he was on the bed waiting for me. When he sees me he gets up and circles me…Like Im his prey or something. He does resemble a wild animal that hunger crazed look on his face, so deep it reaches his eyes.

“Very sexy sweetheart….But I do think it could use one more thing.” He walked over to the dresser chuckling softly the entire way, and dug something out of the top drawer. When he turned around he had in his hands a leather dog collar…Well one for humans, but it certainly looked more fitting for a dog, and it had a chain leash that hung loosely in his hands. He stared at me strangely before saying “Now its my turn to lead you around.”

"Oooooh role play? This is new." Intriguing! A new game?.... I know some couples play these sex games to keep their bedroom lives exciting and alive….And even though Joshua is always wonderful in bed…Something special did seem to be missing…

He smiled at me though, as if to say things would be alright from now on.Before he got into character and tugged on the leash lightly. “Come here.”

It was like acting right? I just have to act the part...This wasn’t real and if it helped Josh stay excited then there was no harm in it. I bent down on my hands and knees to play the part perfectly and slunk over like a cat, no I didn’t crawl. I refuse to crawl.

He pulls me to him until our lips are scant inches apart teasing me with the promise of a kiss. “Kiss me.” He commands which is odd because usually he doesn’t indulge me when I try to initiate kisses or moments of tenderness.

A kiss is simple enough right? Well not with Joshua. I pressed my lips against his and tried to push for entrance but he didn’t open up. Instead when I went to try something else he shoved his tongue into my mouth claiming dominance. Oh I fought for it, really I did try to be in control but he pried that out from my lips with his skilled tongue and just the right amount of pressure to my lips with his teeth. That always titillated me when he did that...Bite. It was one of my own little kinks. I’m not sure if he knew or not but she definitely I always encouraged him to do it when he was in the mood. And biting in a kiss wasnt really fierce, more like a playful gesture. Itried again to duel with him myo tongue twisting all sorts of ways and even tried sucking on his tongue and grazing teeth on it, to try and send him into a frenzy... I think it worked…He shivered! ...No wait his body language changed completely more commanding now. He pulls us apart and starts suckling at my neck in just the most delightful little spot before making his way up to my ear and practically snarling at me. “Why don’t you get these damned pants out of the way?”

"Hmmmmmmmm?....." Dumbfounded for the moment I didn’t answer.....Then it sank in. "Oooooh..."I began unfastening his belt and pants. Oh….He’s staring at me now….That makes me nervous…And a bit hot and bothered………Well more than I already am.

I know what he wants and I’m still new at this…I never did it for any of my other boyfriends….But somehow Josh had talked me into it.

"Do I have to?..." I was pouting because I don’t like doing this. Tastes funny and I haven’t learned to swallow yet, and it was messy and unpleasant personally I don’t think I’m any good at it, and don’t men like vaginal sex better anyways?....

His eyes narrow at me and I can see the nager building up again. Then he chuckles darkly and says in a malice laced tone “Damn right you do!” He shoves my face into his crotch. Just the epitome of sexual courtes. Bastard. Fine. He wants this? He can have this, and ONLY this. I bend turn my head and take him out of his boxers before licking the tip teasingly and taking as much in my mouth as I can. I wrap my hands around the rest and pumped while I applied some suction.

He leans his head back and groans. “Slow down, damn it.”

No. I said mentally and glared at him. I then began to bob my head, defying him physically, since I couldn’t really talk with his penis in my mouth.

He practically rips me off, pushes me into the bed face first, and settling behind me and holding the leash taut. Then out of nowhere he smacks me on the ass! What the hell?! “You should start listening, or I’ll have to start punishing you.”

I don’t know if hes being in character, or if he’s just pissed…Either way it kind of lights something up inside me. I don’t know what but something is stirring. But Im not going to let that distract me. “Why? You don’t always listen to me!”

He chuckles again. Then he starts tugging down my panties as he says evenly “You’re not the one holding the leash right now, sweetheart.”

“You’d never let me hold your leash anyway! You’d chew it up and spit it back out at me!” At this he tugs the leash even tighter.
“I’d never let you put it on me to begin with…But You know that.” He’s right…He’d never submit to anyone, let alone me. He pressed against me with a firmness that was actually quite harsh…..He’s mad now. Time to shut up or again, lord only knows what would happen. He’s never hit me before, but I wouldn’t put it past him. So I just press back against him letting him interpret the silence however he pleased.

"There's a good girl." He purrs at me. Then he’s pressing into me and moving deeper deeper right THERE yes! And now hes moving in and out at such a nice rythym…Mmm…

Im getting closer and closer, and then he changes his angle and it feels devine. His body shifts its wheight and I find myself in his lap…I hear noises…And I don’t think they’re coming from him. He’s getting even DEEPER now and its good, just like always so good. Feels so good. More! I want more…No I want this feeling to last forever…
Shit it’s coming!
All too soon I went over the edge of bliss with him still moving inside me. He comes shortly after and gives me a kiss on the forehead.
I cuddle up to his warmth now. "Mmmm..." A content noise escapes me. Am I still wearing the collar?... I don’t care… I just want to stay in this calm quiet loving embrace forever….