Broken Hart

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Ven flopped  to his side and sighed . He couldn't  sleep ,  so he got up and sat on the bed . He brushed  his hair  out of his face and looked  at the clock . It was a quarter  to three . He got up and pulled  on a shirt and walked out of his room .  He decided  to  go  for a walk , maybe  the night air would help him relax .  He walked  to the edge  of  a clearing in the forest .  

He picked  a spot and sat down  beneath  a tree . Since they came back a few days ago Hart  had not spoken  a word to him . He would often glance at Ven  in disgust . 

It tore at at Ven , but Hart  didn't  want nothing  to do  with  him .  Needing  to distract  himself  from his current  thoughts   , Ven got up and walked in no particular  direction .   As he went further ,  Ven heard a sudden  noise .  He stopped  to listen . It sounded  like  someone  was crying .  Thinking  maybe  someone  needed  help , Ven went to investigate . 

As he got closer , Ven  saw who it was . About sixteen  feet away  Hart  sat against  a tree .  He had his knees  drawn  up  to  his chest with his head on his arms . His slender  body shook as he sobbed  quietly .  Ven took in the sight and once again  the guilt  hit him like a punch . Moving  closer  to , he called out .

"Hart ? "

Startled ,  Hart  froze  before  he jumped  up .

"Are you following  me ?"

Furiously ,  he wiped at the tears from his eyes and glared  at Ven .

"N-No ! I just couldn't  sleep . What are  you  doing ?  "  

"I thought  since it was such  a  beautiful  night , I'd go for a walk . What do you think , ass hole ?!"

"Hart ,  please ! Can't  we talk ? "

"I told you to leave me alone !"

Hart  took a couple  of  steps   , and Ven blocked  him .

"Please ,  Hart , there's something  you need to know ."

"I don't  want to hear it !"

"Hart..."

"Don't , you betrayed  my trust  in you . Hurt me , don't  expect  me to listen  to  your excuses ! "

Hart  began  walking  away . 

"You're  right . I did hurt you , and I'm so sorry  . Nothing  you say or do could make me feel worse  than  I  do . Back at Lynch's compound  -"

"Don't  involve  your  brother in this ! He didn't  have a gun to you in that cell . You took more than my trust ,  you bastard !  You took my first  time .  "

Hart  walked away , leaving  Ven speechless  and feeling  worse . 

Hart stepped  into his room as the door slid  closed . He went straight  to  his bed and sat on it .what was wrong  with  him ? He was a rebel  soldier . Someone  trained  to  fight ! He plopped  onto his side on the bed just as a huge sob racked his body . Hart  never thought Ven  would deliberately  hurt him like this . It didn't  seem possible  for him to be capable  of this . That and him blaming  his deranged  brother  for what he did . Hart's  eyes narrowed  in anger as he punched  at the  bed . He hated being  a  victim  and whine about  it .  Absently  he  rubbed  at the spot where Ven had bit him . It was sore , but healing . What he needed was something  to take his mind off of his situation .  Yeah , he would show his so -called best friend  that he could  overcome  this .

Ronnie  sat between  Hart  and Ven . They were having a meeting  with the commander . 

"You three did a great  job !   The Intel  we got from the flash drive  is extremely  useful .  Lynch  and his army  won't be hurting  anyone  anymore . "

"Oh good , that  means  he can't  be blamed  for other people's  actions   then ."

Ven gave Hart  a  brief  glance  before  he looked down . He knew that was directed  at him . He took a calming  breath , but it didn't  seem to work .  The commander  continued  on , unaware  of  the  tension .  He explained  how the information  gave details  on weapon  distribution ,  names of high ranking  officials ,  people  Lynch  associated  with ,  and something  called 'LoPo9 among  other  things .  Throughout  the meeting ,  Hart  kept his eyes on the file he'd  been  handed . 

Ronnie  noticed  that  and the way the other wouldn't  acknowledge  Ven . Ronnie saw as Ven closed his eyes  at the occasional  dig Hart supplied . He felt for the both of them . It was truly  heartbreaking . Mercifully  the meeting  ended  and everone left . Hart  gave a nod to Ronnie  and went  on his way . When they were out of earshot ,  Ronnie  pulled  Ven aside .  

"How are you  doing ?  "  

"You mean besides  the gut wrenching  guilt ?  Oh , I'm great ! "

"Give him time . Once you tell  him what really  happened ,  he'll  understand . "

Ven sighed  deeply . 

"No , that's  not gonna  happen . Hart  is hurting   , and has  every right  in the world  to be angry  at me . "

"Yeah , but it wasn't  your  fault .  "  

"Yes it was, and there's  no  way  you or anyone  can justify  what I did !"

"Ven , thus was beyond  your  control !  "

"Don't  defend  what I did . "

"I'm not ! Dude , you did something  horrible . Find a way  to fix it !  So instead  of feeling  sorry  for  yourself ,  figure  out  what you need to do . Do it and stop whining  about  it ! "

Frustrated  Ronnie  left  Ven ,who stood  in shock . 

Ven decided  that Ronnie  was right .  He should  be trying  to see what he could  do to have Hart  forgive  him .

With a graceful  flip , Hart  landed  on his hands  and spun before  going to his feet . Then threw some punches  as he dodged  an imaginary  opponent .  Moving  to the music  he had , Hart concentrated  as Distrubed's 'Down  with the sickness  'blared from the stereo  he brought .  He moved to a practice  dummy .  He struck it several  times  then stooped . He panted as he went to hit the dummy  again  and again . He was so absorbed  in in what he was doing , that he didn't  notice  as Ven looked  on . Hart kicked  and punched  as his mind flashed elsewhere .  Sudden images  of Ven  on top of ran through  his mind . His body ached with the effort  to keep going .  The smug  look on Ven's  face appeared .  Hart then sobbed as he collapsed  to his knees . He pounded on the floor  as he cried out . Alarmed ,  Ven went over to him and knelt  besides  him .

"Hart , are you okay ? "

He reached  out , but the other male turned  to face  him .

"Does  it look like I'm okay ? "

"Hart , please  we have to talk . "

Hart  gave Ven a cruel  smirk . 

"Heh ,the last  time we 'talked  ' , I was under you while  you raped me ! Touch me again ,  and I swear I'll cut off your  dick ."

He pushed  Ven away from him . He paused  long enough  to get his  stereo  and left . He was tired  of  Ven and his excuses . He wasn't  fooling  him . No the next  time Ven tried  to put his hands  on him , he would make him regret  it .  Hart sat on the floor  as he drew his knees up and rested his head on his arms .   He tried to think of why Ven had raped him . He never showed  any intrest  in him . So why now ?  Why did he do  it ?  When they were on that cell ,Ven had been a different  person , almost like a man possessed .  He wasn't  the Ven , Hart  knew . In his most wildest  dreams ,  Hart  never  thought  Ven  would  be  his first  ,(Not that he was saving  himself  for anyone  ), Hart  just didn't  have time to think about  having  a  love life .  He  didn't  understand  the sudden  intrest  Ven had in him or why he would  want to end their  friendship  that way . Did he do something  to  make him hurt him like  that ? Hart  remembered  Ven saying  something  about  him being  a  tease . His brows furrowed  as he tried to figure  out how he had teased him . As far as he knew , Hart  had never  done anything  to  lead Ven on . Hell he thought  of the other  male as a brother .  Hart shook  his head and got up . This had to stop !   Suddenly  someone  bumped   into him . Hart looked up , ready to apologize ,  but he froze  seeing Ven . Before  he could  say anything  Ven spoke  up .

 "Uh , excuse me . Sorry . "

Ven inched away and walked the opposite  way .  Hart  frowned  as he watched  Ven rush  toward  his destination . 

Ven watched  as Hart  as the male walked  into the wooded  area of the base . Without  thinking  he  followed  him . After  a few minutes ,  Hart  stopped . 

"Why are you following  me ?  "

"I..I don't  know  I -"

"Liar!"

Hart  turned  around  and held  out a knife . 

"I know what you  want , but I won't  give you a chance  to  hurt  me ."

"I never meant  to hurt you . Hart ,  you're  like a brother  to me ." 

 Hart  laughed  bitterly . 

"You have a wierd    way  of showing  it . Or do you rape everyone  you care about ? "

"I'm sorry !  Please  believe  me , I'm so sorry . "

"Never . You're  dead to me ."

Tired of Hart's  hurtful  words ,Ven closed  the gap between  them and grabbed  the others  hand  then held it against  his chest . 

Hart  gasped  as he thought  he would  be attacked ,  but his eyes went wide with shock  as he saw what  Ven had done . The other had grabbed  the hand with the knife ,  and was giving  him the chance  to kill him .

"Do it ! If you hate me do much , then kill me ! "

"Ven,I -"

"I never  meant  to  hurt  you , and I'm sorry  for that . You'll  never know hown bad I feel . So do it , take out all your  anger and hatred on me . " 

Hart  looked at Ven and realized  that he meant  what he said . In that moment  of madness  he waneed to let his anger out . He wanted  to sink the knife  into Ven's  chest . With a growl ,  he pressed the knife in . Then he looked into Ven's  eyes ,  and he saw it . The pain ,the guilt ,  Hart  saw that and more . His face crumbled  as he cried out and dropped  the knife . 

"I can't .  I can't  do  it , damn you !" 

Ven wrapped  his arms  around  Hart  and let him cry .

"You'll  never how sorry  I am ."

Minutes  later  Hart  calmed  down  somewhat  he pushed  Ven away . 

"I still  hate you ."

He said  as he ran from him .

Until  next  time  my pretties ! 

Much Huggles !