The Broken Rose
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Category:
DarkFic › General
Rating:
Adult
Chapters:
41
Views:
5,498
Reviews:
2
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Fuckered up yet again....
guess ive fuckered things up pretty good this time, try to get out and stand on my own two feet, make my cousin grow up and be responsible, learn to be my own person for a change and no matter what i manage to fuck things up with me and dark......if we stay together ill be surprised bc all of my choices lately just seem to wind up pissing him off, and where im living isnt helping the matter none......but what the fuck can i do??? other then stay with my decisions.....i managed to FINALLY get a job, a good paying one, one that will look good on job apps so i can raise money and leave this hell hole behind, but now i wish i knew why im trying???? not like anything i want will happen......yeah i may finally be able to vanish from here but not to where id want to be, im going to have no choice but to give up that dream......as well as a few others since if i cant do anything right over long distance why the hell was i kidding myself into thinking i could make anything else work??????? ive been broken more times then i can count, ive been lost more then i would have thought, but i guess its my own damn fault for fucking things up more and more.............. maybe i should just vanish all together, then no one would have to worry about the fuckup...... then no one would have to try to handle my emotions and every fucked up member of my family........
sad thing is i was right......dark and i are no longer together, still friends though....i find it so hard to stay who ive become over the past year and a half, i just want to fall back into my old path, hide from everyone and everything.....im withdrawn, depressed and sad......but thats my lot in life anymore.......i dont see it changing anytime soon......i get so fed up with it though.....have people message me on sl, flirting and wanting one thing i wont give to them, add as a friend then get ignored......ill admit i miss having someone to cuddle with, to hold me when im sad......but maybe its for the best that im all alone....maybe then i wont fuck things up again
Lost, broken and giving up
sad thing is i was right......dark and i are no longer together, still friends though....i find it so hard to stay who ive become over the past year and a half, i just want to fall back into my old path, hide from everyone and everything.....im withdrawn, depressed and sad......but thats my lot in life anymore.......i dont see it changing anytime soon......i get so fed up with it though.....have people message me on sl, flirting and wanting one thing i wont give to them, add as a friend then get ignored......ill admit i miss having someone to cuddle with, to hold me when im sad......but maybe its for the best that im all alone....maybe then i wont fuck things up again
Lost, broken and giving up