Take Me From This Pain, Kevin's story

Ryan studied Lee from across the table and watched how the other boy laughed and spoke with their friends. Kevin had asked him about his life back in Rhode Island and Lee had launched into the story of his childhood with enthusiasm, not missing a single tidbit, it seemed. Though Ryan was listening, he wasn’t participating actively in the conversation, choosing instead to study his small boyfriend.

Even after dating him for almost five months and living with him for two, Ryan was still amazed with how beautiful the boy actually was. Lee, admittedly attracted to Ryan’s long dark hair, had grown his own light brown locks out some, and insisted he wanted them longer still. Ryan had chuckled and told him that he looked fine to him, but that if Lee wanted to grow his hair long that was cool, too. Thinking back over it now, he frowned inwardly, wondering if Lee was looking for subtle ways to change himself for Ryan’s sake. It had been bothering him since he and Kevin had spoken about it earlier that Lee didn’t feel confident in Ryan’s feelings for him. And for what? Because Ryan hadn’t confirmed them, that’s why. And that truly was the dark-haired boy’s fault. He should have brought the subject up long ago.

Lee looked over at him questioningly for a moment and Ryan smiled gently at him. The boy blushed slightly but returned the smile before going back to Joey’s question about his high school’s football team. Ryan was content to fade back into the background and watch the boy’s lips move as he spoke. Lee had such a perfect mouth. In fact, Ryan almost starting blushing himself as he remembered just how much pleasure that mouth had brought him since they’d moved in together.

Though Lee had shied away from actual intercourse, he had readily attacked Ryan orally the very night they’d planned their living arrangements. Ryan thought back to Valentine’s Day dreamily, to the moment when Lee had agreed to move in. He’d pushed Ryan back onto the couch and worshipped his neck and chest with his tongue. Ryan wanted to do the same but Lee refused to pull away, laving each nipple into a hardened peak. Ryan’s cock twitched, just as it did that night when Lee pressed his palm over Ryan’s jean-clad groin. Before the dark-haired boy knew what was happening, Lee had removed the offending pants and the briefs Ryan wore under it in a few deft movements and had closed those perfect lips over the hardened spear, causing Ryan to groan loudly in pleasure. He remembered watching Lee look up briefly with such a gaze of satisfaction Ryan almost climaxed right then. But the smaller boy would have none of it. He returned his hot, sweet mouth to Ryan’s shaft and slowly tortured him, bringing him close to climax then pulling back, driving Ryan into a frenzy he’d never imagined. Finally, the larger boy put his hand on the back of his boyfriend’s head and begged him to finish him off. He remembered the snicker that Lee had purposely emitted, which caused a vibration that ignited Ryan’s entire erogenous region. He remembered everything going black then seeing a pure white screen explode in his mind as he released himself into Lee’s hot and demanding mouth. Ryan had never felt so sated before. And he’d never seen Lee look so smug. When he went to return the favor, the smaller boy had stopped him and led him to bed where they’d cuddled for the rest of the night.

Now Ryan could feel the effects of the memory, as well as the other times they’d shared. He remembered when Lee had finally allowed him to try his own hand, or mouth, at pleasing him. It had been awkward at first, with Lee giving him a sort of how-to lesson on what to do with the straining, erect cock in front of him. But in the end he’d worked out what to do and had Lee writhing and moaning with abandon before he came in a sweet and salty stream of hot, white semen. Ryan had lapped it all up surprised he wasn’t sickened by the taste as he thought he would be at first.

He watched Lee now as he licked some salsa off his fingers, the final remnant of the heavily laden nacho he’d just consumed, and his cock twitched again. Everything the boy did fascinated and captivated Ryan. He loved this boy. He knew he did. And later on tonight he was going to explain it to him.

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Lee was trying so hard to keep his mind on the conversation he was having with Joey and Kevin. Jason sat in amused silence next to Kevin, trading indecipherable looks with Cindy who sat closely next to Joey. The redheaded jock had one arm wrapped around her waist and the other hand was attacking the nacho dish. Lee was able to focus on the questions briefly and answer them, but his attention was drawn to his quietly sexy boyfriend across the table. Ryan was watching him and he could feel the larger boy practically radiate his energy out to him.

It had always been this way between them, and Lee had long since given up the battle of trying to keep his emotional distance. He knew he’d fallen in love with Ryan after their first date. It had hurt so much to find out that Ryan was bisexual. That was something Lee had sworn he’d never put himself through again. But he couldn’t just leave things as they were. His attraction to the dark-haired boy was too strong.

Danny. Lee sighed to himself. Danny, the golden-haired baseball god from his past, had been his first love and his only boyfriend until Ryan. They’d been best friends since they were kids and all through high school. When the other kids picked on him for being smaller than them and effeminate, Danny had stood by him and defended him. When they were juniors in high school, Lee had confessed his sexuality to his best friend one drunken night in Danny’s basement. The next morning, Danny told him what he’d said and Lee was mortified. He worried that he would lose his one true friend over it. But Danny only smiled and said he’d suspected it long ago. It hadn’t mattered at all and they’d gone on with their friendship as usual. The only change was that Danny had privately teased him about checking out cute guys wherever they’d gone.

Then things changed in senior year and Lee remembered it with both longing and sadness. It was just after Thanksgiving, when Danny had returned from the annual trip he and his family took to his grandparents’ house in Maine. He told Lee he’d come home to a message from his girlfriend Jessica that she’d decided to leave him for another boy in school. And the weirdest thing was, Danny told him, that he couldn’t have cared less about it. When Lee opened his mouth to ask him about it, Danny had jumped him sliding his tongue into Lee’s mouth, and so began Lee’s first real relationship. He hadn’t even questioned it, having always harbored a crush on his best friend. Danny had been the perfect boyfriend at first, too. They hadn’t dated publicly, but that was fine with Lee. As long as he had his Danny, nothing else mattered.

Until she came along. Well, came back anyway. Lee remembered that day with a cruel clarity, as if it only just happened. It was just after spring break of his senior year and he and Danny were just getting back to school. Jessica had stopped by Danny’s locker warily and asked to speak with him. Lee remembered a sense of trepidation but Danny had given him a silent reassuring look and said they’d see each other at lunch. When lunch rolled around, Lee was shocked to enter the cafeteria only to be met with the sight of Danny with his arm around Jessica as they sat at his favorite table. His and Danny’s favorite table. Danny looked up and locked eyes with Lee before the smaller boy backed up slowly and fled.

Later that evening, Danny had tried to call him but Lee refused to come to the phone. Finally, he was cornered as he threw out the trash for his mother. Danny had waited for him in the shadows and held him against the wall while he tried to explain. Lee had only heard bits and pieces of it as the hot tears had streamed down his cheeks. Danny was sorry. So very sorry. Their relationship was an experiment. A rebound from his breakup with Jessica, he’d reasoned. She’d hurt him deeply and Danny knew Lee would never have done that to him. He would always care for him but he’d never loved him. Never. Lee already knew that. Danny had never professed to love him. And he was too afraid of losing the other boy to tell him that he did love Danny.

The rest of his senior year was spent in solitude. He’d never spoken directly to Danny again, no matter how many times the other boy tried to talk to him. When the other students again tried to pick on Lee, Danny still defended him. But Lee had stopped caring. He threw himself into his studies and ignored everything. He was so thrilled when graduation came and he could leave Danny’s sight forever. And did. He spent the summer before college helping his parents with their bookstore. Danny would pass by with Jessica or some of his friends. He would always look in but never enter. When summer was over, Lee left and never even said goodbye.

So when he’d first spotted Ryan at school, he was surprised at his own reaction. His need to get to know the other boy had quickly overpowered his fear. And he took a rare chance at meeting him. His ice cream idea had shocked even him with its sheer genius. And Ryan was even better up close than from afar. When he’d asked Lee to move into his dorm room, the smaller boy was torn between his fear of Ryan’s bisexuality and his newfound love for the dark-haired boy. But Ryan had convinced him that he cared for him. And that was already more than Danny had ever done.

Looking across the table at Ryan now, Lee sensed the heat between them, and he couldn’t miss the hot look of possession that Ryan held now. Danny was in the past, Lee suddenly decided. And Ryan was showing every indication that he wanted to be Lee’s future. And Lee couldn’t think of a better one to look forward to.