The Broken Rose

A new year has come, and i honestly wish it was still last year, ive put off writing this for over a week now, mainly because ive been breaking too much this past week, still am in fact. sadly my days have taken on a very sad pattern, wake up, get online, be alone, talk with dark some, continue to be alone, dance to try to rid my self of the depression i feel, log off anywhere between 12-3 am, go to my room and cry for a bit, crash out around 4-6, get back up around 7:30 and repeat. and as you read that your probably all confused now, considering i was on my last update just partnered to dark on sl.....that all ended Dec 27th, too many people lieing about me to him and me unable to completely give him what he wants not right now anyways........ i am numb, sad, depressed, and my heart truely hurts......im no longer sure what to do anymore, i just want to give up on everything but i cant too many people would be hurt if i did give up, mainly dark, so instead i get to bear my pain, block out idiots who see single and think free sex (cue the redneck anthem of SINGLE: Stay Intoxicated Nightly Get Laid Everyday. Props to Jeff Foxworthy for that one)


im not sure if i will be writing more into this anymore.......im tired of the heartache, tired of the pain, i mourn the life i had last year....god i wish things could go back to then

~~~~Broken & Lost~~~~