The Broken Rose
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Category:
DarkFic › General
Rating:
Adult
Chapters:
41
Views:
5,489
Reviews:
2
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Why????
09/22/09
Why is life so damn hard to figure out? or love for that matter? its been 5 days since dark told me he was no longer in love with me, 3 days since he had to go tend to his rl thing, a day since i had to deal with the one year aniversary of a bad day in my life, and now dark tells me hes thinking of leaving sl, vanishing on those who know and care about him. and all i can do is sit here and wish i could turn back time, I still am in love with that sutburn man, i miss him like crazey, i mean yeah hes still on to talk to and everything but its not the same anymore, now theres no reason for me to try to keep myself on the right track, theres no one there to actually care for me as anything but a friend, and as for my friends, half of them dont even fucking care at all, i finally realized why it was so easy to withdraw from everyone, no one cares if i talk to not, agir, angel, sorn, not a one after hearing about me and dark has messaged to check on me, yet anything goes bad for them i message to check on them bc im a friend who cares, its funny ya know? i used to be able to count on people to be there yet now i cant count on them, in a way i can still count on dark, but its not the same anymore, i Still love him so im not sure what i can or cant say anymore. and as much as i want to i cant just act like it never happened or that my hearts still not his...........when it comes to dark, im confused now, bc as much as i can fight against anyone who tried to break us up, in the end i couldnt fight him all i could do was sit in shock as he said it was over that he no longer loved me in that way. so much for ever being happy rl, or having someone who would understand me. right now life just hurts to live, but i have to bear it no matter what bc i cant just walk away, thatd hurt even more, with as much as i love him, id rather keep him in my life as one of my closest friends since i cant keep him there as the love of my life........
I am broken
I am alone
i am saddened
~~i am a lost and broken rose~~
Why is life so damn hard to figure out? or love for that matter? its been 5 days since dark told me he was no longer in love with me, 3 days since he had to go tend to his rl thing, a day since i had to deal with the one year aniversary of a bad day in my life, and now dark tells me hes thinking of leaving sl, vanishing on those who know and care about him. and all i can do is sit here and wish i could turn back time, I still am in love with that sutburn man, i miss him like crazey, i mean yeah hes still on to talk to and everything but its not the same anymore, now theres no reason for me to try to keep myself on the right track, theres no one there to actually care for me as anything but a friend, and as for my friends, half of them dont even fucking care at all, i finally realized why it was so easy to withdraw from everyone, no one cares if i talk to not, agir, angel, sorn, not a one after hearing about me and dark has messaged to check on me, yet anything goes bad for them i message to check on them bc im a friend who cares, its funny ya know? i used to be able to count on people to be there yet now i cant count on them, in a way i can still count on dark, but its not the same anymore, i Still love him so im not sure what i can or cant say anymore. and as much as i want to i cant just act like it never happened or that my hearts still not his...........when it comes to dark, im confused now, bc as much as i can fight against anyone who tried to break us up, in the end i couldnt fight him all i could do was sit in shock as he said it was over that he no longer loved me in that way. so much for ever being happy rl, or having someone who would understand me. right now life just hurts to live, but i have to bear it no matter what bc i cant just walk away, thatd hurt even more, with as much as i love him, id rather keep him in my life as one of my closest friends since i cant keep him there as the love of my life........
I am broken
I am alone
i am saddened
~~i am a lost and broken rose~~