The Broken Rose
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Category:
DarkFic › General
Rating:
Adult
Chapters:
41
Views:
5,488
Reviews:
2
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Life SUCKS
09/15/09
November 21st 2008, the happiest day in otherwise miserable life, i had found a great guy who loved me for me, a guy i could give my heart to and not regret it. a guy i fell in love with both online and in real life to....... A man worthy to be called my beloved...... a man who made from nov 21 up til sept 15 the happiest months in my entire life.............but then he broke up with me, he was no longer in love with me, though he does still love me........... ive fought my own demons and my so called best friend for him, in hopes to improve myself to deserve being with him, i came from an abusive past and was really fucked up by it as well as by one of my exs......... was a time when i had tried to leave this world behind but i cant, id hurt to many if i left.............. i was so scared to even consider an RL relationship, yet i considered it many times for him, i could have easily lost myself in my feelings for him. I love him, plain and simple right? but im wrong, no matter how much you love someone if its not returned then lifes fucked............If i could id disappear now, but thatd only make him worry about me and i wont let him do that, not when hes got more important things to deal with then me, instead ill nurse a broken heart for awhile, stay away from relationships for a long time......too much pain comes from them............i dont see myself letting anyone in for along time, not anymore.......not when i no sooner let someone almost fully in and the relationship ends.....
im not able to count on many friends to be there for me, and i wont impose on anyone i know, so from now on i become a wanderer, never to settle down, never to call another place home.............I am a broken rose once more... only this time the pain is much worse to bear........... i wish him all the luck and love in the world....... and the best of wishes for this friday, my heart will always be with him, and he will always reside in it.
~Broken Rose~
November 21st 2008, the happiest day in otherwise miserable life, i had found a great guy who loved me for me, a guy i could give my heart to and not regret it. a guy i fell in love with both online and in real life to....... A man worthy to be called my beloved...... a man who made from nov 21 up til sept 15 the happiest months in my entire life.............but then he broke up with me, he was no longer in love with me, though he does still love me........... ive fought my own demons and my so called best friend for him, in hopes to improve myself to deserve being with him, i came from an abusive past and was really fucked up by it as well as by one of my exs......... was a time when i had tried to leave this world behind but i cant, id hurt to many if i left.............. i was so scared to even consider an RL relationship, yet i considered it many times for him, i could have easily lost myself in my feelings for him. I love him, plain and simple right? but im wrong, no matter how much you love someone if its not returned then lifes fucked............If i could id disappear now, but thatd only make him worry about me and i wont let him do that, not when hes got more important things to deal with then me, instead ill nurse a broken heart for awhile, stay away from relationships for a long time......too much pain comes from them............i dont see myself letting anyone in for along time, not anymore.......not when i no sooner let someone almost fully in and the relationship ends.....
im not able to count on many friends to be there for me, and i wont impose on anyone i know, so from now on i become a wanderer, never to settle down, never to call another place home.............I am a broken rose once more... only this time the pain is much worse to bear........... i wish him all the luck and love in the world....... and the best of wishes for this friday, my heart will always be with him, and he will always reside in it.
~Broken Rose~