To Become

11:52pm - Happy

I got back to the warehouse today a little after 1. Ryan did the coolest thing. When Dr. Houle said that he could take me back, Greg came and got all of the stuff and finished everything up for us while I got in Ryan's car. He put me in the back and told me to lay face down. I wasn't about to argue. I noticed though that we were stopping. I wanted to look to see if we had gotten back yet, but we hadn't travelled far, so I just kept my head down. When we stopped, Ryan got out of the car and opened the back door. I looked up at him. "Stay here." Then he pushed my head back down. I just remembered being really confused by his actions, especially leaving me alone, although I was positive and still am that someone was watching me. I like to think that he trusted me though. Anyway, when he came back, he opened the driver's door and got in. Then we drove off.

He told me to sit up and when I did we were off of the main road and out in a wooded area. I kind of got scared because I didn't recognize the area, but he noticed and told me to calm down. He handed something back to me. It was a Happy Meal! I smiled so big, and I could tell he was trying really hard not to smile back. His eyes, however, did.

We got out of the car and went to sit at this picnic table a few paces down. I figured we were at some sort of nature park. I opened up the box, and he had got me chicken nuggets and fries. There was also a box of apple juice. He was tempting me and I knew it, but there was no way I could pass it up. I mean, he had been so nice to do that! If I didn't eat it, he would be angry. So I chewed, bite after bite, and it was delicious! McDonalds has never been one of my favorite places to eat, but when it's been so long since you've had fast food, which is a big part of a growing kid's life, anything will work. I got a toy also. Littlest Pet Shop is what it says. I got a chimpanzee. It's so cute! It's sitting on my shelf. Sara and I named her Blueberry because she's holding a blue bear.

Ryan says that I don't have to do anything tomorrow, but I have to work Saturday. I'm not looking forward to it. I knew I would have to again sooner or later. Ryan is happy that I gained weight at least. I don't really care either way. For now, I just need to please him. Make him happy. If I can do that, then everything will be fine.

Please your master. Be rewarded. Pleasure always comes after pain. Doesn't it?