Demon Beside Me

Chapter 1
This is my life then


What was the meaning to life? Why where we all sent to this place to live a life we at times never even knew why we live?

Why did I always wonder about these things?

These were just a few questions I always ask myself what seemed like my whole life. I was never too sure why I had to live. I hate my life, hate it to the point in which I at times which I would just die!

Why did I have to be alive? Why did I have to live a life I hate?

The hallways of this school were painted in blood. Well not real blood, but blood of people tears the tears of the people who have cried while going here to East Lasing High.

Most of those tears people cried came because of my so called friends: Stephenie, Mindy, and Katelyn.

All three of these girls were the true meaning of evil. They would always hurt people just for kicks and would never think twice about the fact that they had hurt someone to the point that they would think about killing themselves.

No making fun of people was like a sport to them and it was all about who did it the best, who was the one on top. Well who was on top was easy.
Katelyn was of course.

She had the looks of a model and the attitude of an A-list actress. What was it about her blue eyes that would make anyone turn to ice just looking into them or her jet black hair that was ever so shiny, silky and hung down her back in waves?

I honestly didn’t know but really didn’t want to.

She was the real reason Stephenie and Mindy acted the way they did. She was the so called Queen Bee of our school and she did what she wanted when she wanted. I hated her for it, but at times envy her, for she never knew what it was like to be teased and to have your life be the way mine is.

“What are you thinking about Minnie?” questioned the devil herself.

I looked over at Katelyn my eyes not showing anything about what I was thinking. I noticed that her newly sun kissed skin was glowing under the school café lights.

“Nothing much.” I quietly said and looked away from her blue eyes. I didn’t want to talk, but I knew soon she may make me.

I looked over at Stephenie so that Kate would think that I wasn’t thinking anything and leave it be. When I looked over at Stephenie I that she was looking at herself in the mirror making sure her red hair was still it’s curly bouncy self.

Mindy on the other hand was playing with her long white blonde hair twisting it in her hand. You could tell by her blue eyes that she was not really paying attention to what was going on around her.

I wished I was that good at acting.

“Well then ladies.” Katelyn began and looked at us all though her long thick black eye lashes making sure we all were now paying close attention to her. “It’s time for the weekly vote.”

The weekly vote.

I hated the weekly vote.

I remembered when Jena told me that the whole weekly vote thing had started the day Kate came here to this school. I wanted nothing more than to roll my eyes at the whole thing.
I mean all she did was go around the café and ask the students questions that she wanted to know, being the noisy person she was.

I still remember when she asked ‘If someone said they would give you a billion dollars would you take it, but of course they also said they would get to kill you in a week if you did.’

This week the question was different, then again every week the question was different.

I wonder what the question was going to be this week, maybe she was going to ask something personal. She knew that the other ‘popular’ kids would answer her dumb questions.

“Ok girls the question this week is, what would you do to be able to be young forever?” She said happy with her new question.

What a dumb question? Why would anyone want to be young forever? To have to live though high school over and over, man I would just die.

Kate eyed me from out of the corner of her eyes and a frowned went across her lips.

“Minnie what would you do to stay younger forever?” She asked as she begun to pull her hair from her eyes.

I frowned and wanted so badly to tell her nothing at all, for I didn’t want to stay young forever and have to see people like her for the rest of my life.

“I would steal my step father car and sell it so that I could buy my own car.” I told her smiling.

I had been thinking of doing something like this one day, but knew I would never.

“That is so lame.” Kate let out rolling her eyes.

“Yeah.” Stephenie agreed shaking her head at me.

Kate looked at Mindy. I knew she was mad that she didn’t say anything.

Mindy looked at me seeming to be pulled from her daze.

“Yes, Kate is right.” Mindy said her eyes looking as if she didn’t honestly mean it.

We all got up from our table and began to ask the other popular people the question of the week and got their answer for the school paper.

I hated having to do this. I didn’t like the other popular kids, who where nothing more than wannbes.

All they did was talk about people and got away with it. I hated that they felt they could do this and get away with it. Why couldn’t they know how it felt to be teased? Why couldn’t they know what it felt like to go home and cry in your pillow because your life sucked?

“Look girls it’s Jena Matts.” Kate whispered to us when she saw the girl walking in the café with her head down.

Hearing Jena name made me stop thinking about my old life, not it made me start to think about my new one.

I was no better than those girls who teased me back at my old school. I was Jena at my old school.

I really didn’t want to look at Jena she was after all the first person who tried to be my friend when I first came here. We were friends for the whole first week I was here and just when she was going to come over to my house for a sleep over Kate invited me to her party.

The memory made me want to shiver.

I had stopped being her friend as soon as Kate began to talk to me.

Jena was one of those girls that one would call an easy target. She didn’t at all have a cute face nor did she have what Kate called pretty hair.

Jena always wore her puffy brown curls in a big hair pony tail that she kept looking as if she had never combed it a day in her life.

She had these brown eyes that held no green in them so unlike Stephenie eyes that where pure green without the hint of brown.

She walked in going to a table where she set everyday by herself-where I had seat with her at one time-eating her bagged lunch and reading some romance novel.

Looking at her made me remember how I was her at my old school my freshman year. The one all the girls and a few guys pulled all the jokes on, but then I moved here and my life changed when I meant Kate who was far worse than the girls at my old school.

I looked away from her. I hated thinking about my old life and I hate even more that looking at her made me realizes what I was and what I was becoming.

“Hey Minnie; let’s play a little joke on her.” Kate said and smiled my way.

“Kate what do you want me to do?” I asked knowing that whatever she said I would do even if I knew it was wrong.

“Well you know she is always reading those love books, right?” She said and watched as all of us listened, but I shook my head.

“You mean her romance novels right?” I asked and saw her eyes glare at me.

“Of course you would know what kind of books she reads. It’s not like you are living this life.” She rolled her eyes and shook her head. “I mean you pathetic girls who have no life must stand up for each other right? So maybe I should just say I’m sorry to her and to the whole school even. I mean it’s not like it’s my fought that school is mean and hard that everyone can’t rule, right, but I should say I’m sorry.”

“I’m not saying that Kate.”
“Then what are you saying Minnie, I rule this school with an iron fist and if you don’t like it then go off to the little outsider.”

Kate looked over at Stephenie and Mindy.

“Yeah, Minnie why don’t you be a loser like your twin over there?” Stephenie laughed shaking her head sadly at me.

“Yeah.” Mindy softly said and played with her hair not evening looking at me.

I didn’t want to be Jena again. I didn’t want to be the girl everyone made fun of again.

I didn’t want to be plain Jane. I could still hear those kids at my old school calling me that. I couldn’t take it again. No never again.

“I’m sorry Kate. I must have been thinking about something else.” I said and watched as she smiled.

“Yeah whatever Minnie, back to what I was saying.” She told me with a wave of her hand as if dismissing anything else that could be said on the topic. It was almost as if it had never happened, but I knew Kate. She may act as if nothing happened, but when she needed to she came out and she remembered. “Well how about we make her believe one of those love stories is happening to her.”

Kate may have tried to make me feel bad about reading, but she was right about one thing. I loved reading those kinds of books, but I never brought them to school anymore.

If I had Kate would yell at me. I could hear her saying….:Only geeks read those kinds of books, because only beautiful people like her lived those lives that those geeks had to only read about and wish it would happened to them.

I didn’t care. They were good books to me, but since I start being so called friends with her I had to read those books when I was at home or when I walked my dog.

I stared out in space and knew that only when I did that, did I truly become free from her. In my own little world I was perfect and I didn’t have to listen to Kate. No I was Kate in my world. Everyone worshipped me.

“Kim from bio gave me one of Jena books from her locker.” Kate said pulling me from my dream. I looked up at her and watched as she pulled the book out from channel bag. “I think it would only be nice if we gave it back.”

Looking at Jena book made me wonder if she ever got a chance to read that fantasy novel I told her about.

Stephenie laughed and Mindy giggled. I knew she wasn’t going to just give it back. I just looked at Kate not knowing what she was planning on doing.

“Minnie you should write a love letter to her from Jake.” She said to me and I knew she had to see my face go plain. “What, just write the letter and make it good.”

“Why do you want to do that?” I asked. I really liked Jake and Kate knew this, so why was she going to make me hurt this girl by using the only boy in this school I liked.

I watched as all their eyes looked at me like I had lost my mind after I had said what I had said.

“What you like her or something?” Mindy asked innocently. I knew she had seen Kate eye glaring at her.

“Yeah is this some kind of geek thing?” Stephenie added rolling her eyes.

“Now girls please stop.” Kate said in a light tone. “If she wants to act like a geek let her, why don’t you just go over there and s…”

“Fine.”

Kate smiled at my answer as I wrote the letter I felt her hands on my hair.

“You need to use some new kind of shampoo.” She said when my eyes meant her blue ones I knew she could see how I was annoyed at her, but she knew I wasn’t going to say anything.

No one ever said anything to her. She was after all the Queen of the school.

I, Mindy, and Stephenie were nothing more than her honey bees.

“I’m done here.”

Kate smiled warmly and took the letter from me. She got up and walked over to where Jena was sitting.

She said something to Jena and it looked like Jena had put her head down and Kate laughed in her face then though her book down on the table.

Kate turned back to us and walked to where we were sitting down at. She smiled at us.

“Wait for it girls.”

I turned back to Jena table and saw that she was now looking at her book. When she picked it up the letter fell out and she began to look around as if she could not believe that there was a letter in her book.

She picked up the letter in her book and read it. I saw a faint smile come across her lips. She looked to where Jake and his friends were sitting at and got up to walk were they were at.

Jena walked to their table with the letter in her hand and a smile on her face. Jake looked up and smiled a little at her. He was kind, that’s why I liked him.

She handed him the letter and Jake’s eyes read the letter as soon as he did read it he looked over at me and Kate, but a frown came over his lips when he looked at me.

He knew.

He looked back at her and was about to say something when one of his friends took the letter from his hands.

Everyone at that table began to laugh and I watched as Mike tried to make his friends stop laughing at her but they just would not stop but they didn’t listen.

I soon heard my so called friends laugh at her and began saying Loser real load at Jena.

I could see even from where I sat Jena tears.

Jena turned her head over to our table as if just realizing what had happened.

She looked at all of us, but when her eyes meant mine it was almost as if she looked at me as if she could not believe I had done such a thing.

The tears began to fall from her eyes and she ran from the café crying.

I looked back at my so called friends and saw that they were now calling her a cry baby and everyone else in the café room was now laughing at her.

They always laughed at her. She didn’t have any friends but still why people had to be so mean to her was beyond me.

“That was so funny.” Stephenie said clapping her hands. “That will show her for thinking she is smarter than Kate.”

Isn’t she? I thought as Kate looked over at me and I made my eyes agree with hers.

I don’t know why she was mad at Jena just because she had answered the question right in history and she didn’t.

It was not Jena fought that she had study and Kate had not.

“I think that she will never try and act like that in class again.” Kate blue eyes were glowing brightly as her smile hit each cheek with her dimples showing.

“I’m sure.” Mindy reinsured her.

“Right.” I may have said that, but I thought something else: Why don’t I just tell her to leave me alone.

“Anyways let’s go and finish the vote ok.” Kate said as if nothing had happened.

Stephenie and Mindy shook their heads. I just looked at them not really into this right now. I was never really into it, but right now I was really not into it.

The rest of my day past by like nothing more than a daze that I couldn’t even remember.

I didn’t remember really anything. Not math, history, or any there stupid class for that matter. In fact I can’t even remember how I got into Mindy car.

I didn’t even realize I was in her until I heard the car cut on and then it was like I was pulled from my daze.

As I road home with Mindy like always I just closed my eyes not knowing why I allowed Kate to do something like that to Jena. She was a sweet quiet girl who never bothered anyone. So why did people pick on people like her and me, people who never did anything to anyone.

Why didn’t I stand up for her? She was nice to me and I know she was sad by the fact that I had left her for Kate.

I was after all her only friend. She didn’t have anyone and it seemed like she never really had anyone.

“Are you going to do your homework for Mrs. Cullen’s class?” Mindy asked her eyes not leaving the road.

I shook my head yes. We both stared that class and it seemed that Mindy was very good in it. I would never understand why when Kate was around she acted stupid and clueless.
Maybe it was to make Kate think she was smarter than her. That could be the only real reason.

“I already did it when I was in study hall.” She smiled to me. “I can help you if you want. Just call me ok.”

“Thanks.” I replied. She knew I wasn’t good with math.

Just as the word left my mouth I realized we had just pulled up to my house. I smiled a thank you to her and got out of her car.

“I’ll talk to you later Minnie.” Mindy said out of her window just as she pulled off from in front of my house.

I waved at her just before I started to walk into my house. This house was no were near the size of my old house and I still hated the fact that we had to move here.
Just because mom new husband got a new job didn’t mean I had to leave my home as well.

I may not have had many friends, but the one I did have I would never see again and I would forever hate my mom for it.

By the time I was though the door I saw that my family was already all home. My brother was on the floor playing videos games, my step father looking over his student’s papers, my little half sister was playing with her toys and I knew mom was in the kitchen…like always.

“Hi, Minnie.” My brother said not evening looking up from his game. His blond hair was falling over his blue eyes a little, but he was so into the game that he didn’t even seem to mine.

My little half sister looked up from her dolls and ran to me smiling. “Min-ie come play please.” She beamed as she grabbed my hand.

Her long blond curls were in two ponytails and her big blue eyes looked stunning under the room light.

She was so beautiful, just like our mother. She was going to be the popular girl the girl who had guys calling the house at all hours of the night, the girl who was even more beautiful than the head cheerleader.

She was going to be Kate. Just like mom was.

“I can’t right now.” I told her.

“Please no one play with me only you.” She cried.

For a two year old she could talk really good. Grandma had said it must have been because she was surrounded by so many older people or then again she said I was just like my little sister and I didn’t have anyone around me like she did.

“Amanda, why don’t you leave your sister alone?” My step father said as she began to frown at his words. “So how was school Minnie?” He then asked looking right at me with those green eyes of his.

I smiled at him and walked off to the kitchen. I didn’t want to talk to him. He married my mother not me.

“Mom what are we having today?” I asked walking into the kitchen.

She was moving a mile a minute which was weird to watch. I had to admit that to myself.

I still remember when she was months pregnant with Amanda-something that I wasn’t too crazy about- how she was able to move as if she wasn’t walking for two people had really amazed me.

When she was pregnant I couldn’t even look at her at time, for every time I looked at her this angry feeling came over me.

I pushed the memory passed me and frowned. I had kind of gotten over it, but there were still times that I looked at her and wondered if she would love Amanda me then me or my brother.

She was after all her child with the guy she loves the guy who did right by her unlike my father.

“Oh my famous hamburgers and fries you are going to love it as always.” She said still not looking up at me. “Sweetie I don’t want you going out late anymore, thier have been a few missing people lately and I want you to be safer. So we need to talk about your curfew.”

“But mom….”

When her eyes meant my face she frowned and said my real name.

I knew that whenever she used my real name that she was either mad or she knew something was wrong with me.

I knew she knew that I was upset about more than just the curfew thing.

“What happened?” She asked using her parental voice.

I shook my head at her and left the kitchen.

“We’ll talk about this later.” She called after me saying my name.

I knew that later would never come for I didn’t feel like talking to her today or ever about this. I just wanted to go to my bedroom and never leave it. I didn’t want to leave the world of my room. I was tired of having to listen to what others told me to do and not standing up for myself.

I am just so tired of it.

It was more than that. I hated myself for never standing up for myself and always allowing others to tell me what to do and never doing what I wanted to do. I would always hate my life. I knew this now. I was never going to be happy.

“Minnie, mom said you still have to take out the dog for a walk.” I heard my brother voice as I was pulled from my thoughts. I turned to look at him and saw that his blue eyes were being covered by his blond hair. Man he looked so much like our father, that it was as if he could be his twin.

I rolled my eyes at him. I had been in my room for less than five seconds.

“It’s your turn.” He soon said. He must have noticed I wasn’t getting up.

I rolled my eyes at him again and he just laughed.

I got out of my bed and watched my younger brother leave my room. That was smart, he knew that I would hurt him if he was still there by the time my feet hit the floor.

My eyes felt heavy for some odd reason. I wasn’t too sure. Even my legs seemed heavy and I don’t know why.

I didn’t want to leave for some reason. It felt like my body didn’t want me to get up out of this bed. I felt weak and tried. I honestly didn’t know why I felt like this.

Like if I got out of this bed I would always wished I hadn’t.

I looked over at my door and sighed. I knew I had to hurry up or my mom would be up here and she would be asking why I wasn’t down yet and try to see what was wrong with me.

I went down the stairs and frowned when I saw that my mom was still in the kitchen. She must have heard me come down for I heard her say.

“I don’t know why you went up stairs when I just told you I don’t want you out to late.”

She said then shook her head. “And by the time you come back dinner is going to be ready and I’ll like it very much if you join us.” Her eyes never left the bowl that was in front of her.

She must have been making her sauce that she put on the hamburgers.

I walked out to the living room and called for my dog who was sitting right by my step father.

When I called her name she came to me or rather the dog came running at me its beautiful white long hair flying behind her. She was a big dog with a lot of energy.

“Don’t be gone to long, Minnie.” My step father voice was soft. He looked at me and I just shook my head.

I didn’t have to listen to him. He wasn’t my dad any ways. I hadn’t had a dad in years!

I don’t even remember having a dad and I didn’t need one at that. Not now not ever!

I looked back at my dog and smiled. That little action made her try to jump on me but I just moved and laughed.

“Come on girl.”

“No.” I heard Amanda call and she pulled on at my hand. She showed me her shoes and she smiled when I picked her up. “Me, too.” She said smiling.

“Next time, ok.” I kissed her head and set her down.

She was about to cry until she heard my brother call her to come play with him. She smiled at me and then ran to go play with my brother. Amanda could be easily distracted.

Me and my dog walked out of the door or rather she ran out of the door. I followed after her. She knew were to go: The Park. We had been going to the park that was across the street for a very long time.

The morning sunlight casted rays of sun shine against my eyes and hair. I had to put my hair behind my ear so the wind wouldn’t catch it.

“Stay close Maxie.” I called to her when she begun to ran off a little.

She looked back at me stopping for a few moments only to run some more when I got a little closer. I went to sit down on a bench that was near the path.

I sighed to myself when I realized I forgot to bring my book with me. I looked at my dog and saw that Maxie was running around on the grass.

I sighed.

There were times I hated this place. Hated it so much that I wished my father was still in my life. That he had never left me and my brother. That when he and my mom divorced he didn’t just move on and get remarried.

I stared out in space beginning the day dream I ways had when I thought of him. My father driving up to my new house, telling my mother sorry to forgive him and take him back, her saying yes, that she never stopped loving him and us all leaving this place and being happy.

I smiled at the thought.

“You look really happy?” Someone said to me in amused tone.

My eyes looked up and I saw a boy who looked to be at least nineteen years old looking down at me. His caramel colored hair was following over his stormy blue eyes. He was really handsome too handsome honestly. I had never seen a boy that made me want to faint just at the sight of him.

Not even Jake made me want to do that.

He sent down by me smirking at me briefly.

His eyes peek down in front of me and I blinked at him not understanding why he was so close to me. He moved his arm so that it was on the bench it was almost wrapped around my shoulders. I looked up at him and noticed he was tall way taller than me, which wasn’t really hard for one to say they weren’t.

He must have known I was still checking him out because his beautiful full lips went back in to this smirk and his pale skin glowed under the sky light.

I didn’t care that he knew I was checking him out. It wasn’t like I knew him or he knew me. I was never going to see him again, besides I’m sure he was used to people checking him out.

He was very nice looking. I just could not get the out of my mind and honestly I was surprise that he was talking to me. Guys like him would never talk to girls like me, no never in real life no only in my dreams.

When I didn’t say anything he continued. “Why are you out here so late?”

“I’m walking my dog.”

“Really.” He said and looked over to my dog that was running over in the grass still.

“That must be nice.”

“I guess.” I said not knowing how that could be nice.

He soon began to move even closer to me. I didn’t like this. I didn’t know him and I knew I was right across from my house and my dog was standing less than four feet from me but what if he tried something, not that it looked like someone with his looks needed to do something like that to get with someone, but you never knew.

“So what tell me where do you go to school?”

I looked over at him and he smiled this beautiful smile that could light a room right at me, I almost lost my train of thought.

“Why do you want to know where I go to school?” I questioned. I didn’t really like sitting by this guy with no one around but my dog who seemed more into the grass then me.

His said my name so softly like he wanted me to listen to him, but all I could do was freeze. How did he know my name, I wasn’t even to sure if the people at my school still remembered my name. It was like it had been forgotten after I started being friends with Kate.

“How do you know my name?” I asked getting ready to call Maxie over to go.

A smirk went across his lips as he leaned in closer to me. “My Diamond in the rough, I’ll tell you later.”

He was very close to me, to close really. He was inches from my lips and it was like I was under some kind of spell. I couldn’t back away from his lips. I kind of didn’t even want to.

Right before his lips seemed like they were going to come down on mine, I heard Maxie bark and I turned to see that she was right in front of me.

She licked my hand and I smiled down at her.

“Ok girl.” I told her knowing she was ready to go. “I need to go.” I begun to tell him and looked back at him, but he was gone.

I stared around me and couldn’t see him. I looked back down at Maxie seeing that she looked just as confused as I felt.

Smiling at her we got up and walked back to my house. I didn’t know who the boy was, but for some odd reason I got the feeling that I was going to find out soon.

I and Maxie went back home and what my mom had said was true: Dinner was ready.
D
inner was different. It was quite something I wasn’t used to this. I didn’t understand why no one was talking around the dinner table. Or maybe they are talking and I am just not listening. I do have my eyes closed and I am thinking about my other life: The life where I am perfect.

I see my beautifully face, my long legs and real friends. I am the new Kate in this life. I kind see everyone watching me, listening to me. I am popular….I am beautiful….I am the one everyone wants to be.

Then I see his face and I jump a little.

“Minnie you’re not hunger?” My mom voice pulls me from my day dream.

I open my eyes and look at her.

“Not really, I just want to go to sleep.” I tell her and began to get up, before she even can open her mouth to protest I catch my step father kissing her cheek out the corner of my eyes for once I was happy that he was here.

I went to my room and opened the door. I still was not used to the new room. I had been here almost for months and yet in still I don’t feel like this is my home that this is my room.

As I walk over to my bed I slipped on the wooden floor. I rolled my eyes as I took off my socks. I got up and jumped on my bed.

I look out of the window and frowned as I looked in the drive way. No car for me.

Closing my eyes I dream of a better place than this. The place I had left off at the dinner table.

Maybe that guy would be in my dreams again. Yeah he was weird and all but he was still nice to look at and maybe he…..


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