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Thursday Evening

By: selfglorifyingone
folder Romance › General
Rating: Adult +
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The next week

AN~ Back to the first person's thoughts. Chapter 1 guy.

Reviews that offer constructive criticism are encouraged.

Still just writing this to be different.

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On Friday, I woke up and remembered. I remembered that I hadn’t told him. I was not brave enough. I couldn’t say those words.

I hate my job. Both of them. Too much social interaction, always too much social interaction. But Friday was a bad day. The only reason I went in was for the money. And that would go pay my bills. And to him, and that is why I go.

The week slips slowly by. I’m still waiting for Thursday. Maybe this time, I’ll be brave enough to ask him a question about himself. Maybe where he was born, or how he got into this field. Or maybe simply his name. I don’t know his name. And… I’ll tell him. I have to. I don’t think I can stand this torture anymore.

I’m driving, now. Weird. He is not here yet. Must be late. Or I’m early. Should I just park here until I see him?

I wonder if I skipped a day, but I check the calendar on my cell phone. No, it’s Thursday. And the numbers are glowing 12:55, now. He’s late.

My stomach clenches as I realize that he could be hurt, or sick. Or maybe… he’s just late.

I’ll stay here a bit longer; he could still show up.

5 AM, and I still don’t see him.

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I went to my pimp on Friday and I told him that I wanted out. I don’t know why he was so lenient with me. I just had to work the weekend. Maybe he thinks I’ll be back. I guess that he’s seen what’s happening to me now. Maybe he's seen it happen before, and he knows that, eventually, I’ll come crawling back to him because I need the money. Or that my John will hurt me in some way. But I'm not going to let that happen. I won't let my pimp get the last laugh.

I took a long shower on Monday. I think I was trying to cleanse myself physically of all that has happened in the past two years. But what I’ve done, doesn’t come off in the shower.

I still feel unclean. Unfit for regular society. A part of me wanted to go to talk to my John. To tell him what I’d done. How I’d gotten there, why I’d stayed. But, I knew that I couldn’t. I couldn’t depend on him. He might be hiding something. Or I might have meant nothing.

But he had said that I was worth it.

I could go, tonight, the same corner as always, at the same time, and wait for him. Proceed as if nothing had happened. But, I would tell him too much, and I’d be forced back to it, if he proved himself human.

So, I can’t. I can’t have that much faith. Instead, I force myself to sit at home and watch TV.
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