If Red could help

By Jarvis de Var

Disclaimer: If you are not 18 or the legal age in the state or country you
live in to read them then please leave now. This is a story about a gay boy
or boys, if this is not what you want to read then please leave now. Ps this
story is totally fictional all resemblance is accidental.

If Red could help
Part 3

I get in searching for Sophie . I find her near the back in the shadow I wave at her sitting away but in sight. I look all around seeing that was a lot of tourists but I see some know face. The evening was quiet and the music had lot of punch! It was cheap for Sophie I drank 2 beers and a coffees. I Walk the two of them home, we chat on our way and had fun. When I get home, in my room first ting I pull the cup off relief. I remove my leather jacket, my shirt and finally my forearm guard, the foam it not cold either. Off the pant shin guard and the jock strap. I am free at last. The house is dark and peaceful I am ready for a kitchen raid. I finish my lunch at 02:45 then suddenly the over light it on. Shit! My father catch me nude in the kitchen.

-Red ‘’Hi dad sorry, I was alone.’’
-Dad ‘’A little late no?’’
-Red ‘’On the weekend and all my work is done’’ I smile at him ‘’We have a contract about it.’’
-Dad ‘’Yes I know, sometime I could wish that you acted as your biological age son.’’

He take a juice say goodnight and get up. I get to my room shower and sleep. What that how to pull my arm out his socket. Fuck Mike! I look at the clock 07:13 a short night. We ate and go to the park to play ball, my brothers love it by chance I love them. At 14:00 I been free by Tom how walk in the park. At first I freak a little but see that he was really alone I relax.

-Ton ‘’Hi Red, your Dad send me here’’

Mike and Andrew rush on Tom dragging him to the ground in a big and tight hug. They fell laughing and he have to answer a 100 questions, hearing theses questions I learn that they new lot more that I assume they know. Looking at them I feel less detach then a few minutes before. It is frustrating. After around 10 minutes I send the little one away and sit on a bench with Tom.

-Red ‘’How are the tings now?’’
-Tom ‘’ It not the heaven but it better, my parent try to come with the fact that they see noting of it and Seth and I to the fact that we are free.’’ Looking with tears in his eyes.
-Red ‘’Don’t be a big smooth about it’’ Look how speak. ‘’be happy the ass is out and you all could heal now you have a big job in front of you’’
-Tom ‘’Yes we will go in family therapy, I am a little afraid of it.’’ Smiling at me ‘’But definitely less afraid of it than the situation that I was in’’
-Red ‘’Do you want to come home with me?’’
-Tom ‘’yep’’

I have to do some work in my head! And the guy do not need a punk how try to jump in his pant. I am attract to Tom. The problem it not my attraction it that I don’t see myself as a gay person. I know that I am gay, I do not think less of gay but I could not bring to think of myself as gay or to be gay style of person. It fucking weird. Don’t feel like it.

-Tom ‘’Hey Red are you with me?’
-Red ‘’ It ok I only space out a bit.’’ smiling at Tom
-Red ‘’ Then what do you want to do Tom?’’
-Tom ‘’ Do you want to come whit me at my home to eat?’’
-Red ‘’ Sorry I promised to Sophie out tonight.’’ big fat lie.
-Tom ‘’ So you can eat and leave after.’’
-Red ‘’ Your on the south shore it take some time to come back here. Sorry we can do it later on?’’
-Tom ‘’ Ok then call me to give me the time frame.’’ he said looking a little sad.
-Red ‘’ Ok let me know when your parent will not be home? And we can have lunch at that time.’’
-Tom ‘’ Ho! You don’t want to meet them?’’
-Red ‘’ I don’t want to be interrogate, sorry about that but I hope you to understand it.’’

He seen to be ok whit it. He left about 16:30 and I get in my room to change clothing. I put some Offspring pretty loud and meditate for an hour. After that I feel mostly as myself, getting down to eat with the family unit and leaving to my hanging place whit only my forearm guard and the Cobra. I was in the Hole early the music was quiet and I was a little gloomy I take place in the back I sing the waitress asking for a beer when she came back I pay and tip her. I can fuck whit girls I have done it with some friends of mine that are girls, bur these friend are only friend the feeling do not go further. I never have act whit a boy, but I feel a lot for them. Whit Tom I don’t have the right to intervene in his state of mind. His brother, if we call him that, have already fuck whit his mind enough. Most important I can not to see myself acting gay, my feeling are gay not my act, I am so fuck. Ok do I want to go home and tell the rent that I am gay? The answer it no clear and square. Do I want to risk friendship for a fuck? The answer it no. Do I want to hurt the little ones? The answer it no. It clear I do not want to act on those feeling. Then forget it for now, you do not get any good from those feelings in the actual status. What time it is now almost 00:00H. I have drink 4 beers oops! I will go to ate some lunch before enter home. I get in Miss Québec and order a poutine, poutine it is fry with cheese and a kind of bbq sauce, it on the main street. I look at the prostitutes and drug dealer on the corner. It is strange seeing that urban fauna, it always fascinate me. They seem so alive and so fake in the same time. It very strange. Ok time to go home.

Sunday morning, no alarm clock it Mike clock. He wake me up trying to drag me out of my bed, he look pretty excited. I try to have some explanation, but nada I put my jean on and get down. That bad that, really bad, there is a guy around 40 in the kitchen sitting at the table whit both my parents. I took a back step but Mike still walk in the kitchen. I hears the commandant.

-Mother ‘’Reginald, walk in.’’
-Red ‘’I what up?’’
-Mother ‘’ Meet Mr Alain Neuville Thomas father.’’ she said smiling at me.
-Alain ‘’ Hi Reginald you don’t look very happy to see me?’’
-Red ‘’ I am not happy or unhappy to see you I don’t know you.’’ under my breath ‘’ and I don’t want to know you.’’
-Mother ‘’ What?’’
-Red ‘’ Noting, it before my coffee.’’
-Dad ‘’ NO motive to been rude Reg.’’
-Alain ‘’ It ok I was unannounced and if I was Red would have find a way to be else were.’’
-Red ‘’ Could we talk out Mr?’’
-Mother ‘’This not a way to talk to.’’
-Alain ‘’ Excuse me if you allow it I will talk out there.’’
-Mother ‘’ If you want to but it don’t excuse him for his lack of manner.’’

We when in the backyard, he look at me interrogative.

-Alain ‘’ Red how old are you?’’
-Red ‘’ Will be 15 in 2 weeks.’’
-Alain ‘’ Your taller than me, I am not here to cause any problem to you, I am here to thank you and to ask you if you can come to see Tomas and Seth. Tomas have been more than unhappy by your answer yesterday.’’
-Red ‘’ I am not a good person to hang around with Tom, look at me I have lot of piercing and will have tattoos soon.’’
-Alain ‘’ I don’t really care I have talk whit your parents for around 1 ½ hours, you are good to your brothers they love you, your very good at school your mom told me.’’
-Red ‘’ Cut it, ok it something else, I have to manage with it by myself. I will call when it will be ok for me to go visit.’’
-Alain ‘’ Red your mother tell me she think that your gay.’’

I feel betrayed and humiliate. Felling very tense I turn my back to Alain getting into my room not answering to both my parents. They try to follow me, I lock my door. I heard them talk, I dress almost in full battle gear. I jump from my window on the lawn without hurting myself, when to the shed to pick the rest of my battle gear. I did it all in a kind of haze, I was in emotional shock I need a refuge, I need peace. I find myself in front of the Hole. Beginning to phone around searching for a bed. At the third call I find a place in a loft whit Alex and his girl, he is a good friend looking a bit like Jimmy Rotten of the Sex Pistols. He work as a barman. When I arrive in the loft he try to speak to me I was to num to answer. After few minute he let me be. My mother new, how? and how she could tell to a stranger without my consent? Did she tell my brothers? I have to calm my mind there is a storm in my mind. Control your breathing, relax your jaw, shoulder. When I woke up it was dark outside, on my watch it is 23:25H. My personal life is fuck up for the moment I really don’t want to speak to my parents I am not ready and I don’t know if I could be ready for that. I call for a pizza, looking in the loft I feel relived, alone. How could she know? It must be my father he work for your provider as network techs. He should had read my connection log we have fix ip. Fuck I should have use the modem connection. Dam stupid ass. She could not have keep her big mouth shut, and with Tom father. Fuck fuck fuck. I will not go home for some time I don’t feel life it. I will go to school I don’t want to fuck my exam. Fuck I hate the situation, I really hate it. After I ate the pizza I practice my Aiki to keep my emotion in control. Shower and sleep again. In the morning I found Alex and his girl asleep I left the loft taking the bus to my school. I probably scold more than usual but until lunch it when smooth. At lunch I see my dad in the cafeteria, I step back and hear him calling for me, I did not stop but he run after me. Grabbing me by the arm.

-Red ‘’Let go my arm I don’t want to hurt you!’’
-Father ‘’Reginald wait.’’ letting my arm go ‘’We are sorry, it was no intend to embarrass you in any way.’’
-Red ‘’Yes sure by telling to a stranger something that I could not say to you, it really not embarrassing at all.’’
-Father ‘’I said that we are sorry.’’
-Red ‘’I really not in the mood to see you both, if you force me to go home I will quit again and this time fuck my exams.’’ Looking at him sadly ‘’I wish that don’t I have to talk to you like that, for now leave me some breathing space.’’

After saying that I leave him there listening if he follow. He did not follow me I finish my day feeling more than alone, abandon by the person I trust the most, it hurting so much. My brothers must be worry sick about me, I have to talk to them. I finish my day at school without further problems. I take out some money with my bank card. Eat at the restaurant and pick up a public phone.

-Mother ‘’Hi. ‘’
-Red ‘’Could I speak to Mike.’’
-Mother ‘’Reginald I am so sorry could we speak about it.’’
-Red ‘’Later if I can not speak to my brothers I will hang up.’’
-Mother ‘’Your tough on me Reg.’’ I heard her calling ‘’Mike, Andrew phone.’’
-Mike ‘’I is you Reginald?’’
-Red ‘’Yup, are you ok?’’
-Mike ‘’Yes we are, but why are you mad at Mom.’’
-Red ‘’I am not mad I have to sort some thinking to do and need to be really alone, it not about you in any way ok say it to Andrew. It not about the rents ok, love you both.”

I hang up and leave to the loft Alex ask me if I have problem home I just answer kind of but no cop. He said cool how much time do you need? Around a week if you are ok with it? No prob was his answer. I did my week of exams but not with full concentration, I hope that I did not fuck up for the next year. I almost pick a fight with my gym teacher, he use to peeve me about my look, earrings, eyebrow ring, all those fag look he said. I said to him that if he want his ass kick by a kid with a fag look just come and get it. I have to go to the principal office and get a slap on the hand, sob, I accuse the teacher of making prejudice comment. It was a draw, what new he his an ass in power position. At the end of the week I feel very lonely. I feel it in my bones, but I could not forgive my mother and I could not stay away much longer for myself and for them even the big mouth. How come back without loosing the face? Forbidding to your parents seen weird even to me. Take my place and my right it ok but it as far I could go on them. I will wait around 23:00H to be alone with them without my brothers. I have been waiting nervously to meet them. I was at the door at 22:45H and I wait for the right time when suddenly the door open and my father pull me inside hugging me. I have to breathe deep to keep my cool. For now emotions are not useful, keep it cool, deep breath.

-Red ‘’Hi dad I am here to speak do you mind?’’
-Father ‘’Stop talking non sense get in.’’
-Red ‘’We have to go in the family room sir, we really have to talk.’’
-Father ‘’Get in we will talk.’’ He have tears in his eyes.
-Mother ‘’Reginald how are you? Are you ok.’’ She look agitated.
-Red ‘’First I have to told you how I have feeling last week when Tom father said that you are thinking that I was gay. When I heard those words I feel betrayed, humiliated, abandon, sever from the family. Left without the safe heaven of the family unit cut out from my brother. How could you talk to him about that without talking to me? How do you think I receive that. As a bullet in my stomach.’’ I look at her.
-Mother ‘’It come on when he spoke about the consequence of Tom and Seth experience when we talk about the possibility of one or both of them benign gay it slip.’’
-Red ‘’I read a lot about it your or your not gay or bi or straight. This not a choice if it was a choice be sure that I had chose to be straight it simplest and easier. Be sure of that. I could not completely forgive you mother sorry. I feel the scarring on my soul.’’
-Father ‘’Remember that your mother you are speaking to’’
-Red ‘’Yes I remember it is the raison why I try to forgive’’

Suddenly my mother start to cry and leave the family room. Father try to convinced me to speak to her, I ask him if he want me to lie to her if he ask for it I will do it. He look at me sadly and raise up.

-Red ‘’Dad stop do you want me to leave you just have to ask and I am out of here. I will not like it but I will do it.”
-Father ‘’Reginald I don’t want you to leave but you have hurt your mother deeply.’’
-Red ‘’Not out of my will.’’ I feel sweat on my forehead and when I get up my head spin.
-Father ‘’How are you? Your very pale.’’
-Red ‘’Only the stress I am ok.’’

I get in my room lock the door and fall on my bed like a rock and sleep even in full battle gear. I wake up at 09:30H in the house it was quiet, quieter than usual on Saturday morning. No TV no playing noise where are my brothers. I undress take a shower, dress on my way out I see there is a new lock on my door. I enter the kitchen the rents are there they try to cheer me up I answer politely but was not in the mood. When the breakfast was finish I get out looking for my brothers. I find them in the backyard talking quietly, they see me and rush on my lap.

-Mike ‘’Your still mad at us?’’
-Red ‘’No I am not mad at all only very sad.’’ I answer softly.
-Andrew ‘’I said it to you he could stay mad that long.’’
-Mike ‘’So you have handle your situation?’’ looking at me.
-Red ‘’Your are speaking about what?’’ Tensing up. Mike must have sense it because he grab me with all his strength.
-Mike ‘’Don’t go, I don’t know what it his I heard dad talking to mom saying that you must manage your situation.’’
-Andrew ‘’What did he speak about?’’
-Red ‘’Something that I really don’t want to talk about now, it the reason that I am very sad it not because of you or the parents ok. I will not be very fun to be with for sometime be sure that it not your fault and even if I don’t smile a lot I enjoy you both.’’ I said to them smiling a bit.

I leave them there and go in my room. Putting my headphone on I crank up the Sex Pistol and Offspring to relax and think. I lose track of time when I open my eyes my mother was in the door frame looking at me. I close my own eyes and when I open them up the door was shut again. What can I do? I don’t fond in myself to forgive her and it make me sad as hell. Dad ask if I want lunch I answer that I am not hungry. Around supper dad came in and ask me if Alain could come to see me? I said no. I really don’t want to see him. It not his fault but he was the one how break it on me. Few minutes later he ask me if I want to speak to him on the phone? I only said NO. He left the room shaking his head. I hate it when he do that, to me it more effective than a speech. Ok the guy was ok to me he don’t make any offensive comment about the fact that he think of me as a gay person. To be true I have not let him the time to be offensive any way. I seem to be ok but he is the one how break it up on me. Bad luck. I don’t want to meet him because I don’t want to be around Tom. I don’t want to be around Tom because I don’t want to hurt him. If I break it to Tom I don’t to worry about hurting him. But he can reject me. God I hate that. I will wait tomorrow to call. They call me to eat. I answer that I not hungry and it was true. At 20:00H I when to the park to run, I run till I was completely burn out. I walk back home getting in 20:45H, shower and bed. I have to argue a little with my mother how want to force feed me. I hope that tomorrow will be a good day.



If Red could help
Part 4

I wake up without my brother again, on the weekend it abnormal to me. I get down to find both my parent in the kitchen. They smile at me and ask if I had a good night. I almost smile back and said yes.

-Mother ‘’Are you hungry?’’
-Red ‘’Yes’’ I sigh.
-Father ‘’Reginald your so unhappy, try to come over it.’’
-Red ‘’I try.’’ I could not say that it was out to soon and to fast for me.
-Mother ‘’If we don’t stop talking about it. It will not go away.’’ She say smiling, putting on a brave face.

I ate, they both make all the talking. I go to the family room to phone to Alain and Tom. Mike and Andrew were looking carton on tv.

-Red ‘’Hi it Red.’’
-Tom ‘’Hi how are you? Dad was worried about you. He forbid us to call you. Why?’’
-Red ‘’Can I speak to your dad I will have to speak to you after ok?’’
-Tom ‘’Why don’t you speak to me now.’’ It was a hind of panic in his voice.
-Red ‘’It ok Tom I will speak to you in few minutes.’’
-Alain ‘’Your ok Red?’’
-Red ‘’Yes, you know why I call you?’’
-Alain ‘’Not really, I am sorry I did not know that it was unknown to all.’’
-Red ‘’It not your fault, I don’t have the right to blame it on you.’’
-Alain ‘’How it his with your parent? They really don’t intend.’’
-Red ‘’Sorry I will not discuss it with you, it between us, I could say that is tough.’’
-Alain ‘’Ok it not of my business, your not a easy one to deal with, why do you call?’’
-Red ‘’I will break the new to Tom, I want you to stay around. In case he take it hard, ok.’’
-Alain ‘’It ok with me break it smooth to him.’’
-Tom ‘’What the problem Red?’’
-Red ‘’Ok Tom, it difficult for me to said it, I hope that you will not mind and think to badly about me? Thomas I am gay.’’
-Red ‘’Tom Hello’’ Fuck the line stay silent, after around 10 seconds I hand up.

Mike look at me interrogative climbing on me.

-Mike ‘’Red are you a fag?’’
-Red ‘’Yes! Mike does it change ting between us?’’
-Andrew ‘’Mom come’’
-Mike ‘’No it change noting, it was the ting that you have to think about?’’
-Mother ‘’Yes Andrew.’’
-Andrew ‘’Is it true that Reg is f… gay?’’
-Mother ‘’It is possible he is not sure’’
-Red interrupting her ‘’I am sure, I am gay but I am not a fairy to heavy for that.’’ Smiling to him.
-Andrew climbing on my lap ‘’It ok.’’
-Mother looking at me ‘’Why are you.’’
-Red ‘’They have heard me talking on the phone.’’ I look at her half smiling.
-Mother ‘’Be good all of you we go to the mall.’’

We stay on the room looking at the tube for an hour. I leave the little one there getting in my room. I feel very sad, Tom reaction it deceive me. I don’t want really to have sex with him but I want his friendship. It ok I am not so lonely I have my family unit and my gang. I feel to listen Berurier Noir. I crank up the volume reading a physical book for the next term. I boot on my machine to take some notes. Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder, I jump from the surprise. I have not heard or see any ting. It Mike smiling.

-Mike ‘’We are hungry and you have a phone call.’’
-Red ‘’Ok close the CD I come down right now.’’

I close the Word and the machine. On the phone it Pat Tattoo a friend, he is a tattoo artist. I new that some of my friends gather fund to pay for my first tattoo.

-Red ‘’Hi Pat how are you?’’
-Pat ‘’Ok. Hang over but ok, are you ready for your tat? Do you have your drawing?’’
-Red ‘’Both answers his yes, how about 14:00H your place do I need salve and what kind?’’
-Pat ‘’Any Poly*** shit will do my machine is clean and I use needles only one time after that I trash them.’’
-Red ‘’Ok I will be there.’’

For lunch I make hamburgers and fry we ate and after get in my room to print the drawing that I want. It is a dragon that will cover all my right shoulder from the point of my shoulder to my elbow, from the middle of my biceps to the middle of my triceps. It a big tattoo I will speak to my father first. I speak to my father first he seem not to happy about it, ask me lot of time if I was sure that I want it. He could not speak a lot against it he have a lot of tattoo himself. He even have a big FTW on his back. Finally he said ok if your mother said ok. When I begin to speak to her said.

-Mother ‘’Not an other piercing!’’
-Red ‘’No just a small tattoo on my shoulder, my friends pay it to; me.’’
-Mother ‘’A tattoo humm, are you sure?’’
-Red ‘’Positive.’’
-Mother ‘’There is no come back.’’
-Red ‘’Wrong, there his the laser to remove it.’’
-Mother ‘’What do you want as a tattoo?’’
-Red ‘’A dragon.’’
-Mother ‘’I should have know, a Japanese dragon?’’
-Red ‘’What else.’’
-Mother ‘’Thank for asking, it ok.”
-Red “Thank you.’’ I smile “I have to go, probably be here for supper. Bye”

I when to a drugstore to buy the salve. On my to express the dragon on me. Where Pat live it almost a shed the only thing that is clean and in good condition it his tattoo stuff. We speak a bit he look at the drawing and ask me if I was sure about the colour of the dragon? I said yes I want that purple and green dragon, the design and colour are traditional of the Ashikaga period. He took the drawing and adjust on my arm. At the tatooing was uncomfortable after half hour it was numbs. I almost fell asleep it took 5 hours to complete. I was surprise by the amount of blood on my arm. He put the salve on and cover it with a dressing. My upper arm feel stiff a bit. I when home late it was 19:35H. I was received by my mother how ask to see it. I said later I got a dressing on and I am hungry. After the supper all 4 of them want to see it. I Have to go in the bathroom with my father to wet the dressing and peel it off gently. First reaction of my father was whispering.

-Father “Good job.”
-Red “How do you like the colours.”
-Father “Nice.”

From outside

-Mother “What do you said.”
-Father looking at me “Not so bad but it big.” Making gesture to me to shut it up.

The door open suddenly.

-Mother “Yes it bigger than you have said Reginald.”
-Red “For me it is smaller than a back.” I said smiling at her.
-Mother “You have to wear long sleeve to go to school, your in the same as your father now. In your public life you have to think about that tattoo now.”
-Red thinking that I have worse to think about in my public life “It not the first I have to care you know it. I will do it as usual.”
-Mother “I hope so” smiling at me, touching my shoulder.”
-Mike “Can we get in?”
-Father “Yes and keep your hand off the tattoo, it fresh and can be infected.”

They look, Andrew was interested period but Mike look in awe he almost touch it before my father catch his hand.

-Father “You have to wash your hand if you want to touch it and you have to ask first.”

He wash his hand .

-Mike “Dad can I touch it.”
-Father “I don’t know.” he smile at me “It not my arm.”
-Mike making a face to dad “Reg can I touch it? It so nice. The colour are soft and the dragon his fierce in same time. ”

When he see some blood smearing the skin he look worried, I said to him.

-Red “Ok Mike take the salve and apply it to the tat.”
-Mother “It not a tat it is a tattoo Reginald.”
-Red smiling “I new it.”

The end of the evening was quiet. Mom as make the dressing on my arm. We all when in the family room to relax a bit. At 22:30H I wish them goodnight catching a hug passing by my mother. I know her indiscretion but the idea that it was a mistake was include in the feeling that I got from it. Around 23:00H Mike and Andrew come in to hug and wish me goodnight. The day was good to me, I hope that Tom will be ok. Desire his pain, relax he is ok whit his family, he and his brother are safe now. I am happy for them and I did not act to be reward. I have been acting to correct a situation that his unjust and dangerous all three brothers. Ernest would have build a more worst karma. It was good to him to be stop like that. In that I have been an instrument, I don’t have to put pressure on any one. No one own an other soul. Soul can travel together you can show the middle way you can not impose it. I relax quietly drifting into sleep.

Monday morning last day of school for me, I have to go to pick up my stuff. I dress to impress, black jean, leather jacket, Circle or jerk T-shirt, black boots, chains all my rings and my hair freshly spike. Looking in the mirror I said to myself vanity all vanity but fun any way. I smile at my reflection after that I scold a bit to see the result. Looking unfriendly enough, good to me. I get with the family unit we talk and ate I let the little one at their school and go to mine. Not a lot of students at school today, first I get to see most of my teacher to wish them good vacation. I did not bother to see those teachers that I did not like. I really hate control freak and I let them know for sure. When I see my history teacher we speak for more than one hour he and I love history. He gave me some title of book and wish me good vacation, we shake hand.

-Teacher (Louis) “Red you could make history of the punk movement from the beginning to now could be a good project or the history of the building influence to structure the punk movement.”
-Red “Do you listen to what you said? Structure in punk movement?”
-Louis “Yes the move that was take to be sure to not any having structure. Then it not all punk movement that are anarchist.”
-Red “I see your point I could work that.”
-Louis “I you do that we will manage to give you grade on it. I will like to see that.”

I get to my locker and empty it. I have 2 full bag of books, knowledge can be heavy. On my way out I notice a small guy having trouble with 3 larger guys. Did I want to have problem on my last day of school?

-Red “Hey! Shut the fuck up.” I shout at the big guys. In fact they are smaller than me, as I said I am rather large guy and on the top of it I have a reputation.
-Big guy 1 “It that fag how complain for noting.”
-Red the guy have make a big one “Humm as I know of there is only one fag here.” I raise my hand in his direction. He try to move out of my way and I feel a hand on my wrist.

I twist the arm that go whit the hand, kicking the guy in front of me. Number 3 leave the fight, he is a really brave and a good friend leaving his buds alone whit me. The guy how I twisted the arm scream when I dislocate his wrist. Good vacation dude. As I look back the small guy was kicking number 1 in the nuts.

-Red “Hey leave his balls alone he can have use for it.”
-Small “Ok sorry, can I leave.”
-Red “Have you finish your exam?”
-Small “Yes. I have to take my stuff from my locker when those dickhead catch me.”
-Red “What they want from you?”
-Small “They have been on my case all the year, they call I fun time.”

I when with the small guy how name his Peter. We speak walking to his locker. He took his stuff and we part in the school yard. I drag my bags home, mom seeing me with those ask when I will make a sale of used books. I answer her that I am a collector.

-Red “Did I have to be home for supper?”
-Mother “Yes, don’t dare leaving, it your birthday today and your know it.”
-Red “Ok I will be in my room.”

I take the stuff for my lunch with me. I have to tidy the books I bring back. I sit in front of the machine booting it on. Music first then I surf the net searching for stuff on the origin of the punk movement. I was surprise there is lot of info on the punk movement. Soon I pile up more than 300 pages. I have select files and sorting the pages. I look in the lower right corner of my screen is 18:35H fuck I space out again. I close the music I can hear some noise from the first floor. Opening my door.

-Red Loud “I will go down to take a coffee.”

In one instant Mike and Andrew where with me on the top of the stair.

-Mike “Red do you want a coffee?”
-Red “Yep.”
-Andrew “I will get it.”
-Red “Thank you Drew.” Mike follow me in my room sitting on my bed.
-Mike “You will not be mad today?” Looking worried.
-Red “What the problem Mike?”
-Andrew “Red there is your coffee.” he give it to me smiling.
-Red “ Thank you Drew can you bring us some soda?”
-Andrew “Yes.” running down.
-Red “What Mike?”
-Mike “Tom father is there, last time he was there it was not good for you. It your birthday I don’t want him here if it disturb you.”
-Red “It ok he have done noting last time.” I said smiling.
-Andrew sit on the bed with 3 soda. “There it is.” giving one to each of us.
-Red “Thank you Drew.”

I drink my coffee talking with them. Few minutes later we be ask to go down. I want to know what Alain want from me?