The Promise and the Threat

Co-written with Aya


The sobs lessened after a while and Daisuike was left feeling drained. He hadn't cried like that since he was a little kid. Inexplicably he felt better though as if the tears had bled away some of the emotion he been keeping tightly bottled up inside.

Ruka was still holding him and it made Daisuike realize all over again just how wonderful the man was. Turning slightly Daisuike wiped at the tears before looking up at Ruka. His lip trembled just a bit as he smiled, his voice rough from the crying.

"Thank you Ruka . . ." He couldn't think of anything else to say and reaching up dragged Ruka down for a searing kiss his breath still hitching slightly.

Ruka sighed into the kiss tugging Suke just that much closer, wanting to be as close as possible. He wanted more and he knew how to get closer, but that could wait. Right now he just needed to have Daisuike with him and not hiding behind masks and pretending to be the strong Yakuza enforcer when in reality he was a scared teen who'd been through a horrible experience.

As he caressed Suke's waist softly, he remembered something. Daisuike liked being under him. He had seemed to always get a good feeling with being engulfed by him. He'd been with enough lovers to recognize that Daisuike enjoyed it, the way he responded so well when Ruka took charge telling him everything he needed to know.

Cupping Daisuike's face he moved to his neck nuzzling it and just breathing in the scent of his Ouji-sama.

"I love you Daisuike and I will never let anything hurt you."

Daisuike sighed his eyes drifting shut for a moment. He finally felt warm and content and most of all safe. Safe and loved. He snuggled closer to Ruka.

"I can't even tell you how much I love and need you." He looked up at Ruka his smile tinged with sadness. "I want to try again . . . with the car. I know how much you love it and-well I want to try at least. I don't like failing at things and I really feel like I failed you today."

Shifting so that he was laying mostly on Daisuike but also to his side, Ruka pulled him closer snuggling against him. It made him feel good that Daisuike wanted to try and do it even if he was scared.

"Only if you want to. I promise I won't drift. It's just- . . . I get a thrill from it. The danger, the need for perfect control and skills, it's. . . It's my release." Kissing him softly he trailed his lips to his jaw to his throat sucking softly wanting to leave his own mark on Daisuike.

"I do have one more car I need to test honestly. I bought it already but I'd like you to see it and such."

Daisuike nodded trying not to giggle as Ruka's lips tickled him. He felt odd, light even and wasn't sure why, it wasn't something he'd really felt before and wasn't sure what it meant. "That makes sense. That's kind of how I feel about what I do . . . but I won't have you go with me." He grinned up at Ruka, "I might not care for drifting, but I don't need you puking your guts out seeing some of the things I have to do. You'd be surprised at just how stupid some people can be."

Though now that he'd suffered at the wrong end of a knife he really wasn't sure he'd be able to do that to any one again. At least he usually was able to get people to do what he wanted through sheer intimidation. The past year he'd only had to resort to his knives a few times. He realized what Ruka had said and blinked at him.

"You bought two cars?"

Ruka kept his face buried against Daisuike's neck for a while as he spoke. To think that Daisuike endured what he did to people made him a little sick and he wondered how well he'd be able to do his job. Would he be able to do it better? Knowing how to inflict the same pain done to him? Or would he be worse at it knowing the pain he was putting people through?

Deciding to focus more on Suke's collarbone he grinned against the skin hearing the shocked tone to his voice about him buying two cars. Nipping once at the bone he pulled back looking almost confused.

"Yeah. One's a racer while my other is a normal car. Though I'd totally take it driving. Though if I crash that one I'd be so pissed. Why? Is buying two cars a bad thing?" He had bought 3 cars at one point in time but hadn't done that in a while. He usually just spent double the amount on one car. "Though these two are a bit more expensive than usual. I mean, the last racer I bought cost about the same as a small house, but I got some really nice stuff in it."

"Oh." It was the only thing Daisuike could think of to say, he flinched hissing as Ruka found a slightly tender spot. "Ano . . . did you want to go eat now?"

He didn't feel nearly as shaky as he had a while ago and now that they'd gotten a few issues worked out he felt much better. As though a heavy weight had been lifted from him. "I did work pretty hard on that and I'd like to see you enjoy it."

Ruka groaned then glanced up at Suke, "Really want to eat my dessert first though. . ." The whine left his throat and he couldn't help it, moving back against Suke's skin to nip at his chest trailing his hand down his chest to tease one of his nipples, scratching it lightly loving that it instantly hardened.

"Mmm, can I please have my dessert first? Or are you hungry? Cause if you are I think I can wait. . ." Though the idea of having him at this moment seemed a bit nicer than waiting. He was already getting hard and wanted both to eat and to have Suke. He briefly wondered if he could have both at the same time.

Daisuike twitched moaning as Ruka teased him sending little shocks straight to his groin. He was getting hard already, but knew they both needed something to eat, that and he was still rather exhausted, both mentally and physically. He pulled Ruka's head up to kiss him.

"That's why it's called dessert love, it's a treat and I think you deserve a treat for being so amazing and beautiful."

"Then why can't I have it now?" He pouted grinning as he pounced Daisuike against the bed, pinning him more and slowly rolling his hips against his Ouji-sama's. Shifting between his legs he smirked.

"Maybe I'll just be bad and have my dessert now, ne?" Instantly he crushed his lips against Daisuike to stop any protests. This was now a game for him and he wanted to see how long Suke could resist him.

Daisuike whined, pressing his hips up against Ruka. He could feel Ruka's erection even through their clothes sending a jolt along his spine. He wrapped his arms around Ruka's neck lightly holding him in place while his legs wrapped around slim hips pressing Ruka closer. He'd missed being able to be this affectionate with Ruka while he was in the hospital and he was dying to show him just how much he had missed him.

Ruka tried to choke back the moan that wanted to escape from his lips but failed miserably, moaning huskily against his neck. Trailing his hand down Daisuike’s chest he pressed a hand against Suke's waist to hold him in place firmly against the bed as he continued to roll his hips.

The need to make his Ouji-sama his again was driving him insane and he finally couldn't take it any longer. Reaching back he grabbed one of Daisuike's ankles unwrapping his legs and forcing his legs open as he slipped down trailing hot kisses and bites along his chest reaching his sweats quickly shoving them down to his thighs then tossing them off.

Looking over Daisuike he let out a groan. His pants were becoming unbelievably tight and it was near painful. Without taking his eyes off the beautiful man spread out under him tossed his own pants off before leaning down taking hold of Suke's already hard member. Stroking it slowly a few times he leaned closer, licking his lips locking gazes with Daisuike as he did so. With a sly grin still staring lustfully at Daisuike, he murmured softly,

"Itadakimasu. . ."

Daisuike groaned, the look in Ruka's eyes sending chills racing over his skin. The soft spoken phrase made him shudder a smile on his lips. Sometimes Ruka was just too much. He would do anything to make sure his gorgeous boyfriend was happy.

"Ruka . . ." He purred eyes half closed, "Kimi-ga hoshii."

"You'll just have to wait then, ne?" Ruka smirked chuckling as he leaned forward the rest of the way to take Suke into his mouth. The way his hips jerked and his body arched made Ruka groan which in turned made Suke do it again. Slowly stroking him as he swallowed around Daisuike he let his fingers trail back some caressing and rolling his balls lightly.

He wanted to make his lover beg for him to be taken. Though Ruka was a bit nervous about asking if he could. After the first time he was afraid he might lose control and hurt him again. That was the last thing he wanted to do, especially with Dasiuike already in enough pain. Ruka swore to never hurt Daisuike again and only to bring him pleasure and that was exactly what he was going to do.

Clutching at the sheets Daisuike let out a loud strangled moan. Ruka seemed to know exactly what to do to make him loose control. Ruka's mouth was so hot and the friction against his skin was driving him crazy. He couldn't stop his hips from coming up wanting to feel more of that incredible sensation. He was going to off way too soon just from the knowledge that it was Ruka doing this to him.

Upon hearing the moan Ruka couldn't help but pull back and chuckle. To hear his lover in such a way made his entire body tingle with electric shocks. Letting his tongue play around the tip a bit he pulled back staring at Daisuike for a moment.

Licking he lips he stared at his Ouji-sama before leaning close to his ear whispering, "I- . . .What do you want Daisuike? Do you want me to get you off? Or do you feel up to having sex?" He nipped at his ear softly wanting so much more.

"I-I don't care . . ." Daisuike panted wanting to whine. He ran his hands along Ruka's sides and up under the shirt. He simply loved the way the muscles twitched under his fingers. Ruka had the most amazing body and he couldn't get enough of it. He tugged at the shirt wanting it off. "I just want you."

Ruka bit his lip trying to stop the moan again but again he failed. Shifting back so that Suke could remove his shirt he stopped himself looking at Daisuike. If he was honest with himself he really wanted to be connected with Daisuike and that meant. . .

"Daisuike. . ." Stroking his cheek softly Ruka bit his lip some, "I want you too and I want to- . . . make love to you." He had changed his words finding the crude way of saying it unfitting for this situation. "And I swear I'll make it so it doesn't hurt, I won't lose control but if you'd rather not or would rather be on top. . . Tell me."

Daisuike's breath hitched slightly. It was so different to hear Ruka say it like that and it sent a dizzying spiral of warmth through him. He wanted it so badly, to be so intimately connected to Ruka. He'd wanted him again so badly that at times he could barely stand the thought of waiting. He looked at Ruka his eyes pleading.

"Please Ruka . . . please make love to me."

Ruka shuddered seeing the look and hearing the tone that Daisuike had Ruka knew he couldn't refuse him. Shivering he leaned over grabbing the lube and a condom from the drawer setting them next to him. Glancing at Daisuike he got an idea.

Shifting them he moved them around until they had switched spots, Daisuike now straddling his hips. Smirking he grabbed the lube pouring it on their pressed erections slowly pumping them. He wanted to give them both some pleasure before he had to start prepping him. It scared him to think he might hurt Daisuike again but he'd do what he could to ease any pain.

Gasping softly Daisuike reached down helping Ruka to stroke them together. The feel of Ruka's erection against his own coupled with those strong fingers wrapped around them was almost more than he could handle. A tremor went through him and he bit his lip to keep the moan from escaping. He was a little scared to bottom again, but he wanted it so much. He knew that Ruka would do everything he could to make it feel good. It had felt so incredible the last time; any pain had been minor in comparison. It wasn't anything like the pain he'd had inflicted on him lately and he was desperate for something to replace those thoughts.

Having to bite his lips, Ruka stared up at Daisuike through a lustfilled haze, "Lean up." Helping Daisuike basically lay forward on him, their erections trapped between them, Ruka grabbed the lube getting his fingers coated. He slid his hand along Suke’s back and down teasing his entrance for a bit until he felt he was ready and slowly nudged a finger in him. He watched Daisuike's expression, alert to make sure he wasn’t in any kind of pain. If he needed to he'd move their positions so he could prep him better but he was enjoying this position. Daisuike’s eyelids fluttered his mouth opening slightly a soft gasp escaping him as Ruka gently but firmly moved his finger around.

"Tell me if you need more pleasure to help numb the pain. . ."

Tensing for just a moment Daisuike reminded himself to relax and just breathe. It didn't really hurt, but it was uncomfortable. For the moment anyway. He slowly opened his eyes looking down at Ruka. There was something about seeing Ruka laying there and knowing that Ruka wanted to be with him that made Daisuike's chest burn slightly. He'd never thought of himself as an overly emotional person, but Ruka seemed to draw it out of him so easily. After the things Fujimaru had said and done to him, part of him had despaired of ever being truly accepted and loved. Even by Ruka.

Smiling softly up at Daisuike Ruka slowly nudged a second finger in and at the same time finding the small spot inside him to make him go crazy. Watching the raptured expression on his face Ruka felt his chest tighten a bit. He was so beautiful. He pulled Suke down, using his forearm as to not get lube in his hair, crushing his lips to his needing to taste and consume him all the while stroking that pleasure spot inside in. He could feel Daisuike’s whole body quiver each time he slid his finger over it his breathing speeding up along with his pulse.

Daisuike moaned against Ruka's lips, the vibration sending tingles though him. The way Ruka was moving his fingers was sending jolts down his spine, sparkles dancing across his vision. He pressed back against Ruka's hand wanting more sensation and just more of Ruka.

To say Ruka was shocked would be an understatement. To feel Suke pressing back against his hand made him hiss with need finally stretching him a bit more before he withdrew his hands shifting so that he could lay Suke onto his back. His breath seemed to catch in his throat as he stared down at the man under him. He was so beautiful and it took his breath away to know Daisuike loved him.

Reaching over he ripped the condom packet open sliding it onto him self groaning. To think he was going to be able to feel Daisuike around him again. That incredibly tight warmth-he had to stop thinking or else he'd go off. Leaning over him he rested his forearms next to his Ouji-sama's head kissing him softly.

"Are you ready? You can still back out. Hell you can back out at any time. . ."

Daisuike watched Ruka's every movement his lips twitching. Ruka was just too striking and seeing him like this made his whole body ache with need. He kissed Ruka back lightly letting his tongue trace those amazing lips.

"I'm ready, koibito." The knowledge that he would soon have Ruka inside of him made his whole body tense in anticipation.

Ruka smiled softly teasing Suke's tongue back as he slowly nudged his tip inside shuddering. It was extremely tight and he wanted to take it slow. He knew it would hurt being stretched, remembering back to their previous times and from experience, but he knew he would make him feel good. Reaching down with one hand he slowly started to stroke him to make up for the pain. Once fully inside he had to stop.

"So tight Ouji-sama. . ." He groaned softly resting his forehead against him some. His entire body was longing to move, to reach that mind shattering sensation, but he wanted to take his time with this.

Daisuike was breathing in short little panting whines. The pain lessened once Ruka stopped and he took several deep breaths shuddering at the overwhelming sensation of Ruka being inside him. If Ruka thought he was tight, Daisuike thought Ruka felt impossibly large and part of him wondered how he even fit. The urge to lift his hips to meet Ruka's hand on his erection almost overrode the need to stay still and he moaned.

Ruka tried to be still kissing and nipping at Daisuike's shoulder and when he seemed ready he slowly started to pull out and push back in just as slow, stroking Daisuike a bit faster than he was going. He wanted to compensate the burning sensation he knew he was feeling as best as he could.

"God. . . Feels good. So good. . ." He couldn't stop the small moans and whines of his own as he moved, finally speeding it up a little.

Daisuike gasped, a soft cry making it past his lips as Ruka started moving. The pain was a bit more intense than he'd expected. Last time it had lessened as Ruka had started moving. He realized he was tensing up too much and tried to relax. He knew Ruka was doing everything he could to make it pleasurable and he knew that it would get better. He just had to relax.

Hearing the soft cries knowing that it was mostly in pain he pulled Suke closer stroking his face and kissing him, trying to ease the pain. It hurt him to know that he was getting such immense pleasure while his lover was hurting. Speeding up the pumping of his hand he slowed his thrusts wanting him to get used to it. Caressing his face he started to murmur softly into his ear,

"It'll get better, I promise. . . I'm sorry, just bear with it a bit longer and it'll feel good." And if it doesn't we'll stop.

"It's . . . it's alright." Daisuike managed. "I-oh!" His whole body tensed as Ruka shifted and hit that spot sending a jolt of pleasure through him.

"Oh god! Do-do that again!" The pain was lessening with each slow thrust and he lifted his hips slightly to meet them gasping as he did so. Even if it hadn't started to feel good he never would have asked Ruka to stop. He wanted Ruka no matter what.

"Mmm, I think I found the perfect spot." Grinning Ruka shifted slightly lifting one of Suke's legs spreading them wider and pushing deeper into him. "Fuck!" The moan escaped his lips in a harsh way, the pleasure making him dizzy. He had forgotten to remove the ring before entering Daisuike and it was causing tremors to wrack through his body. The angle he was at was making the ring hit a certain way and with Daisuike clenching so nicely around him with each thrust in and was it causing him to cry out and pant moaning wanting go so much harder and faster. The urge to do what he did before was there but he held himself back. He'd never hurt Daisuike like that again. Ever.

Panting Daisuike whined softly with each thrust. He was getting dizzy from the sensations, the heat building rapidly in him. Hearing Ruka's cries made him happy to know he was getting so much pleasure. Taking his other leg he wrapped it around his waist forcing him even deeper a choked cry tearing past Daisuike's lips. It just felt too good and he wanted more if that was even possible.

Raising up some Ruka gripped the sheet next to Daisuike's head, his eyes squeezed shut. The pleasure coursing through him was so intense he felt like he was being eaten alive by it. The sweet cries and the way Daisuike’s body was responding to him were making him stroke Daisuike even faster squeezing the tip every time his hand would reach it.

"G-God. . .So-" Another cry left his lips, unable to finish his sentence.

"Oh god! R-Ruka!" Daisuike clutched at him as the heat spiraled out of control. He lost himself in the blinding whiteness his muscles clenching his head thrown back. Nothing would ever be able to replace the feeling of being with Ruka. Nothing.

Ruka tried to keep focused as he helped pump Suke through his climax trying to keep himself going. He could feel his lover clenching around him making his whole body ache with pleasure and he gasped feeling himself go over.

"Iku! Iku!" Feeling his body clench and convulse he collapsed onto his forearm above Daisuike panting and feeling extremely drained. He wanted to fall all the way down, his weight too heavy to hold, but he didn't want to hurt Daisuike.

"God. . . so good. . ."

"H-hai . . ." Daisuike was trying to get his breath back. He could still feel Ruka in him and the sensation was enough to start getting him hard again already. He just responded to Ruka too easily. He raised his head up the short distance to kiss Ruka his arms going around his neck.

Deciding that he wanted to lay down he shifted up pulling Daisuike with him falling back against the pillows grinning at the fact that they were still attached. That and the look on Daisuike’s face was entirely too cute, the blush tinting his cheeks pink.

"Mmm, I think I could get hard from just this. . ." Smirking he decided another round would be bad and he didn’t want Daisuike to be in too much pain. He was going to need his next dose of medication soon. He carefully lifted Daisuike groaning at the feel of slipping out of the tight warmth shuddering feeling Daisuike do the same. Sitting up he reached over to the night stand getting a few tissues to clean them both up. Once done he snuggled against Daisuike.

"Too exhausted to move, but the food. . ." Glancing at the door he then looked at Daisuike, "Think I could pay someone to bring up the food in bed so we don't have to move?"

Daisuike sighed utterly content. He would have liked another round, but he was getting very hungry.

"Hmm . . . that's an idea." He grinned up at Ruka. "Give me a minute and I'll go get it for us. If you really want to eat in the bed?"

Daisuike was still getting used to the idea of eating somewhere beside the table. Although if this afternoon was any indication Ruka like to use the table for other things as well.

"Mmm, I'll get it." He whined softly detaching from Daisuike. Getting up he wavered before stumbling to the kitchen kind of groggy. He was dead tired and eating didn't sound too great. He wanted to cuddle and sleep. Getting the plates and chopsticks he moved back to the bedroom passing one to Daisuike sitting next to him.

"Looks wonderful. Itadakimasu!" He grinned looking at Daisuike as he spoke it before starting on the food. His eyes lit up as he took a bite and started to really chow down into it. It was insanely good.

"Umai!!"

"Ugh, it's cold. It would be a lot better heated up. No, don't get up. I'll go heat it up." Setting the plate to the side he shifted to get out of the bed. He looked back at Ruka. "Ano . . . do you want something to drink?"

A perverted smirk appeared on Ruka's face and lunged forward grabbing Daisuike and dragging him back.

"I think I know of a juice I want. . ." And he quickly silenced anything else Suke would say with a searing kiss. Screw the food, he wanted Daisuike.

Badly.

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*itadakimasu: phrase said before eating
*Kimi-ga hoshii: I want you.
*koibito: term of endearment 'beloved'