A Forbidden Love

It was one of those everyday things that just couldn't be controlled, well perhaps that was a little bit of a lie right there; not everyone just happened to be attracted to their older brother. Things had been this way for as long as Tobi could remember, always watching his brother with a jealous look on his features whenever someone so much as looked at him the wrong way, desperately trying his absolute hardest to deny it. Taking on extra classes at school, involving himself in more after school activites and clubs, but nothing managed to take his mind off of the pure perfection that was his brother.

Indigo orbs had become dazed as he finally managed to pull himself out of his thoughts, brought back from the inner workings of his mind by the excited shout coming from the front room, oh great; his favorite person in the whole entire world was back again for yet another visit.

It had been going on for a little over two months now, his brother had found a supposed boyfriend, and nothing else had ever managed to cut deeper into Tobi's chest than the way that the two seemed to look at each other, wishing above anything else that he could take that man's place. Fingers restlessly fumbled through his dirty blonde locks as he looked away from the obvious affections being exchanged between the two, no need to put himself through the pain of actually having to watch it unfold before his very eyes.

"Well if it isn't Tobi? still have your head in the clouds as always?" Eyes gave a mere glance in the direction of his competition for his older brothers affections, barely letting a sneer cross over his facial features before turning his attentions back onto the blank papers set out before him...what he wouldn't give for the chance to wipe that smug grin off of his damn face!

This was simply the way that things had to go on, with Tobi's feelings going on unknown to anyone else but himself, and watch as the one person he loved with his entire being obsessed over another...oh how fair life truly was in this case.

It was just one of those everyday things that couldn't be avoided, for real this time though. Jack had just never really been interested in girls. They'd never drawn his attention the way they had seemed to draw everyone else's attention and he'd ended up hanging out with friends more and more often as he got closer and closer to high school and suddenly, as though one day he'd woken up, he'd realized that toward particular friends, he had more than friendly feelings. It wasn't as though he was a pervert, he didn't think of his friends as sexual objects or anything like that, he just...liked them. Very mildly.

He would rather have buried himself in a good book or in front of the computer screen playing a good game, but eventually, people started to question him about different things and even his friends, who had either found girlfriends of their own or were going in and out of relationships, had started asking if he wanted to be fixed up with a friend of a friend or wanted to talk to someone. And after awhile, he simply stopped denying it and came out of the closet. Surprisingly enough, he hadn't lost any of his friends, though, a few became slightly more...uncomfortable around him. They eventually got past it and even his little circle of LAN buddies simply ignored it! Which, to him, was amazing.

Then, one day, he'd been talking to a friend online and they'd mentioned something which had led to another thing and suddenly, they'd been talking about sexuality and what they thought of each other and then...well, he'd been asked out. And he'd accepted. Gladly. He and his new boyfriend shared so much in common! They both loved computers and when one talked around LAN intricacies and the utter hilarity of mega to tera conversions, the other laughed, and when one made a joke about the comparison of Oscar Wilde to a modern day Butterfly in the gay parade, the other one knew exactly what he was talking about. It was wonderful! They got along like they had before, only, now, there was this odd sort of loving affection that Jack had never known.

When he had lost his flash drive in a random flood of rainy days while walking home, he had been comforted by sweet embraces and soft lips. And the way the other made his body feel...it was like being immersed in digital data files and dragged through every byte of sexual pleasure the web could offer. They hadn't gone so far as to actually...have sex, the word still made him blush like madness, but they had gotten pretty far in petting and fooling around, but, somehow, Jack...just didn't feel ready. He was still worried about his little brother. Which was what he checked on as soon as he got home, pushing his dirty blond hair out of the way of his thin framed glasses and smiling sweetly over at his brother. "Hey, Tobi. You done with all your homework? Need help with anything?" If there was an embodiment of cluelessness, it was definately Jack.

Sometimes he just didn't know how clueless his brother really could be, it didn't exactly take a rocket scientist to figure out the feelings he had for him, which had been the exact reason that the boyfriend had been spending all the more time over at their house, silently threatening him when Jack had left the room and turning all the more pleasant once he had returned. A slight roll of his eyes was given when he noticed the ever so subtle glare that was being tossed in his direction, allowing a false sweet smile to cross over his features in return. "Been done...nope...perfectly capable of handling things myself" He knew that there was nothing in the world he hated more than being nasty to his brother, but he saw it as a way of keeping the feelings that threatened to bubble out from his very being from becoming known by him. A stifled whimper had somehow managed to make itself known as he walked past Jack only to brush against him, sending delightful tingles across his entire frame...he was definately in trouble.

One last glance was given to his brother's boyfriend before quickly disappearing into the bathroom, doing everything in his power to try to will away the already stiffening erection that had built from such a simple brush against his brother's skin, it didn't take much to set him into a frenzy anymore; all that he had to do was merely look at his brother and he was sporting major wood. Fingers fumbled a little with the lock on the door, silently making sure that there was no way that he could be interrupted.

One of his hands had taken to roughly unbuttoning the front of his pants before lightly grasping his now bare cock, using a little bit of spit as the only lubrication as a few tentative strokes were given, causing a rather hungry moan to pass through his vocals. The grip on his erection becoming tighter as his strokes began to grow in intensity, hand practically a blur as it moved up and down on it. A slight squeeze given to the very tip, causing a high pitched whine to vibrate against the bathroom walls, he was always quite vocal during his sessions and that was sure to give him away one of these times if he wasn't careful.

"Oh, alright..." Jack knew it hadn't always been like this, he and his brother used to be close, they used to get along really well and hang out all the time. He'd even played a few online games with him, mostly the violent ones with the half naked girls, which he'd assumed his brother liked most about the games, but it had been a fun time. Or at least, for him. He'd like hanging out with his little brother, but lately...lately he'd just been pushed off to the side, forced to seek comfort in his boyfriend, wrapping himself more and more tightly in the arms of his lover as his brother abandoned him. But he didn't want to completely lose him.

His grin of affection and joy had fallen when his brother had blown him off so callously, his boyfriend wrapping his arms around him and whispering little comforts in his ear about how it was alright and it was all a part of growing up, but, this time, the comforts just didn't work. "Y-yeah, I guess. Look, I'll talk to you later, alright? I'm just...not feeling up to hanging out right now." He turned and kissed him on the cheek, eyes following his brother as he left the room, missing the near glare of death from the man in his arms. "Aw, come on, he's just being a brat, let him go mope or whatever..." The other man cajolled, trying to get him back on the right path, mostly the one towards his room. "It's not that, just...I'll get online in awhile, okay, by then, you'll be home, kay?"

He smiled and comforted the other man as he ushered him towards the door, eventually plactating him with promises of being intimate another time and rushing back into the house to check on his brother. "T-Tobi?" He'd been about to knock on the bathroom door when the whine met his ears, making them perk and listen closer. He knew that sort of noise...it had started off as honest curiosity. He hadn't wanted to go into his relationship completely blind, so he'd started doing a little...research. Then it had turned into a sort of pleasurable interest. And then it had simply become pleasure. The internet was full of all sorts of wonderful offerings of gay porn, and Jack was more than happy to take whatever it offered. Listening in now, he recognized that sort of noise and as the door creaked ever so slightly open, his eyes fell on what had to be the most erotic thing he'd ever seen.

He fell silent as his eyes came to rest on his little brother, stroking himself roughly, his mouth watering with need as he leaned back against the bathroom walls and pleasured himself to whatever it was that he thought about. Jack couldn't believe his eyes, the thick lensed glasses slipping down his slender nose as his mouth fell open. He'd seen hours of porn online and had done outrageously creative things with his boyfriend in the way of masturbation, but never in his life had he seen anything quite as sexual as this. And he couldn't explain the way his pants suddenly constricted around his body. Oh dear god in heaven, he'd never been that hard that quickly in all his life. It felt like the blood from every limb and inch of his entire being had suddenly rushed to his engorged organ and left him tingling, his hand absentmindedly going to paw at his need as he watched in silence.

A part of his mind seemed to worry about the noises that he was making, but the other part of him couldn't have cared less as his strokes increased in ferocity, jaw hanging slack in a drawn out high-pitched moan. His teeth seemed to be drawing blood as they bit down into his lower lip, the heated feeling in the pit of his stomach growing in intensity with each stroke of his hand, completely oblivious to the fact that he had someone watching him. Eyes glazed over with utter lust and undeniable hunger, the face of his elder brother flashing in delectable visions in his mind, only feeding fuel to the fire as his strokes became fast enough that his movements might cause sparks. The only thing that played over and over again in his mind was the thought of his brother finally wanting him the same way that the had for so long, the sounds being made unconciously sounding like that of a dying man...but he would gladly die this way if given the option.

The molten lava within his veins caused sweat to drip freely from his forehead, blonde bangs literally soaked and plastered to the skin. Goosebumps forming against his bare arms as he felt all of the pent up pleasure and delicious torment target his cock, eyes opened wide and spit collecting at the side of his mouth as the first spurt of white fluid left the tip and splattered against the nearby wall. "Ja-" His vocals had tried desperately to voice the name of the one that caused him such pleasure, but had been stopped short as his deafening cry could be heard throughout the household, spurts of cum splattering against the wall, leaving a nice mess of white fluid that was now dripping toward the floor, a strangled whimper managing to make itself heard as he practically collapsed against the floor of the bathroom, still swooning from the intensity of yet another orgasm brought on by his older sibling.

Jack stood at the door in complete and utter shock, eyes wide through the rims of his glasses, made even larger through their magnified views, one hand desperately fondling himself through the all too tight pants as he tried not to make any sound, biting so hard on his lower lip that his teeth nearly peirced through, the taste of their shared blood intensifying the situation all the more. This blood that dripped in his mouth was near the same as that of his brother, the same as the blood that slowly dripped from his brother's lip as they both struggled with the insanity of their needs. He couldn't help it and his hand slipped past the already tight band of his pants and the boxers underneath, focused so intently on his little brother's supposedly private session that the world could have passed on and he wouldn't have taken notice but that this moment were interrupted.

His hand moved as best it could in his desperation for some form of relief for this pent up strain, trying to hold himself back as he watch him, to keep from bursting in and demanding the same form of release. But then it happened, that last moment in which his brother had suddenly reached the apex of his desire, shooting thick, gooey cum on the tiles of the bathroom wall and letting it trail down to the floor as he panted in passionate relief, his own body responding in a like manner as he reached completion, his boxers suddenly drenched the entire way through and his pants messed as well with his own cum, so much that it dribbled past his balls and down his leg, hand still moving as he struggled to catch his breath. The fear of being caught suddenly burst forth and he staggered his way down the hall to his room, shutting the door and locking it securely behind him.

He was certain, unlike his brother, that he'd thouroughly shut and locked the door, collapsing back on his bed, his hair a wreck, his glasses pressed so firmly to the bridge of his nose that they left red marks, and his body shuttering and shaking. He wiggled out of his soiled clothes, still toiling to breath properly, cleaning himself with some spare tissue beside his bed. He'd never cum so hard or so much in his entire life, which was saying quite a bit when it came to the amount of times he'd fooled around with his boyfriend. Not that it hadn't been pleasurable, it just...hadn't ever felt like that. What was he thinking?! Obviously, his brother was thinking of someone while he did that, and of course, there was absolutely no way that it was him! How could he have intruded like that?! How could he have violated his brothers privacy that way!?

What kind of person did that make him that he was turned on by something like that? Suddenly, he was wracked with guilt at having done something so...horrible, and rather than remnants of pleasure, he felt like wiping away the shame of having enjoyed his little brother's private time. He sighed heavily, changing outfits and walking out of his room, smelling of dried sweat and the musk of sex, he made his way towards the bathroom to shower, just hoping he didn't run into Tobi. He didn't think he was quite ready to see his brother feeling this guilty.

A part of him seemed to come back to the present enough to realize that he indeed had quite a mess to clean up before reemerging once again. His eyes widening a little bit when they took notice to the fact that the door was cracked open, being pretty sure that he had closed it all of the way before his little pleasure session...no he was simply being paranoid, that's all. A rather content smile was plastered against his features, using a few pieces of the toilet paper to clean up the rather abundant amount of cum dripping from the tiles, feeling incredibly relaxed and at an unknown ease with the world. A soft whimper passing through his lips at the mere thought of his brother watching him get off, that had to be one of the hottest things that he could think of, but a part of him simply knew that nothing would ever be able to happen between him and his brother, not with Jeremy in the way of it all.

It had taken him a matter of minutes to finish cleaning up, his legs feeling a lot like jelly as he tried to force himself back into a standing position only to wobble a little in the process. A rather strangled sound making itself heard as he noticed his brother walking towards the bathroom, a soft blush crossing over his cheeks as he managed to speak. "Jack...I'm sorry...for earlier" No matter what, he could never stand having the one person in the world that truly mattered to him think that he was worthless. It wasn't until he had noticed the slight flushed look on the others features as well as the seeming death grip that he currently had on the towel, immediately forgetting that he was supposed to be somewhat cold to his brother and let one of his hands run over his forehead, trying to determine if he had a fever.

"Jack...are you feeling alright?" His question came out as no more than a deepened pant, still trying to catch his breath from the mind-reeling orgasm that he had mere minutes earlier...he was determined to look after his eldest sibling if something was indeed wrong with him.

His eyes widened when he heard his brother's voice, and, though he hadn't meant to, he felt himself jump and flinch back when he felt his brother's hand reach for him. "Ah," He tried to act normal, smiling his usual sweet smile as he dragged himself back down to planet earth, blinking a few times as he forced himself to focus on what his brother was saying. Right, earlier...oh! He'd been cold to him earlier, right, which was why he had decided to come check on him in the first place. And why he'd seen...what he'd seen. Why had that been? He'd been so mean to him earlier, glaring at him while he'd been with his boyfriend Jeremy, then coming upstairs and...wait, that noise he'd made when he had...finished, what if it wasn't just a noise? Ja? Could that have been the beginning of a name? A name like Jeremy?!

Was that why his brother had been so cold to him the past couple months? Because of his boyfriend? Did Tobi have a crush on Jeremy?! He looked over at his brother, eyes a little wider than he meant them to be, before blushing slightly and drawing his own eyes somewhere else. So that's what it was. That's why he was always a little bit mean, a little bit cold when Jeremy and him were together. Jack felt a little bad, letting his brother feel his forehead, fairly certain he was still a little flushed from earlier. "Yeah, I'm fine, Tobi." He murmured, trying not to make eye contact. "Hey, listen, can we...can we talk, real quick?" He motioned back towards his own room, the feeling of guilt building and doubling as he tried not to just blurt out what he felt he needed to say now.

Tobi wasn't really sure just why Jack seemed to be avoiding his gaze completely, perhaps he had upset him a little more than he had intended to. The last thing that he had ever wanted to do was completely and utterly push his older brother away. His fingers took to nervously pushing a few blonde locks out of his gaze, barely able to register the words that were being spoken to him. Talk? He couldn't help but wonder and somewhat worry about just what it was that Jack wanted to talk to him about. "Ummm sure Jack...I suppose I have time for a talk" His thoughts seemed to be spinning inside of his mind a mile a minute, perhaps his last show of coldness was finally enough to make his brother give up on him...there was nothing more he dreaded more than to have his brother walk away from him with loathing in his eyes. Allowing one last glance to be given up at his older sibling before taking a few steps into Jack's room, taking a seat on the edge of the nearby bed, eyes barely able to connect with the others without feeling a jolt of pain run through his frame...was this really the end of their brotherly bond?

Honestly, Jack loved his little brother like, well, a little brother. And he'd always at least tried to be a good older brother, playing with him when they were kids, trying to show some for of interest in whatever it was that occupied his time, even if that meant going to a football game or watching mind-numbingly dull hours of basketball, but how good of a brother could you call yourself if you took away the person that your sibling pined for? Not a very good one, not at all. His mind still under the impression that Tobi was very well in love with his boyfriend Jeremy, Jack was just praying that he could somehow salvage their bond, their relationship, in some way. And apologise for hurting his brother so badly.

He walked into the room and moved around the bed, going and sitting in the computer in front of his desk, facing his brother. "About-about a little while ago I..." He muttered, not sure what to say, stammering over his words as though his tongue had suddenly turned to taffy. He needed to tell his brother, or this was never going to get any better. So, with one deep breath and his entire being from head to toe blushing bright red, he got it out. "I saw what you were doing in the bathroom! I know what you were thinking about! I know you like...Jeremy..." He had gotten it all out in one breath, except for that last little bit, sort of slowly stated, softly. "You started to say his name while you were...doing things...and finishing...I'm sorry, Tobi."

"I should have figured it out sooner, the way you've been getting further and further away from me ever since I started dating him, the glares you think I don't see, the way you're always looking at us when we're together..." Right, Tobi's brother was a genius in just about every way but this one. Give him something logical, like an equation or a physical manifestation of a problem, and he was a whiz. Give him emotions, and apparently he pretty much just whizzed on himself. "I'm sorry."

There really was no other word to describe the way that Tobi looked when he heard that his very own brother had been watching him masturbate just a few minutes earlier, and the worst part of it was that he really thought that he had been sounding out Jeremy's name in the throes of ecstasy. There really was no way around it, he would literally have to tell his brother just who it was he had really been thinking about during his supposed private session in their bathroom. An audible gulp sound could be heard as he tried desperately to form the words, but everytime he tried they simply got caught somewhere between in his brain and his mouth. A rather desperate little whimper managed to sound in his throat before he had wrapped one of his arms around the others neck, pulling him closer while crashing his lips against his own, one of his hands managing to wrap itself in hair almost identical to his own as he pulled back a few moments later even though it was the last thing he ever wanted to do. "Jack...I have never liked Jeremy at all...It has always been you...only you" His brother was going to hate him, hate him and push him away like mad but he could live the lie any longer.

He had been caught completely off guard, almost tumbling forwards onto the bed or his brother as he was unceremoniously brought closer, lips beginning to part on words of protest before they were brought to silence all together. His eyes widened as his glasses were scrunched tightly against his face in order to accomidate the other face that had suddenly become so very close to him, gasping in breath the moment he was let go, his hands clinging to his brother's shoulders and holding him at a distance. "To-Tobi..." He muttered fingers rising to absent-mindedly trace his own still tingling lips as he turned the darkest shade of red humanly possible. "I never thought that you'd...I mean, we're...and..."

He stumbled over his words, his usually bookish mind drawing a blank as he felt his tongue dart out and tasted only his little brother. His hand dropped from his lips as he realized what he was doing, the other pulling from Tobi's shoulder as though it had been burnt, jumping and standing before him in all of his awkward glory, eyes darting back and forth for somewhere safe to land. He couldn't look at his brother, but he couldn't look at himself, and some desperate part of the back of his mind kept whispering that it just meant they were the same...the same because he'd watched his brother masturbate and gotten off to it himself. He slowly sat back down, the process of actually thinking working its way back into his process, logic working on his mind, twisting it this way and that.

"I don't know, Tobi...I-I...kind of liked it..." He was down to a whisper by the time he'd finished talking, his cheeks so brilliantly red as he adjusted his glasses. "Watching you, I mean..."

There had always been something mildly cute about the way that his brother practically stumbled over every one of his words. A rather confident air seemed to come over him as he allowed a quick glance to be given to the open doorway, using one of his feet to remedy that little problem before turning back to his older sibling. The fact that Jack had been so turned on by simply watching him masturabate, well that was an incredible turn on for Tobi and he wasn't ashamed to admit it either. A rather devious little smile managed to creep onto his facial features as he carefully maneuevered himself over his brothers lap, setting himself down with an emphasized bounce on the landing. "Mmm really? brother likes to watch? Perhaps next time, you won't have to worry about being caught...call it a private performance" Something about being able to make his older brother blush from such a simple statement made him feel in control, and the fact that his brother had gotten so turned on by him meant that he had a chance...to kick Jeremy to the curb and have his brother Jack all to himself.

"I-I don't know, Tobi..." He had jumped when his bedroom door had been shut, eyes going twice as wide when he was suddenly straddled, his computer chair squeaking at the effort of holding both of them up, but then again, it squeaked at the effort of holding itself up. He licked his lips again, eyes following the lithe form over him to meet his brother's face, hips begging him to thrust back up with each bounce. "We're brothers, Tobi...you're my little brother, we're not supposed to-" His words were cut off by rather the effective moan, his brother's words taking over his own, the thought of his little brother, spread out and pleasuring himself, Jack sitting back, watching, and Tobi knowing he was...it was too much for his words to work against protesting and as they sat there, his pants began to tighten yet again. "Tobi...we can't..."

Oh, but how badly he wanted to, his mind calling up those lovely moments of just awhile ago, his brother's hands moving over himself, the thick ejaculate dribbling down the wall, the gasping, panting breath that had finally left him, the knowledge that it had been his own name. He couldn't help but moan a little again.

He could tell that his brother was trying his very hardest to get the fact that they were related out in the open in a hopes of getting Tobi to let up, but damn it if the fact that they were brothers made it all the more hotter to him in the end. "Brothers or not...if we both want it...than it can't be wrong..." One rough bounce was given to emphasize his point, an exaggerated whine passing through his lips in an extra effort to make the other lose what little bit of his self control was left. Indigo optics seemed to glaze over with pure lust as he allowed one of his hands to wander down between the two of them, giving a harsh squeeze to the others cock through the fabric of his pants, desperately trying to get him to stop thinking about what was wrong about this and simply focus on what they both felt; uncontrollable lust and love for one another.

The aggressiveness of his groping increased with each passing second, somehow managing to get his own cock out as well as his brothers, carefully maneuvering so that both of them were gripped by his hand, moving up and down at a grueling pace. Sweat dotting across his forehead as he felt his hand begin to move at the fastest tempo possible, he had to make his brother feel it, and not question it with his intellect...it was the only way for something to actually come of all of this.

Holy cheese whiz, did that feel good! Jack had been trying to figure out what to say, stuttering and sputtering as his brother began to paw at him like a hungry animal, starting to finally be able to get some form of eloquent speech past his lips when Tobi managed to get both their pants open and suddenly, it was alot harder to protest. And it just kept getting worse, or better, whichever screaming side of his mind you decided to listen to, suddenly, the feeling of his little brother's hard cock pressed up against him sent shivers up his spine and all manner of speaking was completely lost. Except of course the occasional small moan and groan of pleasure as things became more and more heated between them. His eyes had gone from his brother's face to the working hand between then, his own hands from holding his shoulders to desperately clinging to the computer chair to keep himself upright.

"Holy fucking shit, hell..." He managed to grind out between clenched teeth, moaning all the louder, his mind still in denial, but his body obviously giving over as his hips began to thrust up against his brother, whining as he tried to pull them closer together, needing it, that touch, more of it, his hands leaving the chair and dragging across his little brother's thighs in need. He could already feel it building, so close to his own end.

All of the sounds that came out of his sibling on served to further turn him on, watching his older brother's face contort in pleasure accompanied by the sweetest sounding moans and groans, he was an orgasm waiting to happen. Soft hisses and groans of approval could be heard from him as he felt fingers dragging themselves along the expanse of his inner thighs, feeling himself being thrown even further into that pleasurable abyss, one that if given the chance he would gladly drown in and die a happy man. Mind swirling as all of the pent up heat and arousal seemed to grow into one giant ball in the pit of his stomach, muscles growing taut as he felt himself only an inch away from going over the edge, but he was determined to make sure that Jack went along with him. "Cum for me brother please...I can tell your close, just let it all out..." His voice had become low and sexy in tone, eyes practically glued to the flushed features of his one true love, wanting nothing more than to see his face when he finally fell over that blissful edge.

"Oh god..." It'd never felt this good before, and, gathering his brother up even closer to himself, he couldn't help but nearly cling to him, begging for more in quiet whispers, words still making the same progress as when he'd been unoccupied, no real ability at stringing them together but that now he seemed fairly well adept at cussing. He was down to a panting, whimpering, moaning mess by the time he could feel it building inside of him. He had done 'things' countless times now, or at least twenty, and gotten pretty creative on how to do them, even like this, but it'd never been...like this! It felt beyond everything he'd ever felt before, alone or with Jere-...oh god, what was he going to tell Jeremy?!

We have to break up, I'm fucking my little brother? Oh no, oh no, Jeremy was going to be furious, Jeremy was going to have a cow, oh no, oh god, Jeremy was-who gave a fuck, this felt far too good, his brother's hand wrapped around him, making him pant louder, faster, finally closer...closer...closer...until. "Oh Jeremy!"

*Authors Note* Dun Dun Dun! cliff hangers are my specialty ;P so stay tuned for the next chapter in our lovely brotherly incest story and R|R ^^