Hurt Him Most

Luca doubled over in pain as Ryan punched him in the stomach. A knee to the face sent him reeling back. He tripped over something that had been left on the floor and fell on his butt. He looked up, confusion contorting his beautiful face. A kick to the jaw contorted it more.

Ryan kicked him in the stomach again then loomed over him. Luca tried to get away from him but Ryan held him still. He fought with everything he was but Ryan was so much bigger then him from years of lifting and playing sports. He held Luca's hands effortlessly above his head with one hand while he unbuttoned the smaller boy's pants with the other.


"What are you doing?" Luca asked as he tried more fervently to get away.

"I don't know why you're struggling so hard to get away. It's not like you haven't done this before." Ryan replied, roughly pulling off Luca's pants.

That was true, he'd had sex with boys, but this was totally different. He didwantwant this. This was rape and there was nothing he could do about it. There was no use in screaming because no one was around and there was no use in fighting because he was no match for Ryan. Tears came to his eyes.

Ryan had successfully gotten Luca's pants off and was in the process of ripping off his shirt. The grip Ryan had on Luca's wrists was like steel, feeling as though it was nearly crushing the bone. He was taking off his pants now and stroking himself. Luca tilted his head back and closed his eyes.

"Please man, please don't do this." Luca pleaded weakly though his tears. He was rewarded with a slap in the mouth. He gasped in surprise when he tasted blood.

Laying completely naked under Ryan, Luca felt smaller then he ever had. He felt useless and helpless and unwanted. He felt used and cheap. Tears streamed down his face, which only helped to excite Ryan.

Ryan ran his hand down Luca's side causing him to shrink away in fear. Ryan smiled at this, then kissed Luca hard enough to bruise his lips. Luca jerked his head to tide ide to get away from the kiss but his head was held in place by Ryan's free hand.

"Why are you doing this?" Luca asked when Ryan pulled away from the kiss.

"Because you never acknowledged me. All the times she treated you like shit and I tried to help you, you just brushed me off." Ryan replied.

The "˜she' he referred to was Luca's ex-girlfriend, Lily. She had treated him like shit but he loved her. Thinking back on it, Ryan was always there when Luca need someone to talk to, but Luca usually didn"˜t want to talk about it. When he finally got the balls to dump her, he realized that he had been ruined from girls forever. It was then that he had turned to boys for love.

"And then you were with him and that burned me up. He treated you worse than she did. I tried to let you see that I was there for you, I wanted to love you, but you just ignored me."

The "˜he' Ryan referred to was Adrian, Luca's ex-boyfriend. Well he couldn't be considered that really cause he had never been Luca's boyfriend. The two of them were more like friends with benefits. Adrian insisted that no one find out about their relationship. He had been so paranoid about this in fact that he refused to be seen in public with Luca.

"I 't k't know, man. I didn't, I swear. If I would have known that you felt that way I would have done something." Luca said, fear rising in his voice.

"Oh it's to late for that now. You can say anything you want, feed me your lies. But I promise you. I will have you whether you like it or not."

With this statement, Ryan roughly entered Luca, pulling a scream from the boy's throat. He hadn't prepared the smaller boy for his entrance at all and to Luca it felt as though he was being split in half. He thrashed wildly but there was nothing he could do. Ryan let go of Luca's wrists and wrapped his strong hands around Luca's neck. The smaller boys hands instinctively lifted to Ryan's wrists and clawed at them in an attempt to get him to let go. He wouldn't though, and struggling used too much energy. Luca finally relented and laid still.

Ryan slammed into him with the force of a freight train. Tears streamed down Luca's cheeks and his chest heaved with sobs. Ryan bit at his neck and kissed him roughly until he was spent and came violently with in Luca.

He laid on top of the small boy for a while before pulling out of him and cleaning himself up. Luca just stayed on the floor, curled up in a little ball, and cried for all he was worth. He couldn't comprehend why Ryan would do something like this, even though the larger boy had told him the reason. He had had no idea that Ryan had feelings for him. If he had he would have gone after Ryan. He knew he deserved better than the people that he had been with.

But now Ryan had done this and ruined it, ruined everything. He wanted to die.

Ryan had finished cleaning himself up and was now sitting beside Luca on the floor. He tried to touch the smaller boy but Luca flinched away from him.

"I"¦I'm sorry." Ryan whispered. "I don't know what came over me. I love you."

Ryan reached for Luca again but this time gathered the smaller boy into his arms. Luca couldn't believe what was going on. Ryan had just raped him and now he was comforting him. He didn't have the energy to think about it though and decided to just take the comfort from wherever it was coming from.

Ryan stroked Luca's cheek, brushing away a tear. "I'm so sorry. I promise you that will never happen again. I love you Luca, I really do."

Luca didn't know why he believedn, bn, but he did. Then again, he always fell for the ones who hurt him most. "I love you too, Ryan."