A Virgin Sin

Prologue...

..... I wake up early due to my excitement. Today I have appointment with that adorable guy. We have known each other long-long time ago. We had some phone calls, messages, and a dinner. All are deliberately from my efforts just because I like him from the beginning. And TODAY! We are going to have dinner at his vacant condo. I am going to give him my virginity. Who will believe that? My appearance is totally deceiving what is covered inside. I use to think I would keep it to the wedding day but I do not see that coming. I have never had just even a kiss!!! Life is experimental and I do not want to keep my virginity to grave. I choose to give it to him, the one I have my admiration on for a long time.

I spend the whole day choosing each piece to dress and having my hair done. Barely have lunch due to my excitement. I go out of home so early to wait for him at our meeting point, using public toilet within one hour more than I need in a year.

And there comes the gorgeous guy! He looks so casual and charming. We go to buy some food in the supermarket for our dinner. From time to time during shopping, he touches my arm lightly. My God! Does he see that my heart is jumping out of my mouth!

At his vacant condo, we had a small dinner and some drink while watching some movies from his notebook. I do not really know what the movie is all about as my mind is so spinning. I do not know when and how it will happen, where to put my hands, what should I do or do not, what should I say, when to tell him about my virginity...

My head is totally whirling!

We sit so close for a long hour and nothing happens. I am thinking that may be nothing will happen tonight. Then, out of nowhere, he reluctantly wraps his arms around me. My heart is actually popping out of my ears now. We sit in a long silent hug further....and all at a sudden, he kisses me.

I do not have a full conscious of what happens after that. At some point I tell him to be gentle as I never have experience. I am not sure he does not hear it or does not believe it. All things happen so fast and so confused. The next conscious I have is sweating in bed underneath his burning chest, catching the sweetest breath...

... 2 years pass by...

I am now opening my eyes with a smile from one ear to another. I just had the most memorable sweetest dream...