Anything for you

Innocence. It doesn't exist

My mind has been polluted from the beginning

I twist my body just so, because you say you like it

I smile and say whatever you wish

I can handle anything for you

Even pain

Especially pain

I'll wear that little dress and heels out with you

Even as they fall to the ground, I'll still smile at you lovingly

You can push me against the wall and pull on my hair

Kiss my lips so hard and rough they bruise

I'll still moan out like a little whore

Because you want me to

Marks get left on my skin from your sharp teeth

Nails leave long scratchmarks down my back

My breasts scream out from within with pain

Each one is abused by rough hands too busy to give a damn

But I can't let you know how much it hurts

Because you tell me you don't like that

And I can never hurt you

Even though you always hurt me

I get flipped around suddenly

It came to quickly

I can't help myself as I cry out in pain

Tears start rolling down my cheeks

My head gets yanked backward as you grab a fistful of hair

"You like this, you little bitch" was the only response

Words are unable to escape my lips

I simply stare at the wall and try to enjoy it

But there is no pleasure in any of this for me

For this was never about me to begin with

My body is pushed up further to the wall

I'm pinned so tight I can barely breathe

But it soon stops as you finish the game

I fall down to the ground, the tears unable to desist

A kiss to my forehead is the only reward for my efforts

A door slams behind me

Finally I am left alone

Until tomorrow

When it begins again

The game of pleasure and pain

What made me think I can change you

I don't even remember anymore

Months have gone by with the same routine

It never gets better

It only gets worse

But I will still put on my makeup

The little dress you like, and the heels to match

Because you told me you love me

And I'll do anything for you