Queen Bee

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She wears a mask I can tell. I look at her profile while she smiles and I can see her jaw tighten a she laughs through her teeth and all the girls and boys around her are convinced that she’s actually laughing but me I know her, she doesn’t know me but I know her. That’s how my life goes on every day. Watching her is what I do, I don’t get paid and neither do I ever tell anyone, especially her but I watch her and I take notes. Yes I keep notes on her. I have a copy of her house her and I even know when she gets her period. I’m obsessed. I realize that even if I was to tell anyone what I knew of her they’d ask how and why I know all this. Can’t just tell the whole world that I make it my sole purpose to know every detail about her, that I get my kicks every time I find something new about her  that I didn’t know before. Plus then there’s always jail, even if I didn’t want to hurt her I would still get up to a year and a half or a ridiculously large fine.

 Even though my state was the first to pass the no stalking law, they only said that it was stalking if “A stalker is a person who harasses and purposely follows their victim. ” I am not harassing her, I don’t leave creepy love notes, I don’t call her house (though I have the number) and I definitely don’t ever talk to her. I’ve actually made it a rule to physically distance myself from her. What’s the point of watching her if I could always just get close to her until I actually get her to tell me it all. That would make my obsession with her null the minute I got close and really then I would have nothing to do. Surprisingly though it’s actually pretty easy when we’re in different social circles, I don’t talk to her and she doesn’t talk to me. I stick with my friends who spend their time smoking anything lethal and whispering to each other about things recently found online and wild weekends. While her friends cling to her for signs of anything that is now the new fad. She masters then all, even having the teachers wrapped lovingly around her fingers and the only words I have to describe her is as a “Queen Bee. ”