I Accept

I Accept

by Cody Thomas age 24

I accept the fact you changed me
I accept that I can't go back.
I accept that innocence is fleeting
and to always watch my back.

I accept that you're an asshole
and have a sickness you can't cure.
It is not an excuse however,
to accept what you've incurred.

I accept that I'll never have justice
and that you know you got away.
I accept that no one believed me
and I had to pretend that I'm okay.

I accept the fact I hate you
and wish for you to die.
I accept that we still dance this dance
and to the family I still lie.

I accept the fact you hurt me
in a way no child should ever be.
I accept the fact you haunt me
and keep me from restful sleep.

And love the fact that every night
I get to kill you in my dreams.

I accept the fact you scarred me
and that my wounds still hurt.
I accept you made me different
and more skittish than I should.

I accept the fact I'm different
I accept that there's still pain
I accept the fact that I still cringe
each time I hear your name.

I accept that even I can find a way to change.

I accept the fact you broke me
but you won't see me on my knees.
I accept the taint you've placed on me
but I do not accept defeat.

I accept the light and healing
of Earth, Air, Water, and Sun,
to take away all the pain
of what you have done.

I accept hope into myself
I accept the winds of change
I accept that I still must grow,
and you'll never ensnare me again.