Therapy (11)

"N…no…stop!" Marc cried out, tears streaming down his cheeks as he pushed at the hands touching him. He had just told the other man what he had done, how badly he had failed, why was he doing this now? Didn’t he understand? "Stop…I don't deserve this." He whimpered out, his hands shaking as he pushed against the other man again, trying to get him to stop. The others hands were still moving stubbornly over his body though, touching him in ways that he hadn't been touched for years…decades, more like it. He hadn’t been touched like this…not since before his lover had died…not since before he had killed his lover.

"Don't deserve it?" The other man asked, his mouth moving tirelessly over the red heads neck as he pushed up his shirt, trying to get it off the much too slender body. "What don't you deserve?" He asked, biting the area on the others neck to create a blooming bruise, knowing it would make Marc remember this night even if they didn't go any farther then this.

"This…I don't deserve this, Jyn…you know I don’t deserve it." Marc whispered, biting his lip slightly as he watched the other, the feeling of a mark being created on his neck making him gasp softly, long foreign pleasure sliding through his body. "I don't deserve…don't deserve…" He felt more tears fall from his eyes, a soft whine coming from his throat. "Love…" He suddenly said, reaching up to grip the headboard when he felt another shock of pleasure go through his body, the feeling of Jyn tweaking the long ignored nipple piercings on his chest making him moan in pleasure.

"Love?" Jyn asked, grinning as he looked down at Marc. "Well, then we don't have a problem, do we?" He asked, leaning down to lick up the center of Marc's chest. The other man was barely resisting now but he knew he still would if he tried to go any father before reassuring him this wasn’t about love. "I don't love you." He said flatly as he reached down, tugging at the button of Marc’s pants, popping it open before yanking down his zipper. "I just want to fuck you." Jyn was lying, of course, he desperately loved Marc but he wouldn't tell him yet. Marc needed this; he needed to accept being intimate with another person before he could accept being loved by them. He knew that, logically, but that still didn't mean he liked it one damned bit.

“You don…don’t love me?” Marc asked, his body quivering a bit when he was stripped just as naked as the other man, his eyes widening a bit as his legs were spread. “Just… about fucking?” He murmured, biting his lip a bit as he looked up. He couldn’t help but be a bit disappointed when the other nodded but he knew that if it was about something more, he could never do it. He just nodded at that, looking to the side.

Jyn’s eyes were dark as he settled himself between the others legs, swallowing a bit as he took a deep breath. “Just fucking.” He whispered to himself, reminding himself before pushing forward roughly, pressing into Marcs body just as heartlessly as Marc had said he’d want it if he did it again. He winced slightly at the cry it drew from the other man but he kept going, knowing that if he stopped now, Marc would find a reason to make him stop for good. He just leaned down, biting hard at Marc’s neck as he thrust hard and fast in and out of his prone body.

Marc was crying for a whole different reason now, the first thrust had hurt…but now, now it was just pleasure…and he couldn’t help but think it was so WRONG, why did he deserve this? Why did he deserve to feel so good? “Jyn…” He whispered, shuddering as the next thrust inside him pushed the others length straight into his prostate, making him cry out in anguished pleasure. “I…don’t deserve…”

“God damn it, stop saying that!” Jyn murmured, taking Marc’s lips in a deep kiss as he slowed his thrusts a bit, letting the other adjust to his movements before speeding up again. “You deserve this.” He said, kissing Marc before he could disagree again. “You deserve everything; you just don’t understand that yet.” He said, leaning down to nip at his neck again, still moving hard and fast inside him. He knew it wasn’t Marc’s fault, Marc was a shape shifter, his mate had been a shape shifter that had gone feral, it wasn’t like Marc could do anything but kill him when his own life was in danger, when he was ORDERED too, he just needed to remember that not everything was his fault, he couldn’t of known his mate was pregnant at the point, he just couldn’t have known.

Marc cried out again but he couldn’t deny the pleasure roiling through his system and how much he was enjoying it. The closer he got to cumming, the less and less he could think. His hands moved, choosing to grip at Jyn’s shoulders instead of the headboard as he was fucked into the bed. He couldn’t hold back, no matter how much he believed he shouldn’t be feeling this, he couldn’t hold back from cumming when all the sensations crashed together in his body. A desperate cry was ripped from his throat as he came hard, his nails digging deep lines down the larger mans back. It was just moments later that he felt Jyn coming inside him, filling his entrance with warm cum that just stung a bit, reminding of how rough this had all started out.

Jyn ended up cradling Marc against his body, rocking him lightly as he hummed softly. “My little Marc…” He whispered, leaning down to kiss his forehead softly. “You know you deserve all of this, right?” He asked, nuzzling against the red head softly as they relaxed on the same bed they had just fucked violently upon. “You know you deserve love?” He murmured, looking down at him. “You know I love you, right?”

Marc just nodded, speaking softly as he looked up. “I know.” He whispered, it had just been easier to believe what Jyn had said, to give himself over to the pleasure he desperately needed but didn’t believe he deserved. He knew it was true now though and he couldn’t help but wonder…couldn’t help but hope…maybe, maybe this man could make him whole again; fill the void in his soul.

Jyn did just that.

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AN: So, this just like, POOF!, came to me not seconds after I finished writing something else, so here it is, another Therapy.

These are more OC’s, of course, mine and Nat’s.

Marc is mine.
Jyn is Nat’s.

I’m going to be writing the background for what happened to Marc but here’s the short for if the story didn’t explain it well enough. Marc had a mate, they were both shape shifters. His mate went feral (meaning crazy) and it’s an order, whatever creatures go feral are to be gotten rid of before they harm the general populace. Marc was put on the case and he had to kill his own mate. He found out later that the child that he and his mate had been working for so hard, he had killed too. He didn’t know his mate was pregnant until the autopsy was done. He took this really, really hard and still doesn’t believe himself worthy of any type of pleasure or love. He thinks he killed his only chance at having a family and love. He always thinks that there was something else he could have done.

Well, that’s all I can really think to say, enjoy!

Thank you so much for reading and don’t forget to feed the author!

(Just to be clear, this is NOT a collab, me and Nat did NOT rp this, I just used the chars to write a story)

ALSO! This is NOT NON-CON, he wants it, he just doesn’t think he deserves it.