My Hell

My Hell - Part 1

Tell me, do you know

What it is like

To be the way I am

Uncertain of everything

Tell me, do you see

My tear strained eyes

And my fake smiles

How do you solve a mystery

When you don’t even know

The difference between

Reality and dream?

My world as unsteady as my body

My vision as clouded as my mind

Questions bombarding my every move

Trying hard to just keep alive

Reality has become my dream

And my dreams are now reality

Unable to tell the difference

Barely able to even breathe

I try to seek help

But I am turned away

Told of a decision

I am unable to make

I walk these halls

Barely able to even see

Dealing with the endless venom

People inflict onto me

My hands always tremble

Hardly able to write

Just wish for some relief

I wish for my sanity

But wishes are denied

In this nightmare realm

No longer fearing death

For this is my Hell

But even death is denied

Doomed to forever be this way

All I can do is just sit and wait

And hope to survive everyday