The Man vs The Kid

when two come together as one they're never two again... the bond between them has strengthen and grown... the permanency is there... tapped into easily with a smell a thought a picture a passing glance an uttered phrase.. it's always there... it never goes away... for others it might ... fade or fall, falter or disappear from it all... for one it doesn't... there's an imprint left on the mind the body and the spirit... for her it's always harder then others... she sits and she mourns for the rest of her days over all of the love that was taken away... by those who carelessly threw her away... not knowing the impact they all may have left... sitting there lonely and quite bereft... deprived of the feelings of all of them combined as the went along leaving her always behind... the imprint is there even still on her heart where she loved every one of them, though left ripped apart... they never know as she hides it quite well... usually having something to help her along she always smiles at the beginning of the song... by the end in tears by some many songs now... she'll just shut down and they'll never know how... at the end of it all she loved each in turn, keeping them all in the chest she keeps safe... until the day that passes from grace... all of the ones that meant so much will get one last letter to tell them goodbye, and hope that they know she always tried not to cry... when she thought of the time she'd spent with each one... there is one who she'll say was the last... they spent less time with each other then any she ever knew... but he was the one who made her most blue... they had but a moment in the span of her life... she had silly dreams of being his wife... the touch of their lips was the worst thing to happen... they only wanted more... more wasn't allowed, it was restricted and bad... for keeping their distance was making her sad... she cried out for him in the dark of night and tried to forget him with all of her might... her brightest days were those spent with him but really he'll forget them... for him she's sure it was just a whim... to her he's part of her soul... he wiggled his way into heart and she never felt cold... but now that he's leaving... there's a spot to fill in... it's gaping, wounded, larger then it's ever been... she's cold, alone, hungry and weak... she doesn't even feel like having anything to eat... they used to laugh and talk all the time.. now it's a timid, uncertain and unsure kind of hi... they're afraid of hurting each other again... I once loved a man who never loved me... he told me he did and then set me free... he called me and told me written in a letter how he wasn't sure if it was worth it anymore... he wounded me deep and he made me all sore as he ripped out my heart and made me cry some more... he put me on a plane with wishes of luck and with love... only when I got him he'd given the final shove... the man was around and he saw what the boy did... he would often comment about the dumb kid... the kid who would let such a woman like me go... to only turn around and do the same show... I'm sick of this dance and I'm sure they'd agree that I'm not really worth it, there's nothing about me... the kid that he was never pushed me around... but he hurt me more when no one was around... that man that I spoke of is happy you see for he has five others and doesn't need me... he thinks that he does so he won't hurt me more... it really all started with that trip to the store... my hand was right there, his was too... I died inside when he held mine so sure... so quiet while my insides raced and were so loud... I'm surprise that I heard him through that inner crowd... we kissed in the car... I was brash and I made him... I didn't think he would but cheered when he did... I loved the feel of his face next to mine when I held him and sat his lap for a time... I found out later that we weren't alone for there was one in my stomach, not yet quite grown... I didn't tell him that he'd be a dad for everything was changing from good to quite bad... when I went to tell him the news of the death it seems the fates laughed and left me bereft... it was the burden I bared on my own... how could I break up his new happy home... I wanted so badly to tell him at last... it came out so quickly i just said it so fast... I told him the conception and of the end... I laid down my burden without too much care as it hurt so bad it wasn't easy to bare... I mourn for the times when we just talked of music, of people and bands with so much to play... but not that we've drifted so far from the other... he doesn't want me for he thinks he'll lose the other... from one to two to one once more... he's shut the life with the closing door... if you're going to keep so much from her then what's the big deal... it's not like I'm coming again for any sort of meal... I'll deal with the loss of my bestest friend... but here I am again all alone in the end... you see what the man did... he ended up treating me the same as that kid... so now I learn my lesson and leave them all be for they're peaceful and quiet and don't need me... that kid and that man who got to me first... just made me numb it no longer hurts... I've drunk it away with all of the rest...