Blood Pressure issues

Blood pressure issues

Aggressive and stubborn
Digging in the heels
Spoilt brat grinding teeth screaming
my blood pressure boiling
I swallow the bile that
Comes to my mouth
Swallow the words
As you’re spitting them out,

Vile angry
Viscous and mean
You’re pushing all my buttons
I’m too restrained
It’s extreme

This depth of anger
That knows no base
It overwhelms me
Consumes me
Yet I barely break

A little crack at the surface
A slither a slice
Before I push it all back down again
To fester
As I fight you
Eternally forever and a day

I’m shit scared of my future
If I don’t leave
Terrified of the outcome
Might I kill
May you bleed

I have to get out before
We all come undone
I’m desperate to save you
But it cannot be done.


Rage

I need to write this before I lash out
I need to write this before I break and shout
I can see me with a blade at your throat,
Silencing you forever
Gutting you out.

Stopping the moaning
Trying to get a rise
Fighting the urge
To slash my thighs

As I dig into my leg
Slicing the flesh
That delicious sting
almost agony
Satisfying relax

Exhale, close the eyes
Turn it all off

Forever silent
Voices castrated
You walk out of the room
moaning
I exhale groaning
Thank god
So fucking close
Head squeezing tight
Suffocating
Your voice harsh
Grating

For the blade I’m a reaching
Just to alleviate the
Rage



Okidoki so this last one's not so much rage just spawned from a contemplation session.



Collaborative Confusion

It’s mass scale destruction
Lost in the illusion
under dictated instruction
That we’re better than before

Collaborative Confusion
As we live our
Delusion
Abusing his creation
For our own ends

Can’t you see our predicament
Too caught up in the moment
We pave no solution
Just
Collaborative Confusion