hiyowa ai

I have always been sick. I was born as an albino and with a
degenerative eye disease. I’ll be blind by the time I’m twenty. I can hardly
see with my extra heavy strength glasses, which make it almost impossible
to go to school. I’m only seventeen and my schooling is over. I have one
good friend; he is the only one that comes to see me other than my
parents. Everyday after school he comes, and I help him with his
homework, even though I can’t see it. I love to look at him. His golden skin,
heavy lidded slanted eyes, thin upper lip and full bottom, and his straight
white teeth.

“Tsubasa?” I softly smiled to myself as I heard him say my name. I
turned to look at him and saw that he was carrying a bouquet of flowers.

“Hello Maki,” I greeted. I faintly saw him smile and he walked over to
me. He took the chair across from me and put the bouquet on the table.
“How was school?” I asked.

“It was fine. You know what today is?” Maki questioned. I shook my
head; I couldn’t read calendars anymore. “It’s Valentines day.”

“Are these flowers for your girlfriend then?” I asked. A slight blush
crept over Maki’s features.

“No, I don’t have a girlfriend. They’re for you,” Maki whispered. I
smiled at him.

“You do know that I’m not a girl, right?” I joked.

“Of course I do,” Maki joked back.

“Then why are you treating me like one?” I asked.

“Because I love you,” Maki told me. Before I could say anything he
got up and kissed me softly. I didn’t push him away; I liked the way his lips
felt on mine. When he pulled away I could see a special light in his eyes. “I
love you,” he repeated. Tears welled up into my eyes blurring what little
vision I still had.

“What will you do when I can’t see you at all?” I asked.

“I will let you touch my face so you can see me,” Maki explained.
“Even when you’re completely blind I’ll still love you. You’re my other half. I
will be your eyes.” The tears started to run down my face and he took my
hand.

“Thank you,” I wept. He played with a few of the white strands of my
hair and wiped the tears from my face. I slowly collapsed into his arms and
he held me. He gently kissed my forehead and held me close. “How can
you love a sick bastard like me?” I cried.

“Even though you’re sick, you have a good heart. I can’t picture
myself with anyone else,” Maki explained.

“Don’t you want a wife? Kids? All you’re going to get with me is
someone you’re going to have to take care of the rest of your life,” I told
him.

“I don’t care. I want to take care of you,” Maki exclaimed. I felt
myself start to cry harder at his conviction.

“I love you, I love you,” I repeated.

“I know,” Maki said, kissing me. “How long do you have left until you
go blind?”

“Three years,” I answered. He brought my thin, pale hands up to his
face and moved them over his features.

“Better start memorizing now,” he told me. I continued to cry as I
touched his soft skin. I knew after all this my heart would break when he
left. He must have noticed the look on my face. “I’m staying here tonight,”
Maki assured me. I wiped my eyes and looked at him again.

“So, you have any homework?” I asked. Maki laughed and retrieved
his backpack from the floor. He unzipped it and took out his blue notebook.

“I have to write a paper about one of the most influential people in
my life. I think I’m going to write about you,” he mused.

“Why me? There has to be other people,” I insisted.

“All of our teachers still ask about you,” Maki informed me, changing
the subject. “They wonder how you’re doing.” He opened his notebook and
I saw the seven pages that were his already written paper. “I need you to
approve it.” He handed me the notebook and I put on my glasses. I could
almost make out every word.

The introduction paragraph alone brought tears to my eyes. I took
off my glasses, wiped my eyes, put the glasses back on, and continued
reading. By the third page, my hands were shaking and my eyes were
completely blurred. I always knew that Maki was my good friend but I
never knew how much I truly meant to him.

“Am I allowed to hand it in?” he asked. I nodded as I wiped my eyes
for the third time.

“Dinner time!” one of the nurses called as she entered the room. She
had two trays in her hands, one for me and one for Maki. She put them
down and hurried back to her cart for a vase. She brought the water filled
vase over to the table and put the flowers in it. “Have a good dinner boys,”
she told us.

“Thank you SuChin,” I answered. She nodded at me and left. I
turned back to my tray and picked up my chopsticks. We ate in silence,
neither of us wanting to break the mood. I watched Maki poke at his
shumai with a smile on my face.

Lights out was at ten thirty every night. I had a small bedside lamp
that I usually kept on though. This night, Maki insisted we get right into
bed. I didn’t know what he was planning but I could tell the nurses
wouldn’t approve. We undressed but before I could put on my pajamas
Maki pushed me back onto the cotton sheets, stark naked.

“What are you doing?” I asked, shocked.

“I want to have sex with you while you’ll still be able to see me,” Maki
explained.

“What?” I exclaimed. He calmed me by placing a soft kiss on my lips.
They slowly moved to my pale neck as the lights went out in the building.
Was he fucking serious? I was almost going to ask him when I felt him
gently touch me. I moaned, in spite of myself, and gave in to him. His
mouth wandered lower to my right nipple. He licked around the nub on one
and gently tweaked the other. I ran my fingers through his black hair as he
caressed my skin. “Are you sure you want to do this tonight?” I choked.

“Do you want to?” he asked.

“I guess. I’m just kind of scared,” I admitted.

“I promise that I won’t hurt you,” Maki assured me. I nodded and he
kissed my stomach. “You’re so thin,” he mused. He ran his hand over the
skin, stopping when he reached my base. He played with a few white curls
before he ran his finger over the underside. I moaned as I felt him
massage me in his right hand.

“Are you actually gay?” I asked him cautiously. He looked at me and
smiled.

“I only have eyes for you,” he told me. He then leaned over the side
of the bed and opened his backpack. He pulled out a small plastic tube and
a condom. He flicked open the top of the tube and poured a sticky clear
substance onto three of his fingers. I spread my legs and he placed one
finger teasingly at my entrance. I covered my face with hands; I wanted to
die of embarrassment. He slowly pushed the finger into me and I groaned.
“You’re so tight,” he whispered. When the finger was all the way inside he
stopped and let me get used to it. Maki slowly moved the finger in and out
helping get used to the sensation. Soon a second finger was added and I
could feel tears welling up in my eyes. He started to scissor the two fingers,
stretching the ring of firm muscle. It hurt to say the least. I knew Maki
didn’t want to hurt me, but he had no choice. When I was stretched
enough, he quietly introduced the third finger, causing me to gasp. He
moved his fingers around a bit more than pulled the out. I almost
whimpered at the loss. I heard him open the crinkly condom wrapper and
saw him swiftly put it on.

“This is going to hurt a bit,” he told me. How did he know? Wasn’t he
a virgin too?

“How do you know?” I quietly asked. A slight blush came to his
features as he thought about his answer.

“I saw it done and it looked like it hurt,” he finally answered. He had
been watching porn again. I tried not to think about this as I felt his stiff
length brush against my opening. I felt myself tense and so did he. “You
have to calm down,” he told me. I tried my best to relax, and when he felt I
was ready, he slowly started to push in. This hurt worse than the fingers. I
felt like my insides were slowly being ripped apart. When he was inside of
me he stopped moving so I could get used to the intrusion. It felt odd to
have someone else inside of me, filling me. I nodded when I was ready and
Maki gently pulled out. The first couple of full thrusts were painful but I
knew that it had to get better so I didn’t ask him to stop. The next thrust
softly brushed against a deep place inside of me, and before I knew it, a
moan had left my lips. Maki smiled and continued to hit that place inside of
me. Sweat covered our bodies and our breath was ragged. I wound my
hands into his hair as my moans got louder. He almost frantically licked at
my neck as his thrusting sped up. I could feel my legs trembling and
thanked god that I was laying down. Maki’s face started to contort with
each thrust and I knew that he was close to release. I had failed to notice
how painfully hard I was and knew I would release soon too. His next
thrust hit my prostate dead on and I saw stars. I harshly started to move
back onto his thrusts, making him go deeper inside of me. A couple more
like this and we reached our peaks at the same time. Maki came hard into
his condom and I released onto my stomach. He practically collapsed on top
of me and I held him close.

It took a couple of minutes for us to regain our normal breathing but
when we did I truly felt happy.

“Thank you,” I whispered. Maki kissed me, his tongue lapping at my
bottom lip. I hesitantly opened my mouth letting his tongue inside. He
instantly set off exploring my mouth, every crevice and space that he could
reach. He ran his tongue over my teeth and the roof of my mouth. My
tongue came out to reach his and they touched. He ran his tongue over
mine, causing a warm feeling to rise in my face. He placed his hands on
either side of my head, holding me gently as he kissed me. As he pulled
away he softly bit my bottom lip. I looked at him, all I could see was a
happiness in his face that made me smile. We had no more words for each
other that night so Maki laid his head down onto my chest and closed his
eyes. I closed mine as well and waited for morning.
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The pale rays of morning sunlight danced across our naked bodies,
slowly waking us up. Maki sat himself up onto his elbow and I noticed the
dried clear fluid on his chest. I chuckled to myself as I leaned over and
scraped some of it off. He looked at it in faux disgust and finished
removing it from his skin.

“Good morning,” I greeted.

“Good morning,” he answered, gently kissing me.

“I’ll come back later.” We both turned in time to see SuChin leaving
after she had delivered our breakfast.

“Thank you SuChin!” I called after her. There was a soft blush on my
face at the thought of what she had seen. Maki got up from the bed to
retrieve our food, in which time I got to look over his well-toned body. He
had a firm backside and well sculpted runner legs. When he turned to
come back to the bed, my eyes almost immediately went to his crotch; I’m
ashamed to say. After getting an eyeful I looked away to not make him
uncomfortable.

“I saw that,” he accused.

“Saw what?” I asked innocently.

“Saw you scope out my merchandise!” he joked. I laughed at his
expression and covered my face. Maki sat down next to me again and put
the trays of food onto his bedside table. He removed my hands and I could
see the big smile on his face.

“You only want me for my big package,” he said in mock horror. I
laughed harder than I ever had at this. Tears started to run down my face
because of my laughter.

“Please, I’ve seen bigger on guys in here while showering,” I
retorted. Maki mocked gasped and turned away from me. I started to laugh
again at how over-dramatized it was. Maki turned back to give me my tray
and I saw the large smile on his face. I smiled back and took the tray. It
felt good to finally have someone to love.