Unwanted

Authos notes: I did it actually, i wrote some rape fic, but like i said to some friend that i want to read something like that, but i want to see how one can write the after effects of a rape, cause everything is just imagination, and fiction, i dont desire to that ever happen to anyone, in real life, but it´s something that make me curiuos, how to deal with the recovery after it, how you can write the trauma of the victim, how to move forward...

And i stick there...how can anyone could recover after an experience like that, cause i think is just too traumatic and with so much pain, that maybe it wasnt a recovery after all...specially for someone younger...I dont know, maybe is my sick pervertion after all, but when i read that someone can fall in love with their attacker i just couldnt picture that....but maybe that´s why is fiction, and you can do whatever you want...ne?...

Well if you want to read my sickness , go ahead ^-^ I did write a fic with this theme, but in spanish, and even with the strong angst and violence, there are girls that comment me, that they actually find it interesting, so maybe i just need to find the right way to deal with the consequences...ne?...cause is easy to write the scene itself...but then?....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa eating my brain...




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Title: Unwanted
Author: Kitt (Kazu_lover) or Kitten_suby
Fandom/Group: ORIGINAL
Main Characters/Pairings: i picture Kamenashi Kazuya here of course, but i cant put his name on it, so is someone like him...just that =P jajajajaaj so anormal me =P really i even suprise myself =P
Rating: R - NC17
Warnings: slash (boy/boy) RAPE AND ANGST and bad english =P
Disclaimer: This is just fictional.


Unwanted I



-Turn around....


the boy did it....he was still looking through the lens...and smiled...


-No...give me an annoying expression dear...


those eyesbrows frowned a little....and those lips pouted in a way his heart made a pump....but he was a professional...


-That´s it...keep that...


Another click and another....he noticed the boy tiredness throught his lens...but they had a lot of shoots to do....besides he really adored take pictures of him...


-Face the wall now....


The boy did it...he heared now a resigned sigh...while that exquisite body was now pressing against the wall...he licked his lips...


-That´s it....now slowly looked at me...


he did it in a way that sent shivers to his body....he was really excited at the moment....the camera did another click...and he stopped then...the boy was about to end with the pose...he looked around...at the watch in the wall...it was almost midnight...of course the kid was tired...but it couldnt help it...


-no...dont move...we havent done yet sweet...


He smiled at the way the boy was glaring at him...he knew that he hated all those nicknames, but he couldnt help it...all the people who was in front of his camera had received his sweet words, he thought like that he was giving then reassurance...but with that pretty boy...his words seemed so dirty....like how his body was feeling right now...


-Sakuya-san...i am leaving now...


his assistant informed him..and he sighed...he was changing the rolls, glancing the kid there still against the wall waiting for him....he laughed a little "waiting for him?"...and nodded to his assistant, who was putting other outfits for the boy to use...


The girl left then...and he smiled...and went to the door...locked it..he didnt like disturbance...and he knew the manager of the boy was still outside, waiting for the session to finish...although when he glanced through the window he saw him flirting with his assistant...


He returned to the boy who was still in the same position...but had his eyes closed...he raised his camera and took another picture...so pretty...


The kid opened his eyes then...but he was still taking pictures...


-Gomen...


He smiled at the boy...


-You need to change clothes....there...wear the white ones...


Those eyes followed his indications...and the the boy walked to them...picking up..and began to undress...in another times he stared away...this day no....he looked all the time...he left his camera on the table...and approached...he glanced at the door....but remembered that it was locked...he was at his back now...the kid was only wearing the white shirt and was about to lean to put the pants...when he felt him...he smiled...and before the boy could react...he passed one arm around the waist...and the other over his mouth to prevent any scream...


-Shhh....you didnt want any attention ne?....just play cool...


he whispered in his ear...and licked the side of his neck...the boy was inmobile at the begining but soon he was struggling against his body....but he was far bigger than him...and stronger...he kept the kid under contro..until he guided both to the next room....when he had a bed...he needed that when he spent all the night working...


He pushed the struggling kid there, holding down while he could...but he was loosing his temper...he was still keeping the boy quiet with his hand in that mouth...but those large legs were to much an obstacule...


After a long battle he finally had those legs under control, pressing them with his own...but his hold on that mouth loose a little and the boy bit him...hard...he moaned in pain...and released him...but not before gave a strong punch in his stomach...so that prevented the boy to scream cause was out of air...he took advantage then and pulled those strands and forcefully he kissed that mouth...muffling the screams and the coughings...with his hands he ripped open the shirt...and made his hands wondered freely for all he could touch...


He moaned again from pain when the boy bit him again...but he didnt let go...so, he forced apart those legs...they inmadiately began to kick him...but he was to enthralled with his lust...that he didnt care...he finally was between the spread legs...and with one hand he ripped off the underwear...the boy scream inside his mouth...while he was pulled hard the locks but then remembered one thing he saw in a movie...so he grab painfully the chin...finally the boy couldnt bit him anymore...so he kept taking his mouth..and with his other hand..was still fighting with the boy under him....but he was more interested in undid his jeans...so when he finally did it...he raised himself a little...he didnt let the boy made any sound cause he slapped him almost brutally...making him cough blood...he smiled and took both legs in his hands...and after a lascive glare...he entered the kid...in a single painfull thrust...


He had again his chin in his grasp while was swallowing all the moans from pain...nobody would be able to hear anything...just muffled cries...silent begs...and a wish to die...nobody was there to help him...


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-Are you feeling better?...

the boy just glance upwards...taking with his hans, still shaking, the glass of water his friend offer him....

- I know,...it´s a stupid question....

if it was in his hands, he could murder that bastard....but they are nothing....they are just toys for anyone..in this world...They cant protest....they dont have any right....just for what they are doing....

Slowly, his friend was sipping the liquid...he looked so broken now...He didnt even talk, just shivered the entire time, silent tears rund down his swollen cheeks...and shaking little fingers..touch them...wippig away...but they didnt stop....

A hand caressed his hair...carefully....but he cant help a gasp...fear...that was present now...fear that eat his soul....his bleeding inside....

The door opened...and some doctor come...watching the two boys, one, the victim, hided behind the other, a little more taller, and older....but equally still a kid...

The doctor sighed...and approached...

-You will be released this afternoon...the bleeding stopped, you just have soreness all over...

The taller boy was glaring at him...

-He just was raped...and you talk about like it was some head ache...what would he suppose to do now?!...

just when the furious kid was about to add a little more...someone else come...the manager...he felt silent...

-Boys, i think the doctor here already give you the news...

the man walked and hand shaked the other man, and after some talk with the doctor, finally their manager was alone with them in the room....

-Leave us alone...

he looked the older kid, he knows that there was no room for objections, so bitting his lips, he stood up and left...feeling the stare of his friend the entire time....

*if i could help you....forgive me....*

More tears felt down....and he flinched when rough fingers grabbed his chin...forcing him to face the manager...

-Good that he didnt do that much damage....your face is still pretty...

The man released his hold...and the boy sobbed silently....feeling all dirty again....feeling that hands on him...the sneer in that face...the pain....humilliation....

-We arranged a deal with that man, we cant afford now some criminal issues...He wont be assigned to take you pictures from now on....like that you cant provocate him....

-B...but i didnt....

The glare in the man face make him shut up...and he just hugged himself tightly....he was the victim, wanst he?...he didnt ask for it....he didnt....

-Be ready...we´re leaving....you have work to do.

-...hai....

the boy whispered...and the man just excited the room...leaving the hurt boy all to himself...tears didnt help...but they refuse to give up...they are numbling his eyes...his senses....he wanted to die...he wanted to scream....to just forget everything....pretend that that night didnt happen....but that...is a empty wish...

tbc