Sometimes Dislike
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Category:
Angst › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
1
Views:
571
Reviews:
0
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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Sometimes Dislike
Sometimes Dislike
Author: Butterfly Beauty
Sometimes I dislike many things, myself included.
I feel useless and weak. Why? There are so many reasons
I don’t know where to start. Does the fact that I’m not counted on but depended on, count? That I’m only wished well is only because I can be used to gain what it is they want. Maybe it’s that I’m supposed to be smart so
I may go accomplish what they could not.
To be showed off like the newest trend, or latest fashion. Perhaps to be more precise to be showed off like some rare animal at an exhibit. Yet be denied the joys of life; restrained from knowing what it’s like to be like others to be free to make mistakes so one can learn and grow. Then the time comes, for you are placed in a situation and you don’t know something that you might’ve known before so you may handle a situation better but cannot for you never learned how and now you are at a loss. Unsure of yourself doubting and hating to be there at that instance wanting to run away so as to come back later prepared, wanting understanding to learn to grow.
Yet still you are denied. Times goes by and you don’t understand many things in the world, why some things are as they are, what something may be, or how to interact with others. You are left blind and deaf to the world as it is and can only try to feel it, so as to understand it, what it is. You do your best to make your way through a crowded place where all know where they are going and what they will do, along with why they shall do it, but you are just trying to find a way out, to know where you want to be going and try to figure out why you would want to be doing it. Then figure out how you will get there. Life has always been known to be unfair but does that mean one cannot be allowed to experience the laughter
and tears that it brings so you can know when to cry
and laugh.
To thoroughly enjoy oneself and appreciate life’s’ little gifts when they are presented. Out of everything that can be disliked denial to live is one of the worst things I dislike along with being used, not truly being appreciated.
For what one is worth you cannot place a value, you should be cherished and be set free so that you can come back better then you ever were. But most of all, most of all be freed from restraints of all sorts so you can do what you want to do being happy feeling fulfilled. I always have hoped that one day I will not have to worry over all that I must and do what I can to be better for others more than myself, I wish to do what I do for myself as selfish as it sounds. To be free of the responsibility that I have and do it all because I want to not because I have to. Which would show I do what I do because I care and shed the light of truth that I do not do it because I must, I hate myself most of all sometimes because I fail or make mistakes at times and I dislike the bad feelings of my memories when something bad or unpleasant, scary, or sad happened.
I am not perfect no one is but we can always make ourselves better and help other by being kind, a smile and friendly greeting can change how one feels completely even if we never notice. We can free ourselves from the bonds that hold us and show what we truly feel to others, others that may have been blind to how they made us feel. Maybe they were the ones that restrained us, or shamed us. We can show that we can do things without them, that we can survive on our own. We’ll find what makes us happy even if it takes awhile the journey is half the fun, living life along the way is the other.
Rate and review please, I'd like to know what you think.
Thank you, for reading and for just being alive.
Author: Butterfly Beauty
Sometimes I dislike many things, myself included.
I feel useless and weak. Why? There are so many reasons
I don’t know where to start. Does the fact that I’m not counted on but depended on, count? That I’m only wished well is only because I can be used to gain what it is they want. Maybe it’s that I’m supposed to be smart so
I may go accomplish what they could not.
To be showed off like the newest trend, or latest fashion. Perhaps to be more precise to be showed off like some rare animal at an exhibit. Yet be denied the joys of life; restrained from knowing what it’s like to be like others to be free to make mistakes so one can learn and grow. Then the time comes, for you are placed in a situation and you don’t know something that you might’ve known before so you may handle a situation better but cannot for you never learned how and now you are at a loss. Unsure of yourself doubting and hating to be there at that instance wanting to run away so as to come back later prepared, wanting understanding to learn to grow.
Yet still you are denied. Times goes by and you don’t understand many things in the world, why some things are as they are, what something may be, or how to interact with others. You are left blind and deaf to the world as it is and can only try to feel it, so as to understand it, what it is. You do your best to make your way through a crowded place where all know where they are going and what they will do, along with why they shall do it, but you are just trying to find a way out, to know where you want to be going and try to figure out why you would want to be doing it. Then figure out how you will get there. Life has always been known to be unfair but does that mean one cannot be allowed to experience the laughter
and tears that it brings so you can know when to cry
and laugh.
To thoroughly enjoy oneself and appreciate life’s’ little gifts when they are presented. Out of everything that can be disliked denial to live is one of the worst things I dislike along with being used, not truly being appreciated.
For what one is worth you cannot place a value, you should be cherished and be set free so that you can come back better then you ever were. But most of all, most of all be freed from restraints of all sorts so you can do what you want to do being happy feeling fulfilled. I always have hoped that one day I will not have to worry over all that I must and do what I can to be better for others more than myself, I wish to do what I do for myself as selfish as it sounds. To be free of the responsibility that I have and do it all because I want to not because I have to. Which would show I do what I do because I care and shed the light of truth that I do not do it because I must, I hate myself most of all sometimes because I fail or make mistakes at times and I dislike the bad feelings of my memories when something bad or unpleasant, scary, or sad happened.
I am not perfect no one is but we can always make ourselves better and help other by being kind, a smile and friendly greeting can change how one feels completely even if we never notice. We can free ourselves from the bonds that hold us and show what we truly feel to others, others that may have been blind to how they made us feel. Maybe they were the ones that restrained us, or shamed us. We can show that we can do things without them, that we can survive on our own. We’ll find what makes us happy even if it takes awhile the journey is half the fun, living life along the way is the other.
Rate and review please, I'd like to know what you think.
Thank you, for reading and for just being alive.