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For those we love

By: Sywryn
folder Romance › General
Rating: Adult
Chapters: 1
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For those we love

I never understood how. One day you came to me and you filled my life so completely it felt like you had always been there. I could never turn you away because to do so would be to cut out the only part of me that was right. I'll never forget the first time I saw you, you were beautiful. That night you showed me your soul through your smile and your eyes....so beautiful. You captivated me without ever knowing. And you never once tried to be more than you are. You alone is enough, everything, for me. Is it wrong for me to want you so completely? Is it wrong for me to always need to feel you close, to wake in your embrace and for yours to be the last kiss before I sleep? It must be. Sometimes I feel I'm holding onto a dream, that rare happiness that chases the demons into the shadows and makes me forget, makes me love. All I know is I don't have to be afraid with you for inside your love there is no room to fall.

I never understood what. What was it that drew me in and never let me go? Was it something simple like the way you could soothe me to sleep with your hands and your voice? Or was it something deeper like the way you could keep my sleep free from the nightmares with your heart and your soul? You're voice was lovely, melodic, calming, like listening to a mountain stream. I heard that voice whisper so sweetly the words I could never bring myself to say. I love you, you told me over and over again. And because it was you those three simple words meant everything to me. Was it that love that made me willingly lose myself in you? That made my heart ache longing for you when you were away? What makes me love you so it hurts my soul?

I never understood why. Why did you choose me? Why did you come to save me? It was like you could see beneath the surface, to the part of me that still lived, something that only your eyes could see. I was naked beneath your gaze, unable to hide and I felt....tired. As if I no longer had the energy for this facade that you could see right through. Was it me you loved? Or did your kindness just not let you leave a soul in pain? Maybe I will never know, maybe I will never care for I can see the love in your eyes when you look upon me and the emotion is the same.

I never understood when. When did I start loving you? Did it happen slowly, like the tides. Or did I wake up one morning with that feeling in my chest? The first time you took me in your arms or the first time I laid eyes upon you.I can't tell anymore. It feels like trying to focus on the moment I fell asleep. I know I must have done but the memory is lost. The beginning doesn't even matter because there will never be an end to my love for you.

I never understood...And perhaps I'm not meant to. Should the saved question the saviour or are their reasons forever their own? I don't mind never knowing for I know one thing. When she can kiss me goodnight without feeling the need to save me any more then I will know that her love is true...and I will no longer need to be saved. But for the angel sent to watch over me I will always have a need.