chosen

Her body laid on the bathroom tile of her loft. Motionless. The man she had grown accusmted too maybe even loved, was holding her motionless body. rocking her back and forth to try and reawaken
her was going badly. She had OD on pills and silt her wrist,there was so much blood that had mixed with the water from the icy shower he had given her to wake up. Water was everywhere, and
yet he still held her. He had tried everything to wake her,slapping her face, icy showers, even calling her name, but nothing was working. Finallu he gave up. He nestled his face in her hair and cried so uncontrollably. For a man that has no apologizes, and no tears, he broke down finally. And here i am, staring at this sence and my body in his hands and arms, as he cries.


I cant touch him or comfort him, and yet i dont feel bad. But i can finally notice something,"Damn, i was hot." Loki, my guardian angel was standing next to me, and with a touch
on the shoulder, i know that it is time for us to leave. He has watched over me for 29yrs and now, his job is done but the real question is, what is left for me?

We are then taken into a hall, vast and wide as it would be and the same construction as it would be in ancient rome. The hall is of royal standards and a great throne is set before Loki and I.
My feet, bare are on the cold marble floor and i am at awe in the construction. And at the throne a woman sits and I am at compelte shock and all i can muster in a raspy voice is, "Are you God?"
this woman smiles at me and nods and in a sweet loving tone replies, "I am. and now it is time for your judgement." And before i can blink and ask once again, a jury enters the hall and is seated in the jury box of ivory and ebony chairs. Sadly i recongize the jury and all the peers:my deceased mother, dead father, grandmother, grandfather, and friends of mine that have passed all but one person i can recongize. I stand before god herself, and she asks the jury,"How do you find the victim?" And the verdict is given by the strange gentleman with long blond hair
and icy blue eyes, he is beautiful and i could definatly see something with him. "we find her,innocent." and God stand up and walks towards me. "Congratualtions." and i look at her like
she has sprouted a second head. "I dont understand what is going on." i ask and i am shaking because i am frezzing and weak from the blood lost, i never knew i had that much blood.

"you have been chosen." she replies into respones to my question. " I call down the one who's wings have turned white." as she summons the unknown person i look to loki but he only backs
away from me and then i turn to the jury and the man who read my verdict looks to me and smiles and with a wink of his eye i am at comfort. Before i can say a word, a dark figure is infront of
me and god touches this person's head. "you have served your time, and now u may find peace in this kingdom, go forth." and with that said, he removes his cloak of black and his white wings
show from his back and his eyes, a green shade and his black hair is short length at his shoulders and he bows to her almightly and then to me. With that respectful exit he leaves. The jury is
still in the room and i am at bit, very scared. She comes down to me and says, "you are chosen to take his place, as the angel of death." and instantly i am furious, i the reason i committed
suicde is to finally be at peace, not to take on the job of death. "I will NOT." i say still very raspy but strong enough to get a reaction. And instantly, i regret saying it because the
face of god has changed and she is not very happy. "You have NO CHOICE. you have committed the sin of sucided and must be punished. but as your punishment, you WILL become the angel of
death, like it or not." she walks towards me and kisses my forehead and backs away. I am instantly risen above the floor and this pain shoots from the back and then it becomes intense,
too intense for me to handle and i scream and angonizing scream, that is so loud that the jury, Loki, and God herself has to cover their ears so not to burst there ear drums.

The scars from the razor blades on my wrist are removed but the pain is instense and from whati can tell by the pain i have begun to sprout wings, black angelic wings of the raven, crowand hawk. My clothes are then ripped from my body but the pain is so intense that i am shaken down to sobs and groans because my vocals are so starained. Black slik is then wrapped
around my body. The front of me is covered by the silkto securly wrap my breast and it stops at my bare stomach. The remaining silk is made into a wrap skirt that is wrapped around my waist
and down to my feet, which still remain bare. When i had finally begun to calm-down a sharp-burning sensation is place on my stomach, the only scream i can muster is a groan of
agony while i am being marked in the lettering of,"ETERNAL" in the circular shape around my navel and i am dropped to the marble floor, hard. I land face-first and my wings inclose on my body.
Loki, finally moves towards me but God shuns him to do so, "let her do it herself. It always hurts the first time for everyone." Finally i bend at the knees and try to stand and i am
successful but i am weak and fall back down again. I am risen again not by help or myself into the air and then placed down, feet first into a hot black liquid and i recongize it as hot tar.
My feet are placed into it and i am screaming in agony, it burns the padding off of my feet and i cant stand it, i try and remove myself but i cant move. "This is the last part of you that
is human, it must be erased." god replies. She motions to Loki who runs to my aid and removes me from the tar and placed on the cool floor. My feet are inhuman and i feel less and less like
myself. I am standing on my own power and my breath is irreagular from the torture i have indured.

"The final step...is one that i hate to do but it is required." she says with sadness in her voice.She walks towards me and places her hand on my chest and in an instant she rips out my heart and i can only scream so loud that i have attracted an audiance with my vocal in agony. When she has finally gotten my heart she throws it into a blue-inferno, where it is gone into the flame.She relases me and i fall back on the ground and my eyes have turned black and have taken over the compelte eye. Loki rushes to my side and helps me up. I cant breath and i am shaken and have trouble forming words. "I had to do it, my child. you cant be death and still have a human heart,it is not the way." she says and then returns to her throne. I finally get my footing and i am on my feet and my beloved mother comes to me and bows down and then a scythe, is placed in her hands and she hands it to me, which i take without delay. "Angels. The Fallen. Come and welcome your sister into the kingdom and with open arms, she is replacing Azariel." they all come to me and hug me and bow down before my presence.

I look at there faces and i think to myself, what the hell have i gotten into. and worst of all:what am i suppose to do?

*TBC*