The Porcelain Doll

The Porcelain Doll

By: LadyVelvet18

What am I to you?

Just another useless thing?

A tiny rag doll to throw around?

A tiny puppet controlled by strings?

When this started out

You and I seemed to be one

You’re making me fall apart

Are you proud of what you’ve done?

You treated me like no one else

Like I was the only thing in your life

Since you’ve been controlling me

I want to cut away your strings with my knife.

But I’ve built my life around you

Like a house with sturdy walls

But when you leave, it will crumble

Leaving the house and me to fall.

I can’t take this anymore

With you controlling me

I feel you looking through my eyes

My vision is cloudy: my life I can’t see.

It’s like you’ve possessed my body

And taken over the controls

I feel like a robot around you

Hard, lifeless, without a soul.

And just like a porcelain doll

I sit and wait for your next move

What will you do to me next time?

Which part of my life with you remove?

I wait for you; I know it’s a mistake

Where have you gone now?

I don’t know how much more suspense

My body will possibly allow.

Will I really die in fear

Waiting for your touch?

Will I really die without a heart?

The thought is too much!

I am a porcelain doll

And I break within your grasp

Breaking my heart, unable to breathe

Can’t catch my breath, I have to gasp.

I am a porcelain doll

I show no emotions on my face

My eyes lifeless, staring straight ahead

While I sit sadly behind the glass case.

I am a porcelain doll

With my body cool and hard

I only appear fragile to you

But when you’re around, I’m on guard.

I am a porcelain doll

Sailing slowly through the air

I fall on the floor, my eyes look for you

But I’m old news; you don’t even care.

I am a porcelain doll

I mean nothing to you

Now that I’m dead, here’s the tragic thing

I can’t pick myself up and start anew.

That’s the life of a doll like me

I'm only used once, and then I'm done

I became dirt among the grass

As you, my owner, turned your back to run.