life of a cutter

hey my name is not important but i have a story for you i have been a cutter since i was 12 and i am 23 now. i usto cut because i got angry at the world and the i cut because i was sad but the truth is the only reason i cut was because i felt pain in my heart and soul that could not be released Thur normal means i loved my mom and she is gone a few of my friends are gone but the worst was when my best friend was murdered i decided use a tattoo as a way around cutting it worked for a while then i pierced my self a few times in a few places but it helped for a little but until i realised i cant change anything around me with it i have been able to keep from cutting for about a month now but i still get the urge i don't like it but it happens and if u are going to bad mouth me for it so be it thanks for your time lothous out