the mng ong of freedom

The meaning of freedom

She leans on the wall the cold from the stone seeping into her even colder flesh.
She stares at a chubby cheeked child.
Her smile of sharp fangs sends him into screams. His sister just giggles.
She wonders if she will take the little girl for the night’s….entertainment…
Then casts the idea aside quickly.
Kids have too little blood she thinks.
Then she sees him…
Thin and lithe moving gracefully and uneasy in his skin.
Soft blonde hair caressing pale smooth cheeks.
She takes in his ratty tee shirt with the saying “vandalism is as beautiful as a rock in a cop’s face” and the black fishnet arm warmers over his upper arms and hands.
She wonders her eyes down to his tight black pants and huge boots
One look at the scars peeking out from the fishnet give her everything she needs to know.
Her crimson lips part and she calls his name “Shadow”
His eyes widen and he turns to look at her.
“Do..i…know you?”
“Does anyone ever really know anyone shadow?’
she reached her pale hand out to him.
He dint trust people …he dint like people but he took it.
The next minutes seconds day weeks..
He never knew really how long it was ..but it passed in a blur
The next thing he knew he was in her room. it was stark black and white
The rug a white cream color the walls black.
There looming like a gash of a bloody wound was the bed.
She led him to it.
Then pushed him down and slid gracefully on top of him.
Her green eyes seemed to burn holes in his soul.
“Do I know you?” he whispered
she leaned down her lips hovering over his.
He cringed back from her and tired to punch her hin tin the face.
“I’m not like that other girl” she said as she caught his hand
“I wont rape you”
His eyes grew wide “I must know you!!”
“My name was..lilly…..before I died”
She leaned down and kissed him and it all came back.
She had been his love and one night she had just disappeared.
Then shd shd showed up again and said “Let me do this one thing for you my love..before I go..”
Then she had reached into his mind and taken it out…
His father’s fists…his mother’s wandering hands…that whore who raped him..
She had fixed him..and taken herself out too.
She had given him his freedom..
Let him make a new life if he wished..
But she had been a new made vampire and the blocks had not held.
That…or….he had wanted them down…wanted her back..or maybe wanted back his pain
She always wondered if he loved her..or his pain more…
She dint let herself wonder if he had missed her.
She could not dwell on that idea.
She could not think if he had loved her.
He looked up into her eyes…brushed her hair from her face.
“Lilly….even when I forgot everything..i never forgot you.”
He tried to punch her and this time he did.
“You cunt!!”
“You left me!!” he sobbed
She took the punch with no words just moved down and held him hard to her while he cried.
“I loved you..lilly..i loved you..”
She held his gaze.
“I loved you too shadow”
“That was why I left…to give you your freedom.”
“To fix you to let you make your own choices.”
He moved into her arms let his lips crash into hers.
She pulled away.
“When I left you had never even kissed someone…” smilsmiled “You where the first just now”
She looked away.
“I’m not worthy…”
His hands slid over and under her shirt to her pale cool skin.
She looked shocked that he was touching her.
She kissed him again her lips moving on his biting and licking his mouth his tongue
She moved a hand under his shirt
“May I?”
“Do you mind?”
he grinned and bit her shoulder hard.
“I guess not “ she gasped
“Nope” he muttered into her soft hair.
“Nope “ she murmured back kissing his neck.
“Oh …..Lilly….ahhh…!”
he gasped as her fingers wonderver ver to his nipple then pinched.
“I love you shadow “ she bit his ear hard.
He moaned and wiggled under her.
“Lilly….“please ….”
Her look was unreadable.
“please what shadow?”
“Take me…make me yours…I’ve waited this long..”
She ripped his shirt off swiftly.
His pale from exposed to her hungry gaze at last.
Her eager red lips latched onto his candypink nipple.
Nipping sucking biting.
His hands tangled in her hair.

He ripped the bodice she was wearing down the front lace rent and torn.
She moaned as his questing hands sought her breasts rolling a tender nipple under his fingers.
Rolling off him she tore his pants from him throwing them over her shoulder.
“Hey I liked that out…fit.. his words trailed off as she pulled off her skirt and was suddenly naked before him.
She growled a bit and pounced on him again sliding herself on top of him.
He swallowed acutely aware of her skin on his.
Utterly aware of her sent …her lips…her shining eyes.
His nails raked on her back arms any skin he could get at.
His teeth sunk into her neck drawing blood marking her.
She moaned moving her hips on his.
“Shadow…..i missed you with all my soul”
“Lilly” his eyes drilled into her “You are my soul”
“I want to hear you scream” she whispered into perfperfect shell ear.
He smirked at her playfully.
“Why is that?”
“Because you’re a lovely boy and I’m sure you have a lovelier scream “
He shook his head. “I wont then if you want me to”
She slid off him.
“Fine…”
He blinked and looked over to where she lay next to him.
She wandered her hand down her belly..to her hips..to were she was wet and warm.
Her fingers dipped down and she tossed her head back and moaned.
His breathes came quicker as he watched her.
She looked over at him “What do you want love?”
“I want you…on top of me..i want to taste your mouth…and be inside of you.”
Then she was pressed on him again…nothing between them not even air…
His heart pounding for both of them….pounding for hers that never would again.
She leaned down her hair brushing his chin.
He arched under her.
Then she moved so he was inside her at last.
She leaned back on her hands her full breasts bouncing in the moonlight.
Faster and harder she moved slamming him into her core brutally.
He gasped painfully tossed his head back almost screamed….but held back biting his lips.
She growled loudly almost there…
His legs twitched his toes curled and he screamed in shock and pleasures unknown to him until this moment ….this girl….“OH…GOD….LILLY…”
She wailed like a lost soul seeking an end of it’s pain.
“shadow…” she whispered “my..shadow…” she said as the wave came at last crashing down on her.
The dawn came and found the two lovers in each other’s arms like twins in the womb.
She woke to his eyes on her.
“Lilly…”
“Yes my love my only?”
his blonde hair fell in his eyes ..he bit his red lips hard.
“I know you love me…so do something for me..”
“anything..my love anything..” she whispered as she held him stroked his hair..inhaled his skin’s sent.
“Kill me?”
“Kill me?”
Her eyes widened as she pulled away.
”what..?” she asked.
“You left before so the blocks would hold?”
he looked at her shaking the hair from his eyes
“yes…”
You knew if I saw you I would remember …..and you dint want that.”
“you gave me freedom one time…”
He looked into her eyes.
“why not now?”
bloodtears slid down her cheeks slowly
“I know I’ll never be ok…even when I dint know who I was…what had been done to me…”
“I still hurt…”
“I hurt so much Lilly and it never ends..”
She wanted to end his pain..it was making her feel.
The other reason she had left was he made her feel..care…love
A dead thing should not do that…she had thought as she walked away from him the first time.
She pulled his so close they were nearly one.
She held him tightly her arms wrapped around him.
“have your freedom my love..fly like the angel you are”
With love and blood in her jade eyes she shoved her hand thought his heart.
The pieces got all over the back of the wall, falling slowly dripping sliding.
His last words “t-hank..you…i..love..y-y-ou…”
She left after closing his eyes.


The music blared loudly as he tore her fingernails out.
She screamed and bled.
Just like he liked it.
“Having fun twat?”
he asked joyfully
the door opened in walked Lilly his partner.
“Where the fuck have you been?”
he pouted a bit.
“You missed most of the fun lil..”
“where were you?”
She looked at him feeling nothing, utterly blank.
“Killing my humanity”