Boyfriend Dearest

She walked away so sad and in shock. She had done everything in her power to please him, right down to giving up her virginity.

“I am such and idiot! What was I thinking? All he was in it for was the sex!” she screamed. She kicked herself for not listening to her mom; she didn’t even use a contraceptive.

“WHY DID I DO THAT!?” She always believed that Josh was the only one that would ever like her. Not because she thought she was ugly or stupid or fat or whatever, because she wasn’t. Casey had long dark brown hair, down to her ass, and brown eyes, she was really skinny…and had a nice chest, and a great personality…she never harmed a soul or back talked anyone behind there back, so she knew that couldn’t be the reason. It was because of her family life. Casey’s dad is an alcoholic and her mother is always caught up in something from arguing with dad, to helping her grandma and her brother out, to her work. She never has time to worry about Casey, as far as her mother knew Casey was a saint and never looked at her any differently. She always had a warm look in her eyes when she looked at Casey. And Casey never wanted to trouble her mom with petty problems, she has enough on her plate like her grandma’s insanity and her brother’s drug addict problem. What was she going to say to all her friends in school tomorrow when they wonder why she isn’t with Josh? What is everyone going to think? What is everyone going to say?

Valentines Day was coming up in three days. And for the first time in three years she wouldn’t have Josh as her boyfriend, her date. So many upset thoughts were whirling around inside her head. The strongest of these thoughts was, “suicide.”

Casey never believed in killing herself. She always said, “Life is too precious to end.” But now she was thinking differently. Now she felt dead; without Josh how could she go on? For the past three years she has been 100% dependant on him. They went where he wanted, did what he wanted, and had sex when he wanted, which was their first and last time... Now she couldn’t even remember who she used to be, who she was now. She had become an entirely different person, and to her it seemed like it happened overnight. She had lost three or four friends because she had changed so much, and she never seemed to have time for them anymore.

When Casey got home, the house was empty. Her dad was probably still at the bar and would be for another four hours, and her mom was still at work, or maybe a crew party. She walked around her dark house, turning on a light here and there. She slowly approached the kitchen, her eyes locked on one thing, “the knife drawer.” She drowned out all her other thoughts. She couldn’t think, she couldn’t feel; she was numb, numb and dead…

By the time Casey snapped back to reality, her arm was oozing out thick, red, salty blood. She felt a sharp pain coming from her arm, and she realized what had happened, what she had done. She began to panic, what should she do? Is it too late? The cut was real deep she knew that nothing she tried would stop it from bleeding. She started to feel lighted headed; she opened her mouth to utter a slight syllable. Nothing. She was much to weak to scream, and even weaker to hold herself up any longer. Casey fell to the floor and a puddle of blood encircled her body.

“Casey? Casey honey, its mommy. Wake up darling.” Casey’s eyelids fluttered open.

“Ma—mom?” Casey was so confused. She couldn’t remember what happened. Where was she?

Her mother sensed her bewilderment, and sat next to her. She took hold of her hand, “My darling, you are in the Daisy General hospital. Sweetheart, what happened?” Her mother was always so understanding, and calm when it came to Casey. Casey didn’t know where to start, so much has happened to her in so little time. And Casey didn’t want to burden her mom. “Well? Casey my darling, since when do we have secrets between each other?” her mother said impatiently. “If only you knew mommy” Casey thought, “if only you knew.”

Casey really didn’t have the time or energy to argue any more. Her eyelids felt hot and then her cheeks, she realized she had broken out with a flood of tears. She was crying hysterically. And she spilled her whole story to her mother. She told her mother how she had sex with Josh and didn’t really feel ready, and how she had gotten herself pregnant, by the time she was done her story, both of them were crying. “Oh my darling, what have you been through? I am such a horrible mother. I am so sorry my sweet, sweet Casey…”

Casey had to stay in the hospital for a week. When she got back to school, all her friends hovered around her wanting answers to why Josh was with Amanda and not her. Casey explained it as quickly as possible. To her surprise her friends were supportive, things started to look up. “Where were you all week Casey?” Tiffany, her best friend, asked as if she knew there was more to the story. Then Tony McLean walked up and spoke for Casey. “She was sick, I was supposed to bring her, her homework but I got tied up in wrestling,” he turned to Casey with that sexy twinkle in his eyes “I am sorry about that Casey.” He smiled, which brought a smile to her face. This brought more curiosity to her friends; Tony McLean was the hottest, and the most popular guy in school! Casey gave her friends a look that meant she wanted privacy, quickly her friends scattered. “So, why did you do that for me? I thought you were Josh’s friend” Casey snapped, she couldn’t help being so sceptical of his kindness. And the way she said Josh’s name it was as cold as ice. Nervously Tony answered, “Well, I like you Casey. And to tell you the truth I always have. I honestly don’t know what Josh sees in Amanda. She has got to be the easiest girl in school! And you have got to be the hottest” he blushed.

“Well, maybe that’s what he likes, and maybe that’s what you’re looking for too! Did Josh tell ya that I am easy or something? Is that why you came over here to my rescue pretending to be my knight and shinning armour??” Casey retorted. She could tell right away Tony was shocked and hurt by her accusation.

“Umm…no Casey believe it or not I am interested in you as a person, and not what you have to offer between your--”

“Offer!? I have nothing to offer the likes of you and your kind!” Casey shouted which drew attention to herself. She lowered her voice to a whisper, “so Tony will you just please tell me the real reason why you are here?” She was having a hard time trusting guys, especially since Tony McLean never bothered to give her a second glance.

“Look Casey, I understand that you are hurting--”

“HURTING!? Ya that’s an understatement if I ever heard one!”

“Please just let me say this will ya?”

“Fine. But make it quick; I have made a rule not to talk to players for more then five minutes!” Tony sighed, shook his head and took a deep breath.

“I have always liked you, and I really do understand how you feel. And I would just like to make this clear right here and right now, I am not a player…my heart has always been for you!”

Casey’s jaw literally hung. “So will you please give me the honour of going to the movies with me this Friday?”

Casey agreed, not because she was a sucker but because she was already late for class and she could see there was no point in arguing with him.

Friday night…

That whole week Casey had avoided her friends. How could she explain to them why Tony wanted to go out with her and why he was paying attention to her when she didn’t even know?

She wore casual wear to her “date”. “No point in dressing up for a let down…” Casey thought. Just then there was a soft knock at the door, “everything alright in here?” her mother asked with a smile on her face and a warm glow in her eyes. Ever since Casey’s little “episode” her mother took more time off work. Casey felt simply awful for giving her mom another burden, and something else on her plate. Her mother came to check on her ever hour on the hour…it made Casey feel sick, and the morning sickness didn’t help. “Yes mommy, I’m just about ready. I can’t decide weather to wear my hair up or not…” Casey’s mom smiled and said calmly, “I thought you weren’t going to worry about your appearance?” That left Casey speechless, her mom was right. Casey was doing what she swore she wouldn’t, care about what Tony thinks of her. But she decided to wear it down anyways…

The movie was almost over and to her surprise; Tony was a complete gentleman the whole time. He walked her home since the theatre was walking distance away. They joked and laughed and she was having a great time…when they got to her front door she allowed Tony to kiss her, but the kiss was more erotic then she would have liked. It started off calm and slow, but then he pulled her in hard and massaged her tongue against his. She felt tingle and started to breath heavy. She was getting all hot and bothered. His hand moved up and down her thighs and around to her ass. She squealed when he squeezed it. He moved his hand gently around her genitalia, she moan…

She could feel his hard manliness pressing hard against her. She pulled away and noticed that her blouse was opened revealing cleavage. She quickly covered herself.

“Tony, I like you I really do, but this is only our first date and you are moving much to fast for me…” her whole body was throbbing with temptation. She wanted it and he could sense that. He smiled and brushed her cheek softly with the back of his hand, then moved his fingertips to the back of her neck letting his thumb rest on her cheekbone. He pulled her in again, this time slower for another passionate kiss. Soon he had her panting for more once again. He cupped his hand around her breast, kissed her cheek and moved his lips down to her neck, and back up to nibble on her earlobe. She smiled, he knew exactly where to touch her, kiss her, he knew everything. It was as if he had her likes and dislikes memorized. It was frightening and appealing at the same time. He led her to the side of the house where there was a perfect place to lie, kissing her the whole time.

“I’m not the kind of girl you think I am Tony…” she said as she moaned between breaths, she really wanted him...

He took off his jacket and placed it by the surrounding bushes. He smiled again, “lie here…” he pointed, and she did as he said…

She was very nervous, her and Josh had only had sex once and it wasn’t exactly pleasurable to her. Tony gently unbuttoned the rest of her blouse, and kept kissing her. His lips pressed hard against hers, and the kiss was so wet and juicy. He moved his lips down to her breasts kissing all the way down to her stomach, teasing her with his tongue on her pelvic bone. She closed her eyes and when she opened them again he had his pants off and hers too, revealing everything, she must have zoned out again due to all the excitement.

When he entered her his lips pressed hard against hers to muffle out her painful moans. He moved like a stampede of horses, up and down. He was so sweaty, his six-pack so perfectly shaped. She opened her eyes to see his beautiful blonde hair droop over his dark blue eyes. He had such a deep perfect tan, “everything about him was perfect”, she thought. When he reached his climax it was over, the passion, the erotic touching, gone…or so she thought. But he still kissed her and lay beside her, holding her, touching her, breathless. “Casey..?” He said as he sat up still out of breath. She was shocked. What had she let herself do? This wasn’t like her, but she never felt this way about anyone, not even Josh. In the whole three years they had been together, she had never felt this way at all. Did this mean that she loved Tony?

“Casey?” he began to panic. She zoned out, and wasn’t paying attention to him. He gently shook her, she snapped back to reality. He smiled at her. “Are you alright?” he asked her with concern. He had the same warm, caring, loving glow in his eyes as her mother does. She sat up to his level and gave him long warm hug, “I’ll be fine,” she whispered. He pulled away, “Casey I have something to tell you…” he bit down on his lower lip. “This was it…” she thought, her smile fade away. “This is when he is going to tell me he just used me.” Tears sat, burning on her eyelids.

“ I am madly, deeply, totally 100% truly in love with you Casey Lee Gamble.” She was so overwhelmed and shocked; she couldn’t do anything but cry and smile. He kissed her and wiped her tears away. He rubbed her cheek with his thumb, “I mean it Casey I do love you.”

“I love you too Tony…” she said through her tears…she choked back the rest of her tears. Feeling a bit embarrassed. “So I guess this means that you are my girlfriend now, right?”

The thought hit her now. She was no longer single. She was now in another relationship. She was happy and scared at the same time. Then it occurred to her, Tony doesn’t know I am pregnant with Josh’s baby…how was she to tell him?

“Umm…before we discuss that, I feel there is something you should know Tony.”

“Sure, what is it?” She hesitated. “Casey…you know you can tell me anything right?

“Yes. Just please be patient. I am not quite to sure how to tell you this…but I guess there really is no easy way to tell you. Tony… I am pregnant.” She bit down on her lower lip, “with Josh’s baby…”

He thought a moment. Then his face lit up and he had that same “cool, slick, coy” smile he always wore, “its alright…if you want I can take the place as the father? I mean I have a good job and I am getting a nice place of my own this month, I can support you and a baby. If you want that is…” who was this guy she thought? Did this guy just drop down from heaven? If there was one thing she knew it was this “this guy is one of a kind”

“Umm…ya sure.” She smiled.

When Casey went to school the next day she walked around holding Tony’s hand and smiling, she knew everyone envied her. This was the second sexy man she had on her arm.

Valentines Day was tomorrow. She wondered if Tony was going to get her anything…

Valentines Day…

When Casey woke up she smelled the sweet aroma of pancakes, her favorite breakfast. When she walked into the kitchen to her surprise her dad was wearing a suit and tie, and had shaved! And her mom and dad were kissing and hugging…

“Wha--” when she spoke that startled her parents. They cleared their throat and went about there business. “What’s going on here?” Casey asked with surprise.

Her mother explained that her father had landed a good job, and they decided it was less stressful for Casey if they all get along.

Casey was delighted! Her life was so perfect now…

All through breakfast she talked up Tony, and how wonderful he was and what he suggested. Her parents raised they eyebrows every now and again out of shock and approval. Casey quickly finished breakfast and was about to leave when a mustang convertible pulled up, and a horn honked… “Who could that be?” Casey thought.

It was Tony; he came to pick her up for school…he walked to the door with a dozen roses, a box of chocolates and a cute little teddy bear. Casey introduced Tony to her parents and they were pleased with him.

When they got to school EVERY girl was jealous as hell over Tony. He had to leave early to prepare his “other” gift. When he left, Josh walked up to Casey. “Hey, how are you?”

Casey glared at him with a hot flaring look in her eyes, “I was good but now I am shitty, what the hell do you want Josh?” he fidgeted a bit.

“Well I was wondering what you are doing this Monday?” she couldn’t believe this, the nerve of him, cheating on her then asking her out again!

“Please leave me alone, Josh you’re the one that cheated on me and I don’t really have anything else to say to you, so please go away!”

Josh stormed out of the building; everyone could tell he wanted Casey back. But she wasn’t stupid enough to take him back. Later on that day, Casey was paged to the office.

When Casey got to the office her parents were there, they were crying, and Josh was in handcuffs. Her mouth dropped. Her eyes wandered to Josh’s t-shirt; there was blood all over it. Her eyes filled with tears, she new something happened and it was going to hurt her…

“Casey…we have some bad news for you,” her principal said. “Josh here…” he turned and glared at him angrily, then turned back to Casey and smiled sympathetically, “well he, he---”

“He what!!” Casey snapped. It was enough of beating around the bush. “Well, darling its about Tony…” her mother said in her usual calm, comforting voice. She was so tired of people being nice; all she wanted was the truth!

“What about Tony?” again she looked at the blood on Josh’s shirt. “is he alright??” she now began to panic and her heart felt heavy.

“No, honey he is not alright. Tony is, well honey he is dead…” her mother said in the nicest way possible. She bit down on her lower lip. Casey quickly grabbed onto a chair, she felt so lighted headed. How could this be happening? Only two hours ago he was preparing for her surprise…Casey immediately looked at Josh, who had is head down.

“YOU! I am so tired of you and how you keep ruining my life!”

Casey looked at the desk and saw the weapon he had used in a police bag, she ran over to it, ripped the bag opened and stabbed Josh repeatedly until he was dead. She had acted so quickly and suddenly it surprised everyone, no one could think or get to her in time. It was too late.

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