The fallen one

The fallen One.


He walked fast , or should I say I? for in my mind this story is about me, for the anger was still alive and burned in his veins. What was he so eager to get away from?

It had happend some days ago when he had come home from school and where trying to realax after a hard day that his mother comes into his room screaming at him then he was "a lazy bum that does nothing but sitting on his ass and letting it grow"! Like she where some kind of Miss Perfect! So he had rushed out from his home or that he later wanted to call it "Home" and he was so angry! Did she realize that the school these days where very demanding?! She probably didn´t... He was walking so fast that his legs started to hurt and he sat down on the weat grass and screamed at the sky "Why can´t I be a normal person?! Why can´t I feel love anymore?!" This was true he had stoped feeling love ever since that horrible day his grandmother had died...She who was the only one that he could feel love from and for... Then he had a idea , "I will stop eating for ever! Or atleast untill love finds it way back into my heart!" He walked to the only place where he could find peace , in a forest not to far from the city , he sat down on the log that where some inches over the ground and he thought deep thought of the girl he loved... She where so beatuifull that nothing could match her. Sure she didn´t use make-up and she didn´t where sexy cloths but there where something about her smile and the way she just where! When he sat there his mobile made the sound of that he had got a messege anf he looked at it "food in 30 min".

When he sat the the table he just tasted the food and had it in his mouth so he could spit it out in the bathroom "Never to eat until love finds me!" he said to himself...

later that week he was in the livingroom and watching TV when his mother came in and told him that he should start exersice beacus he looked fat. Then all hell broke lose... His blue eyes where filled with a hellish flame and his voice where unlike it ordenary sound it was.... Dark... "LISTEN! I AM TIRED BEACUS OF SCHOOL! CAN´T YOU LET ME REST FOR 5 SEC WITHOUT TELLING ME i´M FAT?!"
"so just beacus you are tired you will have it going out over me?!"
"WHY NOT?! YOU ALWAYS TAKE IT OUT ON ME! AND FURTHER MORE I THIN...." He couldn´t say more all was black and he felt a cold feeling in all of his body as he fell down on the floor and still he felt hatred toward his "Mother". Hated her so beacus nothing he did was right! this hatred burned him into his very heart and would always be with him...

When he woke up he was in a hospital bed. The doctor stod by the bad with his mother and talked. "...He looks like he haven´t eaten for some days just been drinking and not much of that either I´m afraid if he don´t eat soon we have to force feed him..."He sat up in his bed and screemed while he was pulling out his needles so his blood was poring down on the floor. "I don´t want food! I don´t deserve it! You can´t force me!". He tried to say more but a team of guards came running in to the room and forced him down on the bed and there they restrained him. While he was screeming "YOU CAN´T MAKE ME A PRISSONER IN THIS ROOM! I´M A LIVING HUMAN! I NEED TO BE FREE!". The doctor aproached with a needle with some drug in it and was about to sting him with it when he screemed. "DON´T PUT THAT NEEDLE IN ME! THEN I WILL ONLY BE A SHELL OF MYSELF! WITHOUT A SOUL". The doctor backed away in fear and let him be... he turned to the boys mother and said "can I see you outside the room for a while please?". She noded...

When he woke up the following morning he was shaking for he had no water i his room and that he was bound to the bed... Then the hatred toward all the world came back to his mind... He hated them so much he just wanted it all to end... But in the darkness he saw light... it was her... But he knew that she was out of reech for him. Sure they where friends and she had a boyfriend... But he couldn´t help it... He loved her. He tryed to tell him that he had no chanse with her... Then all of sudden it all became very clear to him wath he needed to do. "Realise me... I... I need to go.... I want to die in... in the forest..." The doctor walked in with his mother. She was crying... "We have decided to start you on a treatement to force feed you so you wont die.".
"No! You can´t make me! I don´t want to! I NEED TO DO THIS!". The doctor looked scared at his patient and then to his mother "We can´t force him miss, if he want to leave that is by his own free will and let him do so , he is old enough..." She noded... The doctor set him free and he tried to stand but almoast fell down... but took help from the bed and started to wander the corriodors while the doctor whisper to the mother "He will soon collapse and then we will get him back here"

He looked confused in the corridors but still knew where to go. He didn´t need any new clothes beacus he wored the samle cloths as the day of his collapse and he knew where this hospital where... It was 10 miles from his "home"... But he started to walk. He walked and he walked and he felt how his energy was draining...

When he looked up he saw the forest... "Soon there!" he thought for himself....But first he needed to pass by the girls house... He walked close to the house and saw into it... Not a soul... but there down by the hill he saw the familys car pulling up and he frose with fear... "They can´t see me here". He ran out on the street and started to walk.

"...Drive all that way and he is not there...." The father said and the he looked at the boy sitting down in the mud. There eyes meet "There you are! We thought you still where at the hospital! all cure then?"
"no..." He said while struggeling to get up "sicker then ever" he said with a croced smile and he showed himself for the first time in a long time.. His goldish brown hair was dirty and his glases where dirty and he looked so skinny to be a human.... (He haden´t eaten for 3 weeks). "Is you daughter here?" he asked while he sounded rasping like a crow... "Yes she is on her way... She wanted to walk the last bit... get a look at the wiev you know..."
"Tell her then that I love her , and that she should not try to find me.... For I am dead to the World..." And then he walked of...

When the girl had reached the top of the hill she looked at her father and asked " What is wrong?" and he told her the whole story...

"No...He couldn´t! Where is he now? I want to find him!"
"You shouldn´t follow him.... He looks like a mad man... let him go where he pleases... He will probably be back soon." He said this words with a smile on his face and his daughter just stormed away to find him....

She saw him at the brink of the forest and she scremed his name in the wind but he just ignored it...

She ran up to him and stoped him. "Hey why didn´t you stoped? I want to talk to you abou...." she stoped there beacus he had turned his face to her and she saw how hollow he looked and with his eyes burning with hellish flames and she let him go. He walked as fast as he could beacus the moment she touched him he felt how everything had start to fall apart in him...
She brought currage to herself and took i him again and said " Why won´t you talk to me?! I need to talk to you!"
"What is there to talk about?!"
"Do you meen what you said about loving me?" she said this with a low vocie so it was almoast unheardalbe in the wind..
"Yes...Above anything..." when he said this the fire died in his eyes and tears came out fromes his eyes like the just had made the fire go out....
"So why are you running from me?! I need you here by my side!"
"You have a boyfriend that is his job! I don´t want to be in the way anymore! I can never bring you happiness! I can´t feel love! I don´t know how it feels like!"
"Then look at me! For I love you! and I will walk thorugh anything with you if you just want to be with me!"
"I want to be woth you! but I can´t I will only bring missory over us! And I want you to be happy!" He said this while he was crying and then he slowly turned away from her and started to walk... She fell down on her knees and started to cry... But he walked....

He walked to the log and laid himself right beside it and he was so cold... Dead cold.... Then he closed his eyes and waited for the embracement of death! Then he felt something. It was not cold and scary but sort of warm and fuzzy. He looked beside him and there she where laying beside him... the huged eachother...

They woke up the next morning and where both happy and laughed and talked as they walked home... And who know what the futere had in store for them....

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Author:

This is my first fan fiction and I hope you all like it, I am sorry for the spelling but I suck at writing in englsih but I hope you all will be able to reed it anyway. I haven´t named the charachter beacus they are not fictions of my imaginations but they are persons in real life... The boy is me and the rest is just fic accpets the girl and that I live her is true but if she loves me I don´t know... This is what I think of when I am sad and down. And I thought that I could wite it for once! So this is take from my heart. Please rewiev this story!!!