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Descend the Stair

By: RhineGold
folder Angst › General
Rating: Adult +
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Descend the Stair

Title: Descend The Stair...
Note: These were the third and fourth, respectivly, in a series of self-imposed writing prompts.

I:

I hate you.

Words practiced in front of a mirror that can never seem to fall off my tongue as I stare at your face.

But I do have you.
Sort of.

I don't like you.
That's better.

I love you.
But I don't like the person you've made me.
I don't like the face that I see now, in the mirror, when I practice breaking up with you.

All of the hot water is long gone, so I shut off the tap. The room is cool as I attack my skin with a faded towel, pulling off dead skin and turning my pale flesh to a reddish hue.

There is no need to dress, because there is no one here to dress for. You're not home again, and, once more, you haven't called, and I think I do hate you for that.

There is nothing but cool cotton here with me as I throw myself under the covers of the bed.

The bed.
Our bed.
Not my bed.
Your bed.

I have ransomed my place in your life with my body, and you have earned your place in mine by stealing away the tiny pieces of my heart.

I have given you all of myself, which you readily accepted. You even give parts of me back again on occasion, although they've grown so different in your hands that I hardly recognize them.

But I do love you.
But I do hate you.
And you don't seem to notice either one.

"I think I've already lost you.
I think you're already gone,
I think I'm finally scared now,
You think I'm weak -- I think you're wrong.

I think you're so mean -- I think we should try
I think I could need -- this in my life
I think I'm just scared that I think too much
I know this is wrong, it's a problem, I'm dealing...

There's an awful lot of breathing room,
But I can hardly move...
'Cause there's a little bit of something me
In everything in you..."
-Matchbox 20, "If You're Gone"
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