Love and Loss
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Adult +
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1
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842
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Love and Loss
Author Notes- Okay, so this never REALLY happened, but some of it is true! My lover did kill herself after we broke up and I did have a cutting problem, but everything else I added for texture.
This is to my dearest Shane, I will never forget you!
Love and Loss
Her soft and gentle hands worked at the tense flesh on my back. After a long day, this was heaven. But as soon as it began, she stopped.
“What’s wrong?” I asked, but when I felt the cool metal upon my back, I understood.
“I don’t think that a simple rub will do today.” She said as the blade slowly began cut my skin.
“ I love you, baby.” I moaned out as the scissors continued to slice my back. My muscles relaxed as a wave of pain flooded through my body.
“How are you doing?” Her gentle voice reminded me she was still there as I lost myself in the tickling sensation that came from the metallic blade.
“More…” I whispered. She heard me and dug the blade in a little deeper. I could feel my blood rolling down my back. But for the second time that day, she stopped.
“Is there something you’re not telling me?” I asked as I reentered my reality. I turned around to see tears rolling down her eyes. I ran to her side and rapped her into a loving embrace.
“Do you ever feel like it’s wrong? That cutting yourself to relieve your pain is only bringing more?” She asked. I remained silent as I took in those words.
“What are you saying, Shane?” She coughed and continued to cry.
“I can’t do this anymore. I love you too much to do this to you. I love to cut and be cut, but this is too much. What if you die? What if I die? Have you ever thought about that?” Her sobs grew more in volume as I stared shocked at her.
“Shane, you found someone else. I know it, you did, didn’t you?” She cried harder than ever, but I no longer cared. My anger had the best of me.
“You little whore, you found someone else. After everything I went through to get away from my old life, after everything I did for you and this is how you thank me? Bullshit, Shane!” She slapped me. I had gone overboard again.
“I don’t care anymore, okay! I did find someone else! She loves me and is helping me to stop cutting. Yes, I’m leaving you because she doesn’t have much time left. I love you, but you expect to much for me.” She left me. That was the last I saw of her. And then there was the accident.
3 Days Later
I had gone crazy! I quit my job, got so drunk, and cut myself to almost death. She still wasn’t mine again. I now lay alone in a hospital bed with a letter from my love.
‘Dear Jeck,
I’m sorry I left you. The woman I ran away with has died from cancer. I’m afraid to say that I won’t be coming to see you. As a matter of fact, I’m probably died as you read this. I didn’t stop cutting and I’m going crazy without you and my other girlfriend. So, I’ve decided to end my life as well. I don’t need this life anymore. Good-bye love!
-Shane’
Of course, I had also gotten a newspaper that day to find her death on the front page.
[CANCER VICTIM’S GIRLFRIEND FOUND DEAD]
I was no longer sane. One more death wouldn’t matter. I took a needle off the table besides me and I plunged it deep into my heart. But it’s okay, I was already dead without my love.
This is to my dearest Shane, I will never forget you!
Love and Loss
Her soft and gentle hands worked at the tense flesh on my back. After a long day, this was heaven. But as soon as it began, she stopped.
“What’s wrong?” I asked, but when I felt the cool metal upon my back, I understood.
“I don’t think that a simple rub will do today.” She said as the blade slowly began cut my skin.
“ I love you, baby.” I moaned out as the scissors continued to slice my back. My muscles relaxed as a wave of pain flooded through my body.
“How are you doing?” Her gentle voice reminded me she was still there as I lost myself in the tickling sensation that came from the metallic blade.
“More…” I whispered. She heard me and dug the blade in a little deeper. I could feel my blood rolling down my back. But for the second time that day, she stopped.
“Is there something you’re not telling me?” I asked as I reentered my reality. I turned around to see tears rolling down her eyes. I ran to her side and rapped her into a loving embrace.
“Do you ever feel like it’s wrong? That cutting yourself to relieve your pain is only bringing more?” She asked. I remained silent as I took in those words.
“What are you saying, Shane?” She coughed and continued to cry.
“I can’t do this anymore. I love you too much to do this to you. I love to cut and be cut, but this is too much. What if you die? What if I die? Have you ever thought about that?” Her sobs grew more in volume as I stared shocked at her.
“Shane, you found someone else. I know it, you did, didn’t you?” She cried harder than ever, but I no longer cared. My anger had the best of me.
“You little whore, you found someone else. After everything I went through to get away from my old life, after everything I did for you and this is how you thank me? Bullshit, Shane!” She slapped me. I had gone overboard again.
“I don’t care anymore, okay! I did find someone else! She loves me and is helping me to stop cutting. Yes, I’m leaving you because she doesn’t have much time left. I love you, but you expect to much for me.” She left me. That was the last I saw of her. And then there was the accident.
3 Days Later
I had gone crazy! I quit my job, got so drunk, and cut myself to almost death. She still wasn’t mine again. I now lay alone in a hospital bed with a letter from my love.
‘Dear Jeck,
I’m sorry I left you. The woman I ran away with has died from cancer. I’m afraid to say that I won’t be coming to see you. As a matter of fact, I’m probably died as you read this. I didn’t stop cutting and I’m going crazy without you and my other girlfriend. So, I’ve decided to end my life as well. I don’t need this life anymore. Good-bye love!
-Shane’
Of course, I had also gotten a newspaper that day to find her death on the front page.
[CANCER VICTIM’S GIRLFRIEND FOUND DEAD]
I was no longer sane. One more death wouldn’t matter. I took a needle off the table besides me and I plunged it deep into my heart. But it’s okay, I was already dead without my love.