Flowers Under THe Table

Thoughts

I guess that sometimes we don\'t always realize it when we hurt people. I guess people don\'t always realize when they hurt us. Are we hurting other people because we\'ve been hurt? Or are we hurtung people for spite? I didn\'t know that not talking to someone you love for a long period of time on purpose was actually considered hurting them. Apparently heartache is easy to achieve. You can put a person through a life time of pain and agony without even knowing it. I know you can... i\'ve done it. . Dating. Love. Heartbreak. Why are they always so important? Why do people date? Why do they love? Why do they go thoough heartbreak? Questions even the best of us cannot answer. As a hopeful writer and a hopeless romantic, i can\'t possibly find answers to these questions. If you lose the love of your life...could you ever love again? if you find the love of your life...could he or she ever leave? So much stress and time are put into relationships, is it worth it at all? Can we be forgiven for a mortal sin commited against our other halves, our partners,our lovers? You see it in movies and you read about it in books but is love really as simple as people make it out to be. You want my opinion? i don\'t think it is. i think it takes work and time. I think a person should know what their doing before they do it.
I\'m a very argumenitive person. So when a person says something i know is wrong i always have to have a say in it, whether i know this person or not. I guess that\'s why i don\'t have a lot of friends and people don\'t like telling me their opinions. But that\'s okay with me becuase i know i\'m right and it shouldn\'t matter what i say to anyone. I\'ve argued with people over the smallest things. I once knew a girl who thought she had it all. She wasn\'t rich and she wasn\'t poor. She was in love with a boy very much like her. She had been adopted by her parents, and his parents had abandonded him. He lived on the not so good side of town and she lived on the more priveleged side. His name is, or rather was Dylan, and her name...well her name is Holly.
Holly and Dylan are both seventeen years old. They lived in Potland, Oregon.They go to different schools and have differen\'t lives. How did they meet then? My name is Holly Rooka and i\'m going to be telling you a story of tragic love, heart break and pain, between three bestfriends and their lovers.


Chapter 1
Holiday Downtown
(Holly)

Holly is a senior in high school and gets well over average grades. Dylan is also a senior in high school who happens to get better grades than she does. Sasha never went to parties and went out unless she was with her two bestfriends. Kristy Gloh, me Holly Rooka and Sasha Trenton had been best friends since the sixth grade. We go to the mall every other weekend when we got our allowences. This weekend Sasha and Kristy are staying at my house. There\'s a big party held for the seniors of Portland county. All the schools will attend and be able to party without interference. We were to sneak out of my house at 7 sharp. My parents didn\'t approve of the party and i had to go. \"Come on Sasha let\'s go.\" Kristy and i treid to pull her out of the window. \"You guys i don\'t want to go. What if we get in trouble or something?\" \"We won\'t, come on there\'ll be a lot of cute guys there and i want you to get a boyfriend.\" My boyfriends name is Dylan Wolf. He is the president of ASB and goes to the highschool on the opposite side of town. Also attending Dylan\'s school is John Billson star quater back and boyfriend of Kristy and best friend of Dylan. \"I don\'t want a boyfriend.\" \"Yes you do their the best and they can do these things that will drive you nuts.\" Kristy and i giggled at each other. \"What\'s that suppose to mean?\" Sasha asked us. \"Well.\" Kristy began. \"You\'re still a virgin Sasha and you haven\'t experiecned the touch of a man.\" \"I don\'t care about that kind of stuff, i don\'t have the time for a boyfriend right now. School is way more importnt than any guy.\" \"You say that because you\'ve never had a boyfriend in your life. When you get you first kiss or your first time. You\'ll change your mind about having somone do something for you once in a while.\" I told her. We pulled her out of the house and and we walked to Jimmy Lancer\'s house so he could give us a ride in his new Honda Prelude.
When we made it downtown the party had already started. \"So Kristy. When you gonna leave that football star of yours for a guy like me?\" \"As soon as you become more popular then he is.\" She laughed lightly. I got out the car and Dylan met me outside.\"Hey baby.\" He kissed me on the forehead and i hugged me tight. \"Did you miss me?\" I asked him. \"Oh...yes.\" He leaned down and planted a searing kiss on my lips. I remember because my crotch rubbed violently over his, sending shivers through my body. \"John came out and met Kristy too. Jimmy walked Sasha to the door. \"Since you don\'t have a date for this function. How about you and i enter together. Just as friend i mean.\" \"Sure, i guess i\'d like that.\" Jimmy had a crush on Kristy and Sasha had one on him for a while but that was a long time ago. I knew Sasha secretly liked a guy at school and she always tells Krsity and i everything but for some reason she never told me. I walked in with Dylan on one side of me and John and Kristy on the other. Dylan and i sat down and started making out but i could see where Sasha and Jimmy were going. They looked happy and Sasha looked content.
Tyler stood on the other side of the room with his friend Ryan. Tyler went to the same school as Dylan and John so they knew each other pretty well, and hung out every once in a while. Dylan and John left to get a sodas and that\'s when Tyler approcahed Kristy and i. \"Hey. You guys from West Park, East Port, or BriggsView?\" The three schools that attended the event were the only school in Portland worth attending. If you went anywhere else then you porbably were in Summit. A school for a the zero tolerance kids. I spoke first. \"West Park. And you two?\" \"EastPort. Ya\'ll Seniors or just dates for the senior guys at West?\" \"No we\'re seniors to.\" I stood and shook his hand. \"My names Holly and this is my friend Kristy. Who might ya\'ll two be?\" \"I\'m Tyler and this is my friend Ryan. We came over here to ask ya\'ll if you\'d like to dance.\" \"Well Tyler i\'d love to dance but you see that boy over there with the green shirt at the soda machine?\" He turned around and took a quit glance. \"Lemme guess. Tha\'ts your date? And you\'re Holly Rooka?\" \"Yeah. How\'d you know?\" \"Everybody knows you Holly. You\'re dating the most popular guy in our school. And everybody knows Kristy because she\'s dating our quaterback. Plus i hang out with Dylan after pracitce sometimes. When you\'re busy with your girlfriends. \" I was in awe. I didn\'t know Dylan had friends besides John, and i didn\'t know he told everyone at his school about me. \"If you really wanna dance.\" I told him. \"My other friend is here and she ain\'t got a date.\" I pointed to Sasha and he looked her way. \"She\'s real cute.\" \"Yeah and she\'s single. I\'ll be right back.\" I walked over to the DJ booth and grabbaed Sasha hand. \"Where\'s Jimmy?\" \"Dancing with some pretty girl.\" \"Come one there\'s someone i want you to meet.\" Pushing her in between Tyler and i, i said, \"Sasha i\'d like you to meet Tyler. He goes to EastPort, he\'s looking for someone to dance with.\" Tyler stuck out his hand and grabbed hers. He kissed it lightly. \"It\'s a pleasure to meet you Sasha. Would you like to dance with me?\" She blushed and it showed all across her face. \"I don\'t know if should.\" \"Come on just one dance and then maybe we could sit down and talk a while.\" \"O..okay.\" They walked hand in hand to the dance floor. Just Sasha\'s luck, it happend to be a slow song. Tyler put his arm around her waist and pulled her close.\"So Sasha is there a last name for the pretty little lady?\" \"Trenton...you?\" \"Adams.\" \"You\'re not from around here are you.\" She looked up from the floor. \"No actually i moved out here from Memphis last year.You can hear my accent huh?\" \"Only a lot.\" \"I\'m sorry.\" \"Don\'t apologize. I like it. I think it gives you character and makes you differen\'t from all the idiot boys out here.\" \"Well i\'m glad.\"
After the song was over and Tyler let her go, she said, \"I think i should be getting back to my friends now.\" She looked over at our table and saw me sitting in Dylan\'s lap whispering in his ear and Kristy being tickled by John. \"Maybe if you wanted you could come and talk with me outside for awhile.\" \"My friends do look busy, maybe just for a while there\'s kind of a chill out tonight.\" He put his arm on her shoulder and they walked to the door. I looked up and saw them leaving. \"Hey ya\'ll look. Sasha\'s leaving with Tyler.\" We all turned around to see. \"I\'m so happy she\'s finally got someone.\" Kristy said. \"Oh hush Kristy, it took you forever to start going out with John, even after he asked you like sixty times.\" Dylan said back. I kissed Dylan on the cheek and whispered in his ear again. \"Let\'s go to your car.\" He kissed my neck and we got up. \"Where are ya\'ll two lovers goin\'?\" Dylan turned around and simply said. \"To the car.\" \"Ya\'ll leaveing?\" John asked. \"No, Holly just wants to get to know me a little better.\" \"Use protection Dylan.\" I pulled Dylan outside. We kissed all the way to the car. i missed him. It had been a week since i saw him because last weekend was God Dog otherwise known as Girls Out Day, Dudes On Guard. Basically it means that the girls are going out and the guys are not welcome. Kristy Sasha and i had been doing this since about tenth grade. We didn\'t invite the guys because Sasha didn\'t have one to invite. She was always so caught up in school that she never paid attention to any guys looking her way. It\'s a shame, Sasha\'s the prettiest out of us all. Even though me and her can pass as twins somethings. Her hair is a light brown and mine\'s a dark red. Kristy is way different cause her hair is black with blond tips. She thinks she\'s some kind of rocker. But the truth is she only does that because John is big on girls who like rock music. He plays the guitar for a band that won\'t make it but won\'t nobody tell him that. On our way to the car. We stop and continue to kiss in front of the flag pole in the grass. \"The two a ya\'ll having fun?\" I pushed Dylan away to see Sasha and Tyler sitting on the bench behind us. \"Sorry guys. We were just leaving.\" \"Holly!\" Sasha looked mad. \"Sorry Sasha, i haven\'t seen him all week. We\'re leaving right now.\" I took his hand and we made our way off the grass. When we finally made it to the car i took his shirt off and he laid down and streched out in the back seat. I climbed on top of him and began to kiss his chest. \"I missed you Holly.\" Dylan told me as he pushed his pelvis into mine. \"I missed you more.\" He sat up and pushed me back into the window and forced his body onto mine. His kissed my lips and left them bruised. \"Dylan, make love to me.\" \"In the car?\" \"I haven\'t seen you in a week and i can\'t wait until Tuesday to see you.\" \"Why do we have to wait until Tuesday?\" \"Because i have an audtion Monday for that piano school in California and you have that meeting about where prom is going to be.\" \"Then why can\'t i see you tomorow?\" \"Lara and Mitch are taking me to see his parents up in Kotsworth.\" Lara and Mitch aren\'t my real parents. I got adpoted before i could remember what my mother looked like. Same goes for Sasha, that\'s why we\'re so close. \"Do you have to go?\" he looked sad. \"Yeah, apparently Mitch\'s mom wants to see me now. Its been almost three years since i\'ve seen them.\" \"When are you leaving?\" \"Tomorrow at 7 in the morning. Its a four hour drive to Kotsworth from here, and they wanna make sure i get to spent time with poor grandma and her new rich husband.\" \"Dammit! We don\'t even see each other anymore. If your not at pracitce then i have a meeting and then this kinda crap happens.\" He was really upset and i was sure we weren\'t going to do anything that night, so i held him in my arms and he laid down on my chest. \"You love me don\'t you Holly?\" \"Of course i love you.\" He sat up and looked at me.\"Marry me Holly Jade.\" My whole first name, which no one called me except him. \"What?!?\" \"I want you to be my wife. Move in with me. Become Holly Jade Wolf.\" I was speechless. I was in love with Dylan, i had been for years, but marriage? \"I don\'t know Dylan, maybe that\'s not a good idea.\" \"Why not, we\'ve talked about this before. You wanna get married don\'t you?\" \"Yeah but i have school to think about and i\'m suppose to be moving to California.\" \"I\'ll go with you we can be together.\" \"I\'m not even legal yet.\" Dylan was eighteen already, which meant we weren\'t suppose to be dating. but we had been together since our tenth grade year and i wasn\'t going to leave him because the law said it was wrong. Anyways my birthday was just a few months away. \"Do you really think i care if you\'re not able to be with me. I love you Holly, you know that. And i\'d never do anything to hurt you. That\'s why we have to do this. You can show Lara and Mitch how much you\'ve grown.They never wanted us to be together before and now look at us. They love me. Holly please.\" His hands were so tight on my thighs that they were starting to ache. I opened the car and got out. \"I can\'t do this, i\'m sorry Dyl.\" I ran back to the grass and stopped just as soon as i got to the flag pole. What i saw set my heart on fire. Sitting on the bench and wrapped up in each other sat Tyler and Sasha. They were making out. I didn\'t even know Sasha knew how to do that. I snuck passed them and made my way back into the ball room. \"Back so soon?\" Kristy said. \"Seems like Dylan wanted a quicky tonight.\" \"Shut up Kristy.\" I said. I ran into the bathroom crying. I looked in the mirror and saw Dylan and i together and apart. I loved Dylan with all my heart, but i couldn\'t marry him because college for me was days away from my home and he was supposed to be going to Boston. How could i ever ask him to leave all his dreams so i could achieve mine? Just then Sasha and Kristy walked in and hugged me. \"What\'s wrong Holly? I thought you and Dylan were having fun. Did you two get in a fight. He looked kind of upset when he came back inside. \"He asked me to marry him.\" I said still sobbing. \"How could he do that, how selfish.\" Sasha said. \"No, he\'s not being selfish, he\'s being and idiot.\" Said Kristy. \"No you guys. Please stop. Dylan is just trying to look out for me.\" \"We know that. We\'re just had to convince you. We know you love Dylan. You two have been together longer than i remember. I don\'t care what you try and tell me Holly. I\'m not going to force you to marry him but in all actuality it would be for the better. You have been together the longest and yet you don\'t see each other half as much as Krsity and John do. Your schedules clash so much that you don\'t see each other sometimes for a couple of weeks at a time. If you\'re married then you\'ll see each other when you get home.\" \"I\'m scared Sasha. I\'m scared that he\'ll see things differnetly when he has to see me everyday.\" The bathroom door opened and i watched Dylan come inside from where i stood by the mirror. He walked up to me and kissed me like he had never kissed me before, so soft and inviting and pleading as if to say \"Holly you\'re the only one for me and i can\'t live without you. I won\'t live without you.\" He released his hold on me and backed away to see my face. I was flush and breathing uneasily. I looked at Sasha and Kristy they were smiling at me and Dylan was frowing. \"We can love each other and be together now or we can go our seperate way before one of us really gets hurt.\" I jumped into his arms and i didn\'t even have to say a word. \"I knew you loved me Holly.
By about eleven we were all tired, and John had practice in the morning. We all said goodnight and got Chelsie to give us a ride home. Jimmy had left with some girl. When we snuck back in my parents were still asleep. I had neglected to tell Dylan that Kristy and Sasha were leaving with me in the morning. My room phone rang and i ran to pick it up while we got in the bed. \"Hello.\" \"I just wanted to see if you got home okay. I\'ll call you tomorrow after i take John home from practice okay.\" \"Okay, i love you Dyl.\" \"Love you Holly.\" Just then Mitch came in to check on us. (knock knock) \"Come in.\" \"Who was that Holly?\" \"It was just Dyl he wanted to say bye before i left.\" \"Alright. You girls okay in here.\" \"Yes Mr. Rooka\" Sasha and Kristy said in unison. \"We\'re fine dad.\" \"Okay goodnight.\" He closed the door and left. I always thought of Mitch as my father but when he and Lara told me they weren\'t my real parents i had felt bad about calling him dad since he wasn\'t my father, but every now and again i slipped up and said dad. \"Hey Sasha. What happend to Tyler?\" He had to get home. I gave him my number. He said he\'d call me monday after school.\" \"So...\" \"And i really like him.\" \"How was your first kiss?\" \"It was like heaven, all i could feel was his lips touching mine and his hands gently rubbing my thighs.\" \"Oh yeah you had better keep him.\" \"I think i will.\" We all giggled and fell asleep soon after.