From the Side Lines
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Original - Misc › Non-Fiction/True Stories/Autobiographical
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
1
Views:
856
Reviews:
2
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of non fiction. Where possible - and where appropriate - permission has been granted from any people or their descendants to be included in this story. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
From the Side Lines
I did this for all the good reasons...
I\'m going throu the suffering, for all the right reasons....yes..
I look at the letters I have written, with all my heart and soul. But have yet to send.
Now glow empty at me.
My fingers tremble, as I rip one after another. Letting my heart be ripped and fall to the ground.
I did this for the right reasons.
I can not bare it any more. I can not see you in such a state.
To see you cry, to see you slowly turn from your true friends.
All cause of me.
I can\'t listen to you, when you tell me you hate them, when you wish to be away from them. To run and scream, to hurt yourself.
All cause of me.
I can not watch you, throw yourself away, just for me.
I want you happy and with me. Your smiles have become less and your tears became more.
I did this, all for the right reasons.
It hurt me inside. To see what you were doing to yourself. Refusing to eat for your mind refuses too. To lose weight, to turn away from everyone. I can not bare it. You are not happy...
Your friends tell you to leave me, and yet you only turn from their words and hold onto me, telling me you love me. Telling me you wish to stay with me, to be away from every one else. To tell me life is a living hell, when I am not there with you.
Your health is more imporant to me, then my own emotions.
So here I stand, alone once again. I have broken your heart, with mine as well. I could not stand by and let you hurt yourself, let you punish yourself.
I left you, for the right reasons.
And now, from the side lines I see. With my heart ripped and my tears wanting to fall.
I see you happy.
Your life is back, your pain is gone.
I am but a memory.
I watch you as you laugh, standing with your friends again. Whom tell you, how proud they are. That you are not mine.
I watch and I wish to cry. But I know I can not.
I took the role, of being your nightmare. I took the role.
To hurting you and now I must stay.
How I wish, I could run to you, and hold you within my arms again. But I can not.
I said so much hurt-ful things
I have done the most curel things.
I have made you hate me and wish me gone.
I know, we could make it work. But I have ruined that hope.
I know... I could make you happy. Even when my mind told me I could not.
So from the side line. I hold my vow tightly. Feeling no warmth in it.
I have given you something, that surpass everything else I laid in your hands.
I give you back your life.
I give back your happiness.
Even thou, it shall kill me.
To see you laugh and smile
To see you fall for someone else.
Even thou it will leave me battered and bruised.
It will leave me cold and empty.
I want you happy.
Even if I must suffer for it.
I\'m going throu the suffering, for all the right reasons....yes..
I look at the letters I have written, with all my heart and soul. But have yet to send.
Now glow empty at me.
My fingers tremble, as I rip one after another. Letting my heart be ripped and fall to the ground.
I did this for the right reasons.
I can not bare it any more. I can not see you in such a state.
To see you cry, to see you slowly turn from your true friends.
All cause of me.
I can\'t listen to you, when you tell me you hate them, when you wish to be away from them. To run and scream, to hurt yourself.
All cause of me.
I can not watch you, throw yourself away, just for me.
I want you happy and with me. Your smiles have become less and your tears became more.
I did this, all for the right reasons.
It hurt me inside. To see what you were doing to yourself. Refusing to eat for your mind refuses too. To lose weight, to turn away from everyone. I can not bare it. You are not happy...
Your friends tell you to leave me, and yet you only turn from their words and hold onto me, telling me you love me. Telling me you wish to stay with me, to be away from every one else. To tell me life is a living hell, when I am not there with you.
Your health is more imporant to me, then my own emotions.
So here I stand, alone once again. I have broken your heart, with mine as well. I could not stand by and let you hurt yourself, let you punish yourself.
I left you, for the right reasons.
And now, from the side lines I see. With my heart ripped and my tears wanting to fall.
I see you happy.
Your life is back, your pain is gone.
I am but a memory.
I watch you as you laugh, standing with your friends again. Whom tell you, how proud they are. That you are not mine.
I watch and I wish to cry. But I know I can not.
I took the role, of being your nightmare. I took the role.
To hurting you and now I must stay.
How I wish, I could run to you, and hold you within my arms again. But I can not.
I said so much hurt-ful things
I have done the most curel things.
I have made you hate me and wish me gone.
I know, we could make it work. But I have ruined that hope.
I know... I could make you happy. Even when my mind told me I could not.
So from the side line. I hold my vow tightly. Feeling no warmth in it.
I have given you something, that surpass everything else I laid in your hands.
I give you back your life.
I give back your happiness.
Even thou, it shall kill me.
To see you laugh and smile
To see you fall for someone else.
Even thou it will leave me battered and bruised.
It will leave me cold and empty.
I want you happy.
Even if I must suffer for it.