Can I?
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Category:
DarkFic › General
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
1
Views:
687
Reviews:
1
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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This is a work of fiction. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Can I?
Have you ever had something to tell someone, but didn’t know how to say it? When you came around to saying it, it was at the wrong time…in the wrong way? Something happens and you completely screw up something you thought was going well? Something that was with a person you adore and cling to?
Can I ever heal this pain?
Can I make it go away?
I collapsed on the couch after it was done. I couldn’t bear it anymore. This pain…this horror…this…this…this feeling within me has completely shattered. I stare at the phone, trying to figure out how to piece myself back together. Things like this are why I can’t cope with anything. People…feelings confuse me. And misunderstandings are the worst of them all…I hate it, I hate it!
Can I ever heal this sorrow?
Can I make the hurt vanish?
I’ve wandered into the kitchen now. The mirror hanging over the sink reflects someone I haven’t seen in forever. His normally bright eyes are sunken in, lined with sorrow. His scars are more prominent in the dim glow of his eyes. His skin is pale and clammy. Red streaks ran down his cheeks. I follow them with my fingers…they sting. I hate crying. The salt hurts my scars. This stranger was familiar yet a stranger. He’d been gone for years. Heartbreak…hurt…that brought him back. He is the one side I’ve tried not to become. Now…now it is too late…
Can I ever heal this wound?
Can I make the sting leave?
Nothing can calm this raging war within me. My brain screams, my heart wails…Silver glitters in my hand. The once beautiful platinum is now stained with red. So many memories, so much pain…all vanishing. One last time…this will only take one time…Forever is now, now is forever…
And pain will be no more...
Can I ever keep you safe?
Can I make myself someone you’d be happy with?
All I see now is light. Light and white…white light…blurring slurring spinning…cold, so cold…warm yet cold. Warmth on my arms…flowing…glowing…spinning. Stains…I don’t have strength anymore. I stare, seeing yet unseeing, up towards the light. It’s so bright…I don’t understand this pain. My ears are ringing. My head is pounding. I move my hand slightly. Ah! Something cold yet warm…slippery. I turn my head slightly. Silver? That’s right…It must have been too deep this time. This time…not much can save me this time…
Can I ever be free?
Can I make you free with me?
Will you save me?
Can I ever heal this pain?
Can I make it go away?
I collapsed on the couch after it was done. I couldn’t bear it anymore. This pain…this horror…this…this…this feeling within me has completely shattered. I stare at the phone, trying to figure out how to piece myself back together. Things like this are why I can’t cope with anything. People…feelings confuse me. And misunderstandings are the worst of them all…I hate it, I hate it!
Can I ever heal this sorrow?
Can I make the hurt vanish?
I’ve wandered into the kitchen now. The mirror hanging over the sink reflects someone I haven’t seen in forever. His normally bright eyes are sunken in, lined with sorrow. His scars are more prominent in the dim glow of his eyes. His skin is pale and clammy. Red streaks ran down his cheeks. I follow them with my fingers…they sting. I hate crying. The salt hurts my scars. This stranger was familiar yet a stranger. He’d been gone for years. Heartbreak…hurt…that brought him back. He is the one side I’ve tried not to become. Now…now it is too late…
Can I ever heal this wound?
Can I make the sting leave?
Nothing can calm this raging war within me. My brain screams, my heart wails…Silver glitters in my hand. The once beautiful platinum is now stained with red. So many memories, so much pain…all vanishing. One last time…this will only take one time…Forever is now, now is forever…
And pain will be no more...
Can I ever keep you safe?
Can I make myself someone you’d be happy with?
All I see now is light. Light and white…white light…blurring slurring spinning…cold, so cold…warm yet cold. Warmth on my arms…flowing…glowing…spinning. Stains…I don’t have strength anymore. I stare, seeing yet unseeing, up towards the light. It’s so bright…I don’t understand this pain. My ears are ringing. My head is pounding. I move my hand slightly. Ah! Something cold yet warm…slippery. I turn my head slightly. Silver? That’s right…It must have been too deep this time. This time…not much can save me this time…
Can I ever be free?
Can I make you free with me?
Will you save me?