My own flesh and blood

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I am happy now. This is the only situation that I am happy at. I finally found him. And yet, I know that in few months I’ll be sadder than I have ever been in my whole life. In two months he’ll be at some ways gone. We got to go back to home.

Why did I realise him just now? Why did I find him at all? If he’d wake up just now, he’d be surprised. Surprised, ‘cause I’m crying. He’s sleeping right behind me, lapping me so sweetly. And I’m so happy, finally feeling I’m somewhere safe.

Why love is so tricky?

Well, as someone said it, love is a timing quest. That sure is true, but why my timing is always wrong? Well, not always. I can enjoy the sweet nectar of love for a while now, but soon it’ll be gone. That’s wrong, a wrong timing. Though, in this relationship the timing will always be wrong. That’s funny; we’ll never get a real chance.

Is spring a wrong time to fall in love? I thought that when it’s spring, everything is good. It actually is so, now it’s spring and everything’s all right with him. We lucky bastards! At least we can really have each other for this time. That’s only because some of our friends left to a holiday and we’re “guarding” their house.

This first week has been just awesome. We’ve just been together, which is really rare in our relationship. We’ve been making good food and making love, and that is really nice, ‘cause usually we only have time to have quickly sex and all the time watching that there’s no one around. Then we’ve also been just talking a lot and cuddling. I never get to cuddle with him at home! I can never just lay on his lap and watch TV. Now I can.

All this makes it really hard to go back to home. There I can’t do anything with him and that sucks! It’s only been a week now and I’m already getting used to this. This just makes me want to cry even more! I try to sob quietly, but it’s just so hard.

He’s waking up right now, shifting in his little sleep. He tightens his hold on my waste and snuggles his nose against my neck. Little kisses laying on my neck and shoulder.

- Why are you crying, honey?
- I… I just thought about going back to home.
- Well, don’t
- But I can’t help it!
- We have this time right now and we’re not going to waste it. He says and turns me around on his arms, so that I’m facing him as he lays a kiss on top of my nose
- But…
- Promise to me, now will you? He demands and as he looks deeply in to my eyes I can not resist and I say yes to him
- Oh well, I’ll try…
- Well, that’s a start, he says and kisses my tears away his hand slowly caressing my check. He starts to move his hand all along my ribs and waste, it makes me smile. It always makes me smile, when I know we are going to make love slowly and sweetly, with no hurry. We don’t often have time for that in home. Well maybe when our parents are away for a longer amount of time.

I don’t really realise how much time passes, till we’ve had our moment of pleasures and a bit of talking afterwards. I think it was quite amount of time, because now it’s morning and he has just few minutes ago fallen asleep. Sun is rising and it colours the room all blue, because the curtains are blue. This is my blue moment of this summer. This is my most precious memory of this whole summer.

After that spring, for the rest of my life, I couldn\'t truly love anyone anymore, except fpr him.

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A/N
So that was that.