Eternally Ablaze

Eternally Ablaze


The club was dark, the only lighting coming from the colored lights decorating the room and the signs for the bathrooms. There is a staircase at one end, leading to the few rooms that can be rented for $40.55 a week. Modern heavy metal music blasts from the speakers hanging from bars in the corners of the room, blaring above the murmurings of conversation coming from the clubbers on the dance floor.

Hidden in the shadows next to the window Kanin watches Tobias from across the crowded room. His eyes are half lidded and filled with a longing that was quickly turning to concern as he notes the way the younger vampire flinches away every time one of the many dancing humans brush against him as he weaves through the crowd.

Kanin’s silver eyes flash as an obviously drunk hooker steps up catching the brown haired vampire’s elbow and whispering into Tobias’s ear, flashing a suggestive smile and showing with her body posture that she is extremely interested. Tobias backs away and Kanin sees the flash of pain that crosses his face before he forcefully pushes the scantly dressed woman from him. Kanin’s fist clench at his sides as the woman purposely ignores Tobias’s uninterested glare and grabs Tobias’s thin shoulders, rubbing her body against his and attempting to force him to dance with her. Tobias grimaces slightly and Kanin notices that his eyes have turned from a light hazel to a fathomless black that glints red as the light reflects off them. Kanin steps away from the shadows hurrying toward the other end of the dimly lit room, his concern for Tobias overcoming his wish to remain undetected by the younger vampire.

“Come on honey, dance with me.” The drunken hooker slurs latching onto Tobias’s hand and trying to swing him around, her sour breath choking the vampire‘s senses.

“No!!” Tobias hisses trying to ignore the pain that is shooting through his wounded side as the woman continues to pull him into the mass of swirling humans. He yanks his hand away and white dots dance before his black eyes as the quick movement makes him gasp as pain burns through his nerves.

“Please,” The drunken hooker makes another grab for his hand and he trips backwards only to be steadied by a hand that presses lightly but firmly against the small of his back.

“Look lady he isn’t interested, alright?” Tobias feels like a bucket of freezing water has been emptied over his head as the extremely familiar baritone voice speaks up next to his ear, recognizing it over the sound of obnoxiously loud rock music playing from the speakers in every corner of the room.

“How would you know?” the hooker retorts stepping closer and eyeing Tobias hungrily. Tobias bites back a yelp of pain as she suddenly leaps forward her hands jabbing against his chest and forcing him backward into the arms of the startled silver eyed vampire that catches him around the waist and hisses threateningly at the drunken lady baring his fangs, the woman‘s eyes widen and with a frightened eep she flees into the crowd.

“Are you alright?” Kanin asks helping Tobias back onto his feet, not trusting his voice at the moment Tobias nods and pushes away from the older vampire. Kanin’s hold suddenly tightens around Tobias’s waist and the older vampire leans forward sniffing him, his breathe tickling Tobias‘s neck and sending shivers of unwanted desire running down the younger vampire‘s spine making his heart race.

“You’re bleeding!” Kanin’s voice surprisingly holds concern and, Tobias isn’t at all surprised to hear the undertone of lust.

“It’s nothing.” Tobias states averting his eyes from the piercing silver ones that bore into him, lying even though he can feel the warm blood seeping from the reopened wound and soaking through his white cotton tee shirt, sticking to the inside of his black leather jacket.

“Like hell it’s nothing!” Kanin snarls into his ear then quietly, as if he is apologetic, asks, “How bad is it really?”

“I said it’s nothing now fuck off!” Tobias snaps shoving Kanin away. Kanin catches his hands and pulls him closer until their bodies are nearly touching, staring regretfully into his face and seeing the obvious pain that reflects behind the expressionless mask that had been pulled over Tobias‘s eyes the moment Kanin had revealed himself.

“Come on,” Kanin says, his voice acquiring a commanding tone, “I have a room upstairs.” Tobias hisses at him but doesn’t resist as Kanin pulls him toward a stairwell on the far side of the crowded room weaving through the mass of dancing humans.

Kanin leads Tobias by the hand up the stairs, which is a difficult task since Tobias keeps trying to yank his hand away. Kanin pulls Tobias down the hallway and stops at one of the many unremarkable doors, he unlocks the door and swings it open forcing himself to let go of the younger vampire as they step inside closing the door behind them.

“Take off your jacket.” He orders. Tobias glares at him but obeys, unzipping his jacket and sliding it off his arms. The nearly irresistible smell of blood immediately gets stronger and Kanin sees the dark red stain that covers most of Tobias‘s right side.

“by the gods!” Kanin exclaims stepping toward Tobias ignoring the suspicious glare he is receiving as he unbuttons the blood-covered cloth.

“You call this nothing?” he demands gaping at the deep slash on Tobias’s chest.

“It is nothing.” Tobias defends pushing Kanin’s hands away and trying to button up his shirt with hands that shake with something other than pain and the need to drink. Kanin places his hands over Tobias’s and gently press them onto Tobias’s chest, the younger vampire backs up until he is against the wall.

“Kanin please, don‘t.” Tobias’s voice is soft, but Kanin sees the look of panic that is forming on Tobias’s handsome face as the brown haired vampire refuses to meet his eyes, the older vampire knows that Tobias is revisiting places in his memory are they had been in similar situations, most which had not been entirely pleasant.

“Tobias look at me,” Kanin orders, Tobias again tries to shove him away. Kanin reaches up and catching Tobias‘s chin forces the younger vampire‘s head up, “I’m not going to hurt you,” Tobias’s gaze remains averted.

“Love, please look at me.” Tobias is visibly startled at Kanin’s use of the undeclared forbidden word and involuntarily glances upward.

As soon as Tobias’s brown eyes met Kanin’s silver ones Kanin reaches into Tobias’s mind with his own meeting only a weak resistance as he hypnotizes the stubborn vampire. He is slightly surprised at how easy it is to control Tobias’s mind, usually he would have had to use up a lot of his energy.

“We need to get you cleaned up.” Kanin states feeling Tobias‘s mind fight against his and unconsciously tightening the invisible bindings he has erected on the younger vampire’s mind, then without breaking eye contact he intertwines the fingers of his right hand through Tobias’s left and pulls the now unresisting vampire towards the bathroom. Without turning to look Kanin turns on the sink and pulls a towel from the cabinet dunking it into the rush of lukewarm water.

“I’m going to break eye contact,” Kanin purrs hypnotically gently squeezing Tobias‘s hand once before letting go, “you’re not going to move.” Tobias stares at him with hazy eyes that held a quiet trustfulness that seems alien on the younger vampire’s face. Kanin looks away and hears Tobias’s slight gasp as he ‘awakes’ from the mind spell Kanin had put on him though he is still unable to move. Kanin wrings out the towel and steps close to Tobias ignoring the soft protest that came from the other vampire as he proceeds to peel off the blood stained shirt.

Tobias shudders as the wet cloth touches his skin making his side and chest sting as the crusted blood is slowly wiped away. Kanin is kneeling on the tiled floor in front of him one hand on the wall behind Tobias, the other pressing a wet towel to the slash that went from just under the left side of Tobias’s collar bone to his right hip ending right before the hemn of his black painted on leather pants, Tobias can feel Kanin‘s breathe ghosting over his bare skin and bites his lip trying to stop his body from reacting to the older vampire‘s closeness. His entire body flinches as Kanin leans forward suddenly and laps up a few drops of new blood that are oozing slowly from the cut, closing his silver eyes as if savoring the taste, then he returns to cleaning the rest of the crusted blood off glancing up at Tobias’s face apologetically as he feels the younger vampire’s body tremble.

“What did this?” Kanin asks angry that anything would dare hurt his life-mate as he wipes off the last of the blood and reaches for the first aid kit under the sink, pulling out the white bandages and tube of Antibiotic.

“None of your business.” Tobias snaps then blinks in slight dismay as Kanin flinches at his dismissal statement.

“I‘d like to know,” Kanin whispers in a hurt tone squeezing some Antibiotic onto two of his fingers “I know you don‘t believe me but I care for you, a lot.” Tobias glares at him hating the way he desperately wants to believe his life-mate, even though he can’t bring himself to do so, carefully Kanin rubs the cool gel onto Tobias’s chest pausing every few seconds to squeeze more antibiotic onto his finger. Kanin bandages up Tobias’s chest then standing, gives the younger vampire permission to move and goes to the closet where he pulls out an unbloodied shirt for Tobias to wear.

“Here.” he states passing it to Tobias, the younger vampire pulls it over his head carefully so not to bump the newly bandaged wound.

“Thanks.” He answers smiling slightly at Kanin; the older vampire nods accepting his gratitude. Tobias moves toward the door and picks his jacket off the floor where he had dropped it, the smell of blood on it hits him hard, reminding him that he had not feed in weeks. He slides his jacket back on and bites his lower lip as the hunger flashed over him, Tobias knows that he needs to feed soon. Desperate for any distraction Tobias finds himself studying Kanin, gazing at the vampire whom he hates as much as he loves and needs him.

Though the older vampire’s back is turned Kanin can feel Tobias’s eyes on him, he pivots and regards the brunette. Tobias and Kanin stare at each other in an almost comfortable silence both able to smell the others evident arousal. Kanin knows better than to make a move on Tobias, though he knew the younger vampire is attracted to him as much or even more than he is to Tobias. But he knows that Tobias doesn’t trust him any more, maybe never will again; he had lost the brown haired vampire’s trust a hundred and twenty-eight years ago. Kanin can clearly remember that night, seeing the fear and anger on Tobias’s face that had covered the betrayal that he knew the younger vampire felt.

Over time Kanin had sought Tobias out again and again trying to make up for the pain he‘d caused, but the younger vampire had always left before Kanin could bring up the subject or else Kanin would again harm the younger vampire by pushing to hard and asking for more than Tobias could give. The last time they had met they had ended up fighting, claws and fangs tearing at skin and ripping clothes inside the confines of a dark graveyard, bodies slick against the wet grass that left green stains all over their clothes. Tobias had won that fight, stabbing Kanin in the side of the neck with a syringe filled with a new drug that Kanin can’t now remember what it is called, the drug had felt like fire in Kanin’s veins, burning underneath his pale skin and causing him to scream in agony before he fell into blackness. As painful as the drug had been it had felt like nothing compared to the pain that had ripped through his heart when Tobias had, upon removing the needle from his neck, whispered that he still loved the older vampire. For reasons that are his own Tobias had dumped Kanin in the older vampire’s car’s trunk so he’d be safe when the sun rose, then the brunette had left without a trace changing his identity and starting a new life among the mortals. That night had been the last Kanin had seen of Tobias until now, though the younger vampire had always remained in his thoughts.

Tobias’s gaze sweeps over Kanin’s body as if he is trying to memorize every curve, every live. And he is, Tobias has not seen his older lover in many years and doesn’t know when he would next. To him Kanin looks younger than he ever had before, his night black hair is cut short following the current style instead of hanging down to the small of his back as Tobias had always remembered it. As always Kanin is well dressed, wearing a dark blue turtleneck and almost white slacks, he pretty much completely clashes with Tobias’s street cloths.

Kanin swirls his tongue around in his mouth remembering the taste of the few drops of Tobias’s blood, it was old,
meaning that Tobias hadn’t fed in at least a week, he caught the younger vampire‘s eyes.

“You haven’t been feeding.” he accuses softly Tobias nods even though it isn’t a question then looks down as Kanin‘s eyes bore into his. Kanin moves forward until he is standing in front of the younger vampire and raises his hand, touching two of his fingers to Tobias’s neck, the pulse is weaker then he remembered it ever being.

Kanin opens his mouth to speak but Tobias looks up suddenly, glaring into his eyes defiantly, daring him to say anything. Kanin closes his mouth and looks back slowly lowering his hand and swearing silently at himself for not noticing how weak Tobias is earlier. He had been so delighted to see the other vampire he hadn’t actually looked at him, now he does. Tobias is paler and thinner than he remembers, his cheeks are hollowed slightly, and his posture which usually clearly showed his defiance and independence now shows a silent smoldering defeat, what has defeated him Kanin doesn’t know.

“What happened.” he asks gently, he sees Tobias’s jaw clench and knows what Tobias is going to say even before he opens his mouth. He is shocked when Tobias doesn’t tell him to fuck off.

“Why should I tell you?” Tobias barely whispers, there is none of the normal fire in his words. Kanin is taken completely by surprise to see tears in he other vampire‘s eyes, he moves forward knowing there probably isn’t anything he can do but hating seeing his life-mate like this.

“Because I’m your life-mate.” Kanin whispers just as quietly raising hand to brush his fingers over Tobias’s cheek.

“That excuse is really getting old.” Tobias counters reflexively even as he leans into the caress his eyes closing. Kanin rubs his thumb over Tobias‘s temple, he leans forward until his lips touch Tobias. Tobias’s eyes open an all to familiar expression of barely concealed fear shadowing his eyes.

“Kanin.” Tobias moves to pull away but Kanin catches his arm, Tobias looks up into Kanin’s eyes and seeing the look in Kanin’s eyes causes the tears in his hazel eyes to fall as his fragile control over his emotions collapses.

Surprised Kanin wraps his arms around Tobias immediately, trying to sooth the other vampire. He pets gently down Tobias’s back, feeling the tense muscles beneath leather jacket and the borrowed shirt. He speaks in a soft calming voice to the other vampire, the words don’t matter but the soothing tone is noticeably affecting his life-mate. The brown haired vampire visibly relaxes into Kanin’s embrace his head tucking against the older vampire’s collar as he tries to fight back sobs that are choked in the back of his throat.

Kanin leads them to the bed, sitting down and pulling Tobias into his lap. Tobias’s body is shaking as he soaks in the comfort Kanin is offering, his eyes are shut tight like he‘s afraid that if he opens them this will all be a dream. Kanin turns Tobias around so that the other vampire’s back is against his chest, he cradles Tobias for a moment running his fingers through his life-mate’s hair and purring slightly. Then he bites into his own wrist and presses it to Tobias’s mouth, Tobias’s eyes half open at the smell of the blood. He turns his head away even though Kanin can see he is aching for the blood, the older vampire growls and presses his wrist against Tobias’s mouth. Tobias growls back and tries to shift away and get his mouth over the cut at the same time. He lips gently at the cut for a few moments then presses his mouth to it sucking gently at first but as the blood replenishes his veins he sucks harder, biting into Kanin’s wrist for more blood and moaning at the bitter sweet taste.

Kanin continues to hold his wrist to Tobias’s mouth until the other vampire has fed enough that his cheeks are tinted a slight pink, then he pulls lightly at his wrist. Tobias’s mouth releases his skin then he leans back against Kanin feeling the new blood rush through him. He purses his blood stained lips together and turns in Kanin’s lap, straddling him, his hands finding their way to Kanin’s thighs. pressing his lips to his collar bone, then slowly traveling up his neck, tongue flicking at the skin of Kanin’s jaw before he dips in and kisses his life-mate firmly on the mouth. The metallic taste of blood passes from Tobias’s tongue to Kanin’s as Tobias presses his tongue into the other vampire‘s mouth.

“Tobias,” Kanin pulls away, as much as he wants Tobias to continue he knows the younger vampire is only doing this because he is being made irrational by the new blood. He also wants to know what happened to his life-mate during the time they were apart.

Tobias’s hands grip Kanin’s thighs, fingers digging harshly into the skin, claws growing out and pricking through the near white pants and leaving dots of blood. With a growl he kisses Kanin forcefully his teeth growing out and biting into Kanin’s lips, his tongue presses in again and rubs against the roof of Kanin’s mouth. Purposely slicing his tongue open on Kanin‘s fangs Tobias lets his blood pour into the other vampire’s mouth. With a groan Kanin wraps one of his hands around the base of Tobias’s neck as his other wraps around the younger vampire’s waist, pulling him closer.

Kanin moans sharply against the younger vampire’s mouth as Tobias forces his back onto the bed. Tobias’s body covers Kanin’s as his hands stroke up Kanin’s torso pulling at his shirt to reveal the well muscled abdomen. His fingernails drag over Kanin’s stomach earning a quick intake of breath from the older vampire. As their bodies rub together Kanin worries about the bandages on Tobias’s chest and tries to shift their weight so it doesn’t chaff.

Tobias’s thigh presses between Kanin’s legs and his mouth roams down the other vampire’s neck, nipping and sucking the skin between his teeth. Kanin grips at Tobias’s brown hair and wraps his legs around the younger vampire’s waist, arching his neck into Tobias’s not so gentle attack.

A soft cry forces from Kanin’s throat as Tobias pulls back.

“Lights.” The younger vampire mutters then turns over and slides off the bed. He flicks off the light switch against the wall and moving to the bathroom turns off the light there as well. He heads back toward the bed in the now dark room, he slides his jacket off and drops it to the floor. His hands find Kanin’s as the older vampire holds out his arms toward him. His fingertips tiptoe down Kanin’s arms and even in the dark Kanin can see the smile ghosting over Tobias’s face. The younger vampire again straddles him as his fingers grip the collar of Kanin’s shirt, in one move he rips the fabric apart and leans his head down biting Kanin’s left nipple. Kanin cries out softly as Tobias sucks the rosy nub.

Tobias’s hands move down to the older vampire’s belt and tug at it. He swirls his tongue around Kanin’s nipple, licking at the small droplets of blood and sweat that pepper the older vampire’s chest.

“Tobias, please .” Kanin pants as the younger vampire finally undoes his pants and slides them down his legs. The clothing is discarded onto the floor and Tobias leaps forward attacking Kanin’s mouth with his own. His fingernails drag down the inside of Kanin’s thighs, initiating breathy moans from the older vampire. Kanin’s hands claw at Tobias’s back, shredding his shirt off as their tongues battle ferociously inside their mouths.

The smell of arousal and harsh pants travel between now that they are both topless and Tobias’s leather clad erection is grinding against Kanin’s freed one as he rocks their hips together. Kanin’s hands grip Tobias’s ass and he pulls the younger vampire harder against him as arches his back wrapping his legs around Tobias’s waist. Tobias’s fingers tease the sensitive area of skin behind Kanin’s testicles and he ignores the dripping shaft that is pressing against his stomach.

Kanin’s right hand buries itself in Tobias’s hair and he crushes their mouths together as his left hand unbuttons and unzips Tobias’s pants. Pushing the pants all the way down seems pointless as Tobias grinds their hips together and one finger teases at his entrance. Their erections rub against one another and Tobias wraps his hand around both and begins pumping.

Even as he trusts upward Kanin tries to still Tobias’s hand as he wants this to last as long as possible, but Tobias will have none of it. Blunt teeth bite into Kanin’s neck, a punishing pleasure that causes the older vampire to arch up as his seed splatters their stomachs and chests. Tobias comes seconds after, his teeth releasing Kanin’s neck as he moans harshly.

The younger vampire remains still on top of Kanin breathing quietly. Kanin gently runs his fingers through his brown hair and massages his scalp as he waits with a forlorn expression for the younger vampire to accuse him of taking advantage.

Tobias shifts until he is laying curled against Kanin’s side and nuzzles into the older vampire’s collar. He sighs quietly and closes his eyes with a contentment he hasn‘t felt in a long time.

After what seems like a half hour of silence Kanin glances down at Tobias, realizing that the younger vampire is asleep. He checks the bandages on Tobias’s chest and is pleased to find the wound underneath haven’t started bleeding again. Tobias murmurs quietly and nuzzles harder against him, one hand slithering around Kanin’s waist to hold him still. Kanin smiles tenderly at the younger vampire as Tobias cuddles against him, then he shifts and pulls the covers over them. Holding Tobias close and resting his chin on the brown haired vampire’s head he closes his eyes and waits for sleep to come.


Author\'s note: okay just so everyone knows tobias is(not) a sissy vampire, i know he seems like one right now but there is a reason for that