Rain On Me

Rain on Me
Lyrics: SWV “Rain”

I was flying.
No, not literally, although I wished. My arms were spread eagle-style, and my feet was soaring underneath me.
“Bianca!”
Someone called my name. It was Mom. Or maybe it was Adrienne. Who knew?
I felt like the boy in the bubble except my bubble wasn’t made of plastic. It consisted of pain, grief, and sorrow.

~Sometimes it’s soft as a misty rain~
~That gently touches my soul~ The The clouds cried out onto my ebony black hair and drenched my depressing fun app apparel.
It was as if Mother Nature was agreeing with my mood.

~It cools the fire that burns in me~
~I simply lose control~

I continued gliding in the neighborhood street, and luckily there wasn’t any traffic.
I watched as one of my best friends, Alyssa Marie Myrick, was buried today, and that was the cherry on top of my fucked-up life sundae.

~So just rain down on me~
~Let your love just fall like raindrops~

Alyssa had killed herself…over a boy. I didn’t know whether to be disappointed at her, hate him, or be angry with myself for allowing it to happen. My emotions were as tangled as a ball of yarn.

~Rain, on me~
~Just, rain down on me~

Thundered boomed in the darkened sky.
I loved the rain. Whether it was hardly falling or falling hard like it was now. I never used an umbrella. Maybe somewhere in me I hoped that the rain would rinse away all my problems.

~Let your love just shower me~
~Just rain, on me~

Upon approaching my destination, I removed myself from the street. Mud and water splattered beneath me as I continued to fly.

~Full as a dam at capacity~
~My passion's about to explode, yeah~

I finally reached the playground set and climbed to the top of it. I parked myself on the upper portion of the slide.
Whenever I wanted to poison myself with thought, I usually came to the neighborhood park. Of course it was better when no kids were playing.
The lightning seemed to flash an upside down smile.

~I can't escape, it's surrounding me~
~I'm caught in a storm, that I don't need no shelter from~

I was treng, ng, not from the icy cold water soaking me, but from the haunting realization that she had only lived for sixteen years. It was also scary that a boy had that much control over her that would drive her to do something so catastrophic.
A cool hand touched my shoulder. I jumped, startled. I glanced up to see Chase, my boyfriend.

~Rain down, on me~
~Let your love just fall like raindrops~

Thunder sounded and lightning flared as I stood and embraced his strong arms.
“H-H-How’d you know I was here?” I asked in barley a whisper.
“I stopped by your house, and your mom told me that you had ran off.” A raindrop fell on my eyelash. “I figured you’d be here thinking.”
As soon as my mother had pulled into our driveway, and turned the car off, I had sprinted off like an escaped slave down the street.

~Rain, on me~
~Just, rain down on me~

I loved Chase dearly. When no one else could help me, I could count on him. Sometimes I went to him before I went to my girls.
To me, Chase was my red rose surrounded by spiky thorns. My nightlight in a blackened room.
To bad my parents couldn’t comprehend that.

~Let your love just shower me~
~Just rain, on me~

I lived in Palos Heights, IL., a mainly white dominated suburb southwest of Chicago. Of course on the cake of white people, there were black like me, Asian like Chase, and Hispanic sprinkles.
My parents knew this when we moved out there thirteen years ago. They also knew that when I started dating that there was a possibility that I would date someone of a different race. Hell, no matter where we lived there was that prospect.
But they still had an issue with Chase.
My mother was always trying to do little stuff to break us up like try to hook me up with black boys from church.
My father on the other hand didn’t try to break us up. He made stereotypical jokes such as when I got my nails did, would I go over his house, or did he drive twenty miles under the speed limit when he took me out on dates.
I couldn’t stand either of my parents.

~Shower, shower, shower...~
~Sprinkle, sprinkle, sprinkle...~

Standing on my tiptoes, my five feet four frame reached up to kiss his five feet nine physique. With my arms locked around his neck, and his hands fondling my ass, we made out passionately. I gave him all I had. I wanted my pain to melt away from the heat from our mouths.

~Fall down e~ e~
~Your love just falls on me~

I released my lips from his and gazed into his slanted Japanese eyes.
“Don’t cry,” he replied, wiping a falling tear from my cheek. I was surprised he could tell that a tear had fallen since my face was already wet from the rain.
Chase reassured, “Everything will be okay.”
“It’ll be okay once you make love to me.”
He nodded, and we kissed deeply again, most in-depth than the first time. Thunder roared, and it was like God saying, “Damn” because of the intensity of our passion.

~Fall down, fall down on me~
~Let it, fall down, fall on me~

Chase laid me down, my head and upper part of my back resting on the slide.
As we smooched, my fingers found their way to his shirt buttons. I commenced to unfasten them, and when his chest was exposed to me, I traced the lines on his toned body with my fingertips.

~Just rain down on me~
~Chill me with your loving touch~

We werth nth naked while I watched as he rolled on a condom he found in his wallet.
Chase’s pale-colored body slowly covered my caramel-complexion one. I wrapped my thin legs around his lean waist and grabbed the slide’s rails.
He entered me, his dark brown orbs boring into my olive green ones. It took a few thrusts before he was buried at the hilt.

~Rain (rain) on me~
~I wanna feel your love is real so just~

I gripped the rails tightly as Chase rapidly moved in and out of me. I was farther down the slide, and I knew if I let go of the rails my body would skid down the slide into the puddle.
I squeezed my eyes shut as I felt the sensation as Chase’s tongue outlined the areola of my breast, and then the nipple. He rotated between each breast as he did this.

~Rain down, on me, meee..~
~Rain, on, meee..~
~Oh baby just~

I reopened my eyes to find myself staring at upside swings. I had slid a little farther down.
I felt the world viewed me upside down. Not in the sense I was being fucked, but in a backwardstcastcast, lame, freak way.
I closed my eyes once more, trying to rid myself of those thoughts and concentrate on how damn good this felt.

~Rain down, on me~
~Let your love just fall like raindrops~

The sound of our grunts and moans combined with the sound of skin slapping and the thunder’s noise was a musical beat to my ears that could compare to no sonhe lhe lightning’s glow just added to the scenery.
“I won’t let you go, Bianca. I got you, baby,” he cooed into my chest and the vibration from his voice sent shivers up my spine.

~Rain, on me~
~Just, rain down on me~

With each thrust of his dick, it was as if a problem was being pushed out of me.
Thrust.
Alyssa’s suicide.
Thrust.
Parents’ divorce.
Thrust.
Adrienne’s sickle cell anemia.
Thrust.
Niceness being taken advantage of.
Thrust.
Witnessing grandmother being robbed, beaten, and killed.
Thrust.
I opened my eyes just as lightning beautifully illuminated the sky.
With my eyes rolled back and mouth agape, I cried out as a powerful orgasm consumed me, and the thunder drowned out my whelp.

~Let your love just shower me~
~Just rain, on me~

Chase and I were entangled in one another’s arms, nude, and recovering from our earth scattering orgasms.
The rain had died down to a drizzle. The water made it looked as if our bodies were weeping.
My head relaxed on Chase’s chest, and he smoothed down my bang, and then proceeded to stroke my hair.
“I love you, Chase Hatoyama.”
“I love you too, Bianca Michaels.” He moved a strand of hair from my face. “Don’t worry, everything will be okay.”
And for that moment, it was.

~Sometimes it's soft as a misty rain~

Rest in peace Alyssa Marie Myrick