Still Wondering
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Category:
Poetry › Free Verse
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
1
Views:
637
Reviews:
3
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
Disclaimer:
This is a work of poetry. Any resemblance of characters to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. The Author holds exclusive rights to this work. Unauthorized duplication is prohibited.
Still Wondering
Still Wondering
It\'s been three years and I still don\'t know
What I could have done, how I could have changed it all.
I probably should have called you, asked how you were
Since your mom had pulled you out of school.
But I didn\'t call, that just wasn\'t my thing,
And as we were partying a J\'s b-day party…
You were hanging, you were dying…
I feel so guilty. Still so guilty.
My family and I we where out in Granvile
Our Xmas excursion, we did this every year, but that year…
I came home, a message on the phone, set to call A, she called first.
She and parents came over, we went upstairs,
Wouldn\'y why what was wrong… Dad came… Cut to the chase….
K\'s dead…. She hanged herself last night…..
I believe it…. I don\'t doubt.. But still I can\'t believe….
You were one of my best friends….
Reverend came over, he said this was your freedom,
You couldn\'t see another way out, your depression….
It wasn\'t your fault, wasn\'t mine, life sucked, then you died.
All I could think about was did you suffer? Were you scared?
I pray you went to heaven, did not wander on the Earth….
I did not see your body though I gave you my Pathfinder Scarf…
You loved Guiding, you were cremated in that uniform.
I never really go to say good-bye….
That funeral.. Memorial.. That ate away my faith.. Destroyed me inside
They barely spoke about you… They preached their faith… How could they?
You loved Christmas, you died nine days before it… They didn\'t like it.
I cried there, in rage that they would ignore you… Use you…
I felt like I could scream right there but I held it in….
You know the luncheon afterwards?
Some woman tried to sell me on their faith! HAVE SOME RESPECT!
My friend just died! How dare you try and convert me!?
I have no more faith… No more faith in humanity
People used you, abused you… You were the best person I ever knew.
You loved animals, and Guiding, always smiled
Even when depression was eating you alive
And they used you, abused you… I guess I used you too
I wrote this about you…. I just want to tell someone….
I miss you, I mourn you, why did you have to go?
Was it my fault? Was a a bad friend?
These are some things I can never know. Because you are gone.
I can\'t thank you for your support against bullies.
I can\'t hang out with you, you missed Grad….
These years have been Hell without you…
I miss you forever K….. I promise you I won\'t forget
Even if everyone else has.
This is a tribute to a good friend of mine who died Dec. 16, 2000, because she couldn\'t get herself to talk to anyone, and did not take her meds, she committed suicide. If you feel depressed, PLEASE talk to someone…. Because if you don\'t… You are going to leave some one like me and K\'s friends and family behind. Some who will never get over it. Please… Seek help.
with respect, Arty
It\'s been three years and I still don\'t know
What I could have done, how I could have changed it all.
I probably should have called you, asked how you were
Since your mom had pulled you out of school.
But I didn\'t call, that just wasn\'t my thing,
And as we were partying a J\'s b-day party…
You were hanging, you were dying…
I feel so guilty. Still so guilty.
My family and I we where out in Granvile
Our Xmas excursion, we did this every year, but that year…
I came home, a message on the phone, set to call A, she called first.
She and parents came over, we went upstairs,
Wouldn\'y why what was wrong… Dad came… Cut to the chase….
K\'s dead…. She hanged herself last night…..
I believe it…. I don\'t doubt.. But still I can\'t believe….
You were one of my best friends….
Reverend came over, he said this was your freedom,
You couldn\'t see another way out, your depression….
It wasn\'t your fault, wasn\'t mine, life sucked, then you died.
All I could think about was did you suffer? Were you scared?
I pray you went to heaven, did not wander on the Earth….
I did not see your body though I gave you my Pathfinder Scarf…
You loved Guiding, you were cremated in that uniform.
I never really go to say good-bye….
That funeral.. Memorial.. That ate away my faith.. Destroyed me inside
They barely spoke about you… They preached their faith… How could they?
You loved Christmas, you died nine days before it… They didn\'t like it.
I cried there, in rage that they would ignore you… Use you…
I felt like I could scream right there but I held it in….
You know the luncheon afterwards?
Some woman tried to sell me on their faith! HAVE SOME RESPECT!
My friend just died! How dare you try and convert me!?
I have no more faith… No more faith in humanity
People used you, abused you… You were the best person I ever knew.
You loved animals, and Guiding, always smiled
Even when depression was eating you alive
And they used you, abused you… I guess I used you too
I wrote this about you…. I just want to tell someone….
I miss you, I mourn you, why did you have to go?
Was it my fault? Was a a bad friend?
These are some things I can never know. Because you are gone.
I can\'t thank you for your support against bullies.
I can\'t hang out with you, you missed Grad….
These years have been Hell without you…
I miss you forever K….. I promise you I won\'t forget
Even if everyone else has.
This is a tribute to a good friend of mine who died Dec. 16, 2000, because she couldn\'t get herself to talk to anyone, and did not take her meds, she committed suicide. If you feel depressed, PLEASE talk to someone…. Because if you don\'t… You are going to leave some one like me and K\'s friends and family behind. Some who will never get over it. Please… Seek help.
with respect, Arty