I Will Never Forsake You
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Adult +
Chapters:
3
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964
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I Will Never Forsake You
Author's Note: Spur of the moment stuff, as usual. Just got back from Dreamcatcher, and on the way there John had been playing Linkin Park. Got my creative and horny mind working. :D Not my fault. It's also rather sick"¦ like almost a Rachel. ^_^ Enjoy yet another piece of my mindless smut.
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I Will Never Forsake You
By xaphanea
Theme: Lies, Evanescence
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She stifled a moan.
He caressed her breast.
She arched her back.
He moved his hips.
She cried out in elation.
He held her close.
She told him she loved him.
He ignored her.
Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
"Elex you fucking FREAK!"
"Get out of my way, bitch."
"Don't touch me you fucking dyke."
The voices that I heard every day. The voices that haunted me on my long journey down the hallway at school. The voices that ridiculed me no matter what I did, how I expressed myself. There was no turning back now. I couldn't change to suit anyone's tastes anymore. They all hated me"¦ or liked me because I was an easy target. The rumours that floated around about me didn't even sting anymore, that's how bad it had gotten. I didn't know what to do anymore, but that wasn't mattering to me anymore. I had found someone who understood me. Someone who cared about me. Someone who loved me. And I didn't have to worry about anyone else anymore. Because I had all I ever needed.
I found him just closing his locker that Monday morning, and smiled broadly for the first time in ages. I tapped his shoulder confidently, eyes twinkling under the flickering ghetto lights of our school hallway.
"I thought I told you to stay away from me." Carlon muttered, shoving me aside. I stared at him breathlessly, my eyes widening in confusion. I watched him stalk down the hallway, and couldn't believe my senses. My heart shattered into a thousand pieces, and I stood there for a moment, trying to collect them. A few bystanders looked at me in awe, wondering what had just gone on. I suppose they figured that I wanted Carlon"¦ and that I didn't have a chance in hell.
But I DID.
We made love"¦
Or was it just sex to him?
My heart pieces could wait. My confusion and sadness was replaced by a primal anger that I knew all too well. I had flipped on people before, broken bones and inflicted lots of pain. That was when my temper was minimal. Multiply that by ten, and that's what I was feeling as Carlon disappeared around the corner that day. My face was hot, fury boiling beneath my skin like undertow churning beneath the water's surface. I wasn't ready to break any bones or inflict any pain. I was ready to kill someone.
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
I left school before the bell even rang. I knew that if I stayed there any longer then I would be dangerous to anyone who got in my way. And if I were to hurt someone who had done nothing to me"¦ my stomach would remind me later and tickle my conscience terribly.
There was planning to do.
Carlon was going to pay for what he had done to me.
I wasn't sure exactly how, except that it was going to be violent.
Very violent.
They\'ll never see
I\'ll never be
I\'ll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
There was a huge party that Friday, and I made my preparations before then. I didn't go to school all week, but it didn't matter. Not like my parents were around to care anyway. The secretaries didn't even call my house. They knew that nobody would care"¦ I don't even think they cared. Nice town.
Friday rolled around, and I got my outfit perfect. Simple black dress, black heeled sandals, and my mahogaair air loose and straight halfway down my back. I walked three blocks to where the party had already started, music pulsating and shaking the very concrete outside. I stood, staring up at the looming three stories, and narrowed my eyes, primeval hunger for revenge dancing in my chest. I licked my black painted lips, and opened the front door, blasted by sound. I was nearly deafened, but tuned it out easily enough. I had been used to tuning out my parents when they fought"¦ until they started yelling at me.
THAT is why they're dead.
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
"What the fuck are you doing in my house, dyke?" A familiar voice bellowed from the stairs. It was his party; he was a well known popular jock of the social circle at our school. Anton was his name, and he was a complete and utter asshole.
"I'm not a lesbian. Not that my sexual preference is your business." I stated, crossing my arms and reveling in the sight of Anton's glances at my chest. It amused me to watch him squirm and fight not to look at me, just as Carlon had done the weekend before. He had acted on his impulses, told me what I wanted to hear, and then tossed me aside as if I were useless. I wondered how many other girls he had used like that"¦ and then pushed that thought he bhe back of my mind.
No more. I would pay him back for all the hearts he broke.
"Whatever, Elex." Anton wavis his hand at me, obviously partially drunk. He would have shoved me out the door otherwise. "You can be a slut, a lesbian slut, or swing both ways. I really don't give a fuck. Just don't hit on my girlfriend, or I'll misplace your fucking"¦ face." He staggered off into the living room, and I chortled at his threat. He was drunk enough to hit me, but I was much more skilled and experienced in fighting than he was. Sure, he had messed around with his fellow jocks, but I had beaten the shit out of many people in my time. Not to mention far worse things that I was exceptional at.
Setting my mind back on the task at hand, I set out to locate Carlon in the crowded house.
Rest in me and I\'ll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
After asking around, and being shrugged off, ignored, or degraded countless times, I finally found him in a closet with two girls that I'd never seen before. He was too drunk or stoned to even notice the door opening, and I shoved the two skanks out the door before he knew what was going on. I reclaimed my rightful position in his strong arms, and probed my tongue deeply into his mouth. He responded easily, an amazing kisser despite his hazy and impaired state. I slid my thigh up between his, feeling his rather large erection through his jeans. I chuckled, and opened the closet door, pulling him out into the dim light.
One of the two girls lay passed out on the carpet, and the other was cozied up to another guy in the corner. I led Carlon up the stairs, and he followed willingly. He gave me a shove into Anton's room, and then stepped in, sloppily locking the door behind him. I grinned wickedly, spotting a pair of handcuffs on Anton's dresser. I couldn't see the key anywhere, which was just perfect. It beat using a belt or a rope. This would ensure complete confinement.
I lifted the handcuffs with a finger, dangling it in front of him. He inclined his head, raising his eyebrows in interest. I pushed him onto the water bed, and then slid on top of him, brushing my breasts against every inch of his body. He groaned, and I knew that he was yearning for me. It was painfully obvious. It didn't take much coaxing to get him to stick his wrists through the headboard posts, and then click the handcuffs shut. I made sure they were tight, as I didn't want him getting free from my little trap.
They\'ll never see
I\'ll never be
I\'ll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
I snaked down his body, taking the zipper of his pants in my teeth and dragging it down to reveal his fully erect penis. I tore off his pants and boxers in one full sweep, causing him to squirm in anticipation.
"God"¦ Elex"¦ please"¦" He begged, and I was satisfied that he realized it was me. Carlon was known to yell many different girls' names during sex. I was glad that he knew I would be the one to destroy him. I took his entire length into my mouth, and then simply held myself there, not allowing him to move an inch. I grasped his hips tightly, keeping him from moving as I tortured him slowly. I let him beg for a good five minutes, it was pathetic, but utterly amusing. I finally released him, and backback, watching him breathe heavy. He was a truly beautiful creature, it was too bad thatwas was such an arrogant and ignorant fuck. I really loved him"¦ but he crossed me.
And nobody crosses Elex Hunt.
I straddled his hips, lowering myself down onto him quickly. I hadn't worn any panties under my dress, as they would have been a nuisance to me during this ordeal. He ground out my name, and I smiled. I watched him claw at the headboard, aching to take control of the sex I was bestowing upon him. I rocked back and forth, and then pulled up almost all the way. I teased him for a moment, and then slammed back down, crying out myself in pleasure. He whimpered, and I threw my head back, laughing insanely.
Deciding it was time, just before he blew his load, I produced a knife from a sheath attached to my outer thigh. Nobody had really noticed it, since it was small enough to be hidden easily. Carlon's face was scrunched up and his eyes were closed, so he didn't know what hit him until it actually did.
He squealed like a little girl as I dismembered him.
END
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I Will Never Forsake You
By xaphanea
Theme: Lies, Evanescence
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She stifled a moan.
He caressed her breast.
She arched her back.
He moved his hips.
She cried out in elation.
He held her close.
She told him she loved him.
He ignored her.
Bound at every limb by my shackles of fear
Sealed with lies through so many tears
Lost from within, pursuing the end
I fight for the chance to be lied to again
"Elex you fucking FREAK!"
"Get out of my way, bitch."
"Don't touch me you fucking dyke."
The voices that I heard every day. The voices that haunted me on my long journey down the hallway at school. The voices that ridiculed me no matter what I did, how I expressed myself. There was no turning back now. I couldn't change to suit anyone's tastes anymore. They all hated me"¦ or liked me because I was an easy target. The rumours that floated around about me didn't even sting anymore, that's how bad it had gotten. I didn't know what to do anymore, but that wasn't mattering to me anymore. I had found someone who understood me. Someone who cared about me. Someone who loved me. And I didn't have to worry about anyone else anymore. Because I had all I ever needed.
I found him just closing his locker that Monday morning, and smiled broadly for the first time in ages. I tapped his shoulder confidently, eyes twinkling under the flickering ghetto lights of our school hallway.
"I thought I told you to stay away from me." Carlon muttered, shoving me aside. I stared at him breathlessly, my eyes widening in confusion. I watched him stalk down the hallway, and couldn't believe my senses. My heart shattered into a thousand pieces, and I stood there for a moment, trying to collect them. A few bystanders looked at me in awe, wondering what had just gone on. I suppose they figured that I wanted Carlon"¦ and that I didn't have a chance in hell.
But I DID.
We made love"¦
Or was it just sex to him?
My heart pieces could wait. My confusion and sadness was replaced by a primal anger that I knew all too well. I had flipped on people before, broken bones and inflicted lots of pain. That was when my temper was minimal. Multiply that by ten, and that's what I was feeling as Carlon disappeared around the corner that day. My face was hot, fury boiling beneath my skin like undertow churning beneath the water's surface. I wasn't ready to break any bones or inflict any pain. I was ready to kill someone.
You will never be strong enough
You will never be good enough
You were never conceived in love
You will not rise above
I left school before the bell even rang. I knew that if I stayed there any longer then I would be dangerous to anyone who got in my way. And if I were to hurt someone who had done nothing to me"¦ my stomach would remind me later and tickle my conscience terribly.
There was planning to do.
Carlon was going to pay for what he had done to me.
I wasn't sure exactly how, except that it was going to be violent.
Very violent.
They\'ll never see
I\'ll never be
I\'ll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
There was a huge party that Friday, and I made my preparations before then. I didn't go to school all week, but it didn't matter. Not like my parents were around to care anyway. The secretaries didn't even call my house. They knew that nobody would care"¦ I don't even think they cared. Nice town.
Friday rolled around, and I got my outfit perfect. Simple black dress, black heeled sandals, and my mahogaair air loose and straight halfway down my back. I walked three blocks to where the party had already started, music pulsating and shaking the very concrete outside. I stood, staring up at the looming three stories, and narrowed my eyes, primeval hunger for revenge dancing in my chest. I licked my black painted lips, and opened the front door, blasted by sound. I was nearly deafened, but tuned it out easily enough. I had been used to tuning out my parents when they fought"¦ until they started yelling at me.
THAT is why they're dead.
But through my tears breaks a blinding light
Birthing a dawn to this endless night
Arms outstretched, awaiting me
An open embrace upon a bleeding tree
"What the fuck are you doing in my house, dyke?" A familiar voice bellowed from the stairs. It was his party; he was a well known popular jock of the social circle at our school. Anton was his name, and he was a complete and utter asshole.
"I'm not a lesbian. Not that my sexual preference is your business." I stated, crossing my arms and reveling in the sight of Anton's glances at my chest. It amused me to watch him squirm and fight not to look at me, just as Carlon had done the weekend before. He had acted on his impulses, told me what I wanted to hear, and then tossed me aside as if I were useless. I wondered how many other girls he had used like that"¦ and then pushed that thought he bhe back of my mind.
No more. I would pay him back for all the hearts he broke.
"Whatever, Elex." Anton wavis his hand at me, obviously partially drunk. He would have shoved me out the door otherwise. "You can be a slut, a lesbian slut, or swing both ways. I really don't give a fuck. Just don't hit on my girlfriend, or I'll misplace your fucking"¦ face." He staggered off into the living room, and I chortled at his threat. He was drunk enough to hit me, but I was much more skilled and experienced in fighting than he was. Sure, he had messed around with his fellow jocks, but I had beaten the shit out of many people in my time. Not to mention far worse things that I was exceptional at.
Setting my mind back on the task at hand, I set out to locate Carlon in the crowded house.
Rest in me and I\'ll comfort you
I have lived and I died for you
Abide in me and I vow to you
I will never forsake you
After asking around, and being shrugged off, ignored, or degraded countless times, I finally found him in a closet with two girls that I'd never seen before. He was too drunk or stoned to even notice the door opening, and I shoved the two skanks out the door before he knew what was going on. I reclaimed my rightful position in his strong arms, and probed my tongue deeply into his mouth. He responded easily, an amazing kisser despite his hazy and impaired state. I slid my thigh up between his, feeling his rather large erection through his jeans. I chuckled, and opened the closet door, pulling him out into the dim light.
One of the two girls lay passed out on the carpet, and the other was cozied up to another guy in the corner. I led Carlon up the stairs, and he followed willingly. He gave me a shove into Anton's room, and then stepped in, sloppily locking the door behind him. I grinned wickedly, spotting a pair of handcuffs on Anton's dresser. I couldn't see the key anywhere, which was just perfect. It beat using a belt or a rope. This would ensure complete confinement.
I lifted the handcuffs with a finger, dangling it in front of him. He inclined his head, raising his eyebrows in interest. I pushed him onto the water bed, and then slid on top of him, brushing my breasts against every inch of his body. He groaned, and I knew that he was yearning for me. It was painfully obvious. It didn't take much coaxing to get him to stick his wrists through the headboard posts, and then click the handcuffs shut. I made sure they were tight, as I didn't want him getting free from my little trap.
They\'ll never see
I\'ll never be
I\'ll struggle on and on to feed this hunger
Burning deep inside of me
I snaked down his body, taking the zipper of his pants in my teeth and dragging it down to reveal his fully erect penis. I tore off his pants and boxers in one full sweep, causing him to squirm in anticipation.
"God"¦ Elex"¦ please"¦" He begged, and I was satisfied that he realized it was me. Carlon was known to yell many different girls' names during sex. I was glad that he knew I would be the one to destroy him. I took his entire length into my mouth, and then simply held myself there, not allowing him to move an inch. I grasped his hips tightly, keeping him from moving as I tortured him slowly. I let him beg for a good five minutes, it was pathetic, but utterly amusing. I finally released him, and backback, watching him breathe heavy. He was a truly beautiful creature, it was too bad thatwas was such an arrogant and ignorant fuck. I really loved him"¦ but he crossed me.
And nobody crosses Elex Hunt.
I straddled his hips, lowering myself down onto him quickly. I hadn't worn any panties under my dress, as they would have been a nuisance to me during this ordeal. He ground out my name, and I smiled. I watched him claw at the headboard, aching to take control of the sex I was bestowing upon him. I rocked back and forth, and then pulled up almost all the way. I teased him for a moment, and then slammed back down, crying out myself in pleasure. He whimpered, and I threw my head back, laughing insanely.
Deciding it was time, just before he blew his load, I produced a knife from a sheath attached to my outer thigh. Nobody had really noticed it, since it was small enough to be hidden easily. Carlon's face was scrunched up and his eyes were closed, so he didn't know what hit him until it actually did.
He squealed like a little girl as I dismembered him.
END